The Thing I Regretted

張貼日期：Dec 07, 2016 2:21:31 PM

Tiffany Tung

I always kept this secret to myself. I have never told my parents about it because I don't want them to feel depressed for me. My parents have had high expectation for me. And I think if they knew about this, they would be very disappointed at me.

The story happened in my high school. My Chinese teacher is a conscientious person. I have to say I respect her a lot. But what she did to me made me feel unfair. Every year our school would hold a Chinese composition competition. At the second year of high school, I was honored to represent our class as the competitor. At the end of the competition I won the first prize. I was happy and proud of myself. But what happened next made me shocked.

Every champion could join the competition outside the campus to represent the school. But I was replaced without any notification. My Chinese teacher asked my homeroom teacher to tell me that after she decided to have someone else take my place. And the reason was because the topics which I could handle were limited. What made me upset was that she didn't ask for my willingness. She didn’t even ask for my consent. I just lost this opportunity all of the sudden.

After this incident, I always thought this was all my deficiency. If I could write better, or if I practiced enough, maybe I would not have been replaced. That might be the truth. But I still thought I should have talked to her face to face. The thing I regretted the most was that I didn’t fight for my right. I could talk to my Chinese teacher about the replacement, but I didn’t. I was afraid that she would judge me and tell me that I wasn’t good enough to join the regional competition. Even though she might say that, I should have stood in front of her and talked about my strong will to join the competition.

If I had fought for it that day, maybe today the ending would have been different. Maybe I would have won the competition and made my parents proud of me. Next time, if someone takes my right away, I will definitely fight for myself without any hesitation.