Losing a Best Friend

張貼日期：Feb 04, 2022 3:56:0 PM

Latis Zheng

Losing someone close to us can be one of the hardest things to go through. Whether it be from death, a betrayal, an argument, or following different paths, it will have a great psychological impact on us. Five years ago there was a painful memory in my life; I have a breakup with my best friend.

My friend and I grew up together and have the same interest. However, when I was 20 years old, I suddenly received news of his suicide. I was shocked when I knew it. I started to think about why he committed suicide because I really couldn’t figure out why he did it. I also started asking my friends whether he had said anything before he left. Finally, I personally visited his family.

He had been fighting against depression for a long time, which he never mentioned. When he was in a bad mood, he asked me to play video games with him, but I often refused his request for various reasons. I didn’t expect that it might have indirectly led to this consequence. As his best friend, I didn’t notice these little details, so I felt much self-blame for his death.

In the first week of his death, my friends tried to convince me that it was not my fault, and I should not feel responsible. But I still couldn't control my emotions. Seeing any objects related to him would remind me of the time we spent together, and this also caused my emotional ups and downs.

I chose to live in another city and start my new life after two years. Every day is a struggle, but I still must work hard for my own life. I found a new job and shifted the focus of my life to work. Although I still miss him a lot, I think he wants me to start a new life instead of indulging in the pain of losing a loved one. Therefore, I will combat the sense of loss and work hard to earn a worthy life.