Change of My Mental State

張貼日期：Apr 02, 2017 4:41:26 AM

Jason Huang

I can't help looking back when I was a child. More or less, perhaps as a child I did not think too much. But I could learn from the mistake and grow from the defeat. Thinking about it, I did everything I think nothing special and just funny. But now I would say everything I did was childish. Growing up, I have changed a lot in my mental state, and my attitude toward others.

When I was a child, the school teacher designated me to be the leader of the class or discipline leader, hoping I could manage the class. And I was always elected to be the personnel leader; I thought everyone should listen to me. If they didn’t, I would tell the teacher, and she would help me to handle it. As a result, everyone thought I was so overbearing and didn’t want to chat or play with me. And now, I will listen to what other people say because I know I am not always right. I sometimes make a mistake.

I used to do anything or say something following my mind, and did not mind what others thought. Thus, I often spoke out without thinking and with no concern for others. I did not think in others’ shoes. There were times when some of my classmates thought every sentence I said was hurting. They didn’t like my words and gradually kept away from me. Now, before I say something, I will think carefully and rehearse my language so I will not say something that may offend others.

When I was a child, I had a quick temper. For example, if someone forgot to return the pen I lent him. I would roar to him, “Why did you forget to give my pen back?” And I would feel rotten all day. With the growth of age, my bad temper was hidden and mitigated. Now I have a Poker Face so other people can’t know what my real emotion is.

My attitude in my childhood and adulthood are completely different. I don’t know how to explain this change; maybe it is reality that forces me to grow up and blends into the society. Although I made many mistakes when I was a child, I am really thankful that I have grown much with time. And I don’t worry about repeating the same mistakes in the future.