Seize the Day I Can

張貼日期：Dec 27, 2010 12:19:36 PM

Seize the Day I Can

 Tina Ng

      Nowadays, people are suffering from many kinds of disease, especially cancers. Many researchers, professional doctors or specialists can only save the patients in miracles. My mum died of cancer when I was 17 years old in high school. I’ve learned the lesson and changed myself a lot since then.

      Although many friends of my parents or relatives said that I am a nice girl who did a good job when my mum was sick, honestly, I couldn’t accept the compliments at all because I never followed her orders and had been so mean before and I regret for many things, such as losing temper on her easily, slapping the door heavily, and of course taking her concern as nagging. All I can remember is how she was mad at me or why she didn’t want to talk to me. It’s definitely not enough to just take good care of her patiently for 7 months.

      Since I knew how seriously she was sick, I took responsibilities as a real daughter for everything in daily routines, such as preparing meals, helping her take medicines, and take showers, etc in her everyday life, I did nothing at all if I ignored those 7 months. Because of mum’s illness, I adjusted myself to have a soft personality and express my feelings toward others responsively as possible as I could. From then on, I cherish everyone who I can about in my life and of course tell them bravely how much I love them and how much I miss them. Moreover, I treat my family as the most important treasure. I would go home every weekend and spend time with family as possible as I can, even just sitting together in the living room and doing nothing. I enjoy it very much!

      To conclude, although I’m definitely depressed for losing my dear mum, no one can figure out the real me on the surface. I would like to believe that she is simply taking her journey somewhere. I will wait to give everyone, including her, my sunshine smile. I’m not scared of showing love to anyone now. Time flies, I can’t make everything in control so that I just need to seize every moment.