You are not alone! There are so many others just like you!
Many millions in America alone!
Close to one quarter of all Humanity- at least, perhaps far more^- feels just like you do deep inside, even if they don't accept it!
Including so many of the sensitive artist types like me, who naturally fall in love with both men and women because as sensitive artists we are sensitive to the beauty and kindness and love in everyone! Look up Leonardo da Vinci, Walt Whitman, Billie Holiday, and Oscar Wilde, and Michelangelo and Tchaikovsky were certainly gay! It is just so, so natural for a sensitive artist type to be attracted to beautiful and kind people of all kinds, to fall madly in love with kind, beautiful people of any kind, and it certainly is natural for a sensitive artist to especially identify with the side of that that is different from the accepted mainstream! This is as natural as finding beauty and kindness and love in the places where you are not supposed to, and falling in love with that, and loving those people! Look it up- so many sensitive artist types throughout history have been gay or bi, simply because it is natural to see beauty and kindness and love in people of all kinds, and it is natural to identify with the other side that is left out of the mainstream! This is artistic truth, the truth of beauty and kindness and love! And we sensitive artist types feel that!
I feel that deeply! I am a hypersensitive artist, and when I go to my favorite Starbucks, where the employees are all so gentle and kind, I see all these beautiful, kind people who work there, and I have a mad crush on each and every one of them, man and woman, because they are all precious, they are all beautiful, and they are all kind! I would love to just touch their gentle hand, their gentle kind beautiful fingers with mine! I bask in the beauty and gentle warmth of their beautiful arms, their warm smile, and feel such joy! From the gentle men as well as the gentle women! I would give my life for any one of them! I would feel privileged to give my life for them! And this is as natural as finding beauty in every flower, and not just the yellow ones!
And how natural is it to especially find beauty and love where you are told you are not supposed to! For every flower is sweet, and you can leave the more loved flowers to everyone else! It is the dream of the secret beauty that no one else knows!
These are biological feelings that are built into your brain, they are the way you are made, and they are as natural as our brain being capable of feeling love and giving kindness to others!
What you are is natural, and close to one quarter of all Humanity- at least- is like you deep inside, and far more than that of the sensitive artist types!
And what you feel can activate your hero instincts just like it does in me! Remember that I said I would die for them! These do not have to be unhealthy feelings! These can be positive, hero feelings that can save the world! No matter which sex they are directed at!
God loves you! Never doubt that! You are His precious child, and you are not alone!
If God hated gays, why would He give so much talent and genius to them? (see Leonardo, Michelangelo, etc. above!) Why would God object to finding beauty and love in people of both sexes? God loves you! Never doubt that!
Sincerely,
David S. Annderson
^ In a poll conducted in 2021 it was found that 39% of people ages 18 to 24- those most likely to be accepting of it- identified themselves as LGBTQ!