I would like to share that I have a mental disability which, while it doesn't prevent me from doing things a 'normal' person could, has been a difficulty for me. (Is anybody really 'normal'?) I have Asperger's Syndrome and Tourette's Syndrome, both of which are related to autism. I would like people to see that something like this won't prevent you from living your dreams and being happy. I have done more good writing than I ever imagined I could! And I got to share it with you! Whether it's a disability or poverty or something else, don't let it get in the way of your happiness or your dreams.
And I have no regrets. I like my brain. It has weaknesses, and it has strengths. With it I have written my stories, and I would never give that up. Sometimes you have to take the baby with the bath water. I have no regrets. I like my brain. And facing my condition has made me stronger, has made me unafraid, and this has made me feel more free. I hope you find similar strength and freedom in your life.
6/11/21:The Truth
What I have told you above is what I tell to people who can only believe in what science tells them. It is all true, but it is not the whole truth. To science it is called Asperger's Syndrome and Tourette's Syndrome, and it is on the Autism spectrum, and they do not know what causes it.
I know what causes it.
I am feeling this poor world's pain.
The world has suffered so much in the past 200 years. Black slavery, European colonialism, the World Wars, the Cold War... the world is recovering from the worst crisis in the history of civilization. Less than a century ago we were going through the World Wars. We have yet to recover psychologically from that as a civilization. Africa and parts of Asia have yet to recover from European colonial rule. America is still suffering from the effects of Black slavery. We are hurting the natural environment.
My brain is unusually sensitive to the pain of the world. That's what Autism is, that's what most mental illness in the world today is. We are feeling the pain of the world.
By healing myself, I can take some of that pain away from the world.
I am proud that God and the world has chosen me. The world deserves for its pain to be heard. There is no healing until the pain is heard.
That's the truth behind my so-called 'disability'.
And that's the biggest reason I have no regrets.
And that's the rest of the truth about my so-called 'disability'.
Sincerely,
David S. Annderson