chapter 494

4/16/2018

Bluebird of Happiness

signs, signs, everwhere signs

Let's start at the beginning. I appeared on the Theresa Caputo show last night at the 2:02 hour:minute mark. I'm in my usual plaid shirt standing up, top row because my hip hurt to sit down. This teaser preview was apparently for next week's Sunday night show on the TLC cable channel. The "Theresa Caputo Live" show I attended was a year ago 3/19/2017 at Proctors in Schenectady and immediately sold out, thus my last available seats on the last row of the upper balcony. Colleen is to my right with her typical little hat. Audience was looking around wondering where Theresa was because she had been going through the ground floor isles then disappeared. As she entered the balcony they went wild of course. Teaser: watch at your own volition. It's ok to believe. disclaimer: half fake, this is actually the Utica show- but the scene looks very much like Schenectady and I really thought I had matched it because of the uncanny matching details. Is that some sort of psychic phenomenon.

Earlier that day a year ago we had taken some pineapple and corn muffins up for Lucas. I just got this picture off my hard drive and I now notice the white heart on the countertop along with dried flowers that Kathy had given to Melissa. These are signs from beyond, the far side. [ I believe ]

This is not to say, for instance, that signs appear magically. There are logical explanations. There is probably a light fixture with three bulbs such that the reflection would appear as a heart. But it wasn't planned and it's the unlikely alignment of random coincidences that come together and create a spiritual scenario.

The morning after that year ago Theresa Caputo show I looked up to the heavens while getting the mail. An airliner was just passing by a half (not a whole) moon. Dark side of the moon? Another sign I had believed with Kathy's close association with airlines.

Skip forward to a week ago 4/9/2018. I was watching my dvr recording of a recent Theresa Caputo show. She was consoling a daughter who had lost her mom. Theresa advised to not fret over the things that were missed out on in that relationship, but to cherish the things that were done together. At this moment  out the corner of my eye I saw this hawk fly across the back yard and light in this tree. Put TV on pause as I photographed. Wont bore you with the native american spirituality of hawks and the meaning of messages they bring.

Thinking the hawk was spirit, I put on a Joel Osteen Youtube recording and began washing the windows that morning. He was talking about how spirit comes into your life at irregular intervals to give you messages. As I cleaned the entry way windows I recalled how perhaps a year ago I had removed a little glass bird that I believe Kathy and I bought at the local Artique shop. It was in the hallway for years but I just wanted to clean up the too many knick knacks hanging around. Went to the pantry and surprisingly found it.

It was marked Leo Ward 1988. Had no idea what that meant, but upon Googling found out these are Bluebirds of Happiness each inscribed by the glass blower in Arkansas. Was just reminded that grandson Lucas's initials are L.E.O.

Native Americans believe the bluebird has mythological significance. Found one link to a Bluebird song by the Navajo . I've been wearing my Hopi ring from Navajo country for over a year. I believe it has spiritual power.

Now if we look for signs, sure we will see them. Is it happenstance or something more. Skepticism and logic, yin and yang. I feel there is something more. That's it. It's not so much the observation, it's more the feeling that can't be quantified. Anyway, it's fun to believe and look for signs. 

Was looking at the lines in my hand and googling found that the bluebird is just above the intersection of my heart and fate lines. Do I look too intensely for signs? It's just how my mind works; curiosity is a good thing (except for cats).

By the way, I interact very sparingly (maybe once in a couple years) with the guy I searched for from my first Theresa Caputo Live 2014 show . He did marry the date he was with that night and he "liked" a picture of Colleen with my grand daughter. It was just a small but a meaningful "like".

My nature is to not get sentimental but Kathy is always with me in spirit and in my heart. It's not a bad thing, it's good.

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