Losing everything

How Amazon Ruined My Life. 

By Mr. Nobody 4-22-19

Hi, to who decides to read this, I am Mr. Nobody and I want to share my story about how working for Amazon Warehouse has ruined my life. I want this to be clear this not a suicide note, but what has been building on my mind and in my heart sometime and I have to get it off my

chest before it destroys me. Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I am a husband and a father of two children soon to be three. And, how came to be at Amazon was basically I needed a change from my previous job and it was growing with hopes for advancement. I went to college and was IT intern but like many other people I can’t get a job with my degree. So, back to story, I started at Amazon a week before Thanksgiving in 2016 working overnights four ten hour days or five elevens during the holidays. I worked hard to show my worth in that particular department. My manager at the time noticed the hard work I did and had me train in other facets of the department. Things were good I was happy at the time. I started making friends at the warehouse majority of them quit or got fired only two of them actually got promoted both of them had to move away though. Anyway, that manager quit and I got a new manager. This manager was my favorite. He was fair, blunt, and told it like it is. He noticed my work too and training me more on the managerial side of the department which is basically something I already learned in college. Long story short, I was promoted to a temporary managerial role for the holidays of 2017. I did well at the position, but all good things come to an end. This is when everything started turning bad. I went back to my old job with a promise of an opportunity for a permanent managerial spot. It never came to be during that time I had to leave second child shows up, I am gone for six weeks. I come back I have a new manager the last one got promoted. He introduces himself and says he heard nothing but good things about me. Ironically the date I come back is the last day to re-apply for another managerial position and nothing comes of it again. 

Meanwhile, at home things are become stressful due to the newest edition. I’m trying to get promoted to better provide for my family. I always worrying about it and trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel and it is fading away. So, I keep working, and another managerial

spot opens up in the holidays of 2018. One of the managers told me about and I have a really good on this one. He was so confident he had me begin training my replacement. So, I begin training her as I train we begin to talk and turns out we have a lot in common and we became

friends. During that time Amazon announced publicly that all regular employees would get paid $15.00 an hour. Unknowing to me at the time this would be the beginning of the end.

Meanwhile, all this is happening we get another manager the newest one got promoted. This manager is one now one of the big bosses and he came and told me he needs me to do my old job this holiday and he’ll promise a managerial job after the holidays. I told him don’t make me a promise you can’t keep. So, my friend tells me more about him and she was her boss and promised her all these things and never followed through. She was right. During that holiday, I couldn’t sleep well and was dreading coming to work. But, for my families sake I came my body was there my mind was in a bad place. My friend would talk to me and cheer me up and so on she was the last ray hope I had the warehouse. Until, she came to me and told me there is a rumor that we’re having an affair and that she should distance herself from me. After she told me that, I couldn’t function I didn’t want to work anymore. I would leave and take time off to go drink to numb things and try to forget about things at work and home. I was sad in every single way. After the holidays, my friend began to talk to me again, but it turns out there are no more managerial spot due to management restructuring which means the building is now overstaffed with managers. So, I feel he basically lied to me since he walks by and barely says hello. 

So, I found a managerial spot in another building. I am waiting to hear back on that. I am trying to think positive but the reality is I doubt anything would come of it. Since 2018 until now I have been diagnosed with depression, vitamin d deficiency, and I only sleep four hours a day max if I am lucky. I have been going to therapy and just got put on meds they were help in a way. I didn’t feel happy or unhappy. I felt indifferent like nothing bothered me at all. Until today which is the main catalyst why I am writing this down. Saturday night I was a one man show and it drained me physically. Sunday I come in to work, I am still drained instead of letting me go home like they did with other people including my friend they milk me until I have nothing left. People were noticing the looks on my face and my sluggish movement. Later in the night they let me go home. I go to bed later I wake up and I see messages on my phone from my friend about the rumor spread to people outside of work and she doesn’t want to talk me anymore because of it.

And, we had a mutual friend too that I lost because of this. I am saying to myself really people f*cking suck. The last good thing I had left in this building is gone. I told her I am transferring out to another building or I am quitting after the next child is born. I respect her wishes but what really gets me upset she can’t stand on her own two feet and speak up for herself that we’re just friends no more no less but she worries what other people think of her. So, I am miserable while I am typing this story. I am not going to lie I am thinking ending my life as I tell this story. The light at the end of the tunnel is gone. I know my family loves me but I don’t know why. 

My wife is a huge fan of Amazon and is proud that I work there. I feel like that I am worthless, my life is just one big joke and the universe is laughing at me that is why I am Mr. Nobody. Why bring someone into your life that makes you so happy and then take it away? Because God or whoever enjoys this kind of sh*t my life has had its share of bad and good it’s more of the bad than anything else. Well that basically my story thanks for reading. Amazon has basically ruined my life I lost friends, I might be losing my family, I lost my sanity and mental well-being. Please don’t be like me.