Energy and Healing, Lightwork

10/10/2011

Tech Tip:

When you encounter crazy unexplained emotion it is sometimes because your energy is out of balance with your various energy bodies. There are many possible reasons for this I don't have time to get into, but there are several ways to approach a solution. Here are a few. You can ask your guide/s to elaborate or show you more. Connect to them first in whatever is your usual way.

1) Creating a energy stream to carry out negative unbalanced energy away from you and into an environmental ground. I use the visualization of me sitting or standing under a waterfall. The water IS energy from source and it streams around me like a shower and pools around my feet and is carried away. You can even "push" the water off you like water from skin

2) Clearing chakras and using orb /shell/ light visualizations to spin, push and smooth energy from you.

3) Creating a energetic stint using vortexes from reiki symbols on your heel and palm and crown chakras. Energy comes in and goes out into the earth.

4) Creating an energetic link with source energy, routing it to your guides, and then the ground. So that you are creating an energetic circle that routes, cleanses and flows the energy through and around you

5) Creating vortexes withing and through your shields to route building and unstable energy out.

6) Directing Reiki energy to your chakras in and infinity loop to cycle the energy in and out and heal it as it passes through.

There's others as well as some variations. Most traditional Reiki is about passive applications. This is more akin to clairvoyant light work. But I still use all the Reiki symbols as focusing tools for my intent and visualization.

09/26, 2011

I started off the weekend with Niki's Eric in formal practice session. I think it went off extremely well. Very good progress on many fronts. Nothing to report yet, until I have the time to get a page up for him yet. I plan on having another session with him again soon.

I went out of town this weekend to visit with the family. My brother in laws family bought their first house and they were having an event to show it off. It was good trip up north. Fall weather is here with a bang. The leaves on the north shore are quickly heading to peak color, soon. Their new house is great. 1920's 3 story; 3 blocks from Lake Superior. The whole trip up north I had spirit energy in the car. Pretty intense. I was too tired to tune in and talk thought. But, I think they were just there for the entertainment or to see the scenery. I suspect it was just one of the boys. My guides do not normally do that. While there the guests usually have to sleep on either the couch or the horse-hair futon. Which of course always brings out the best in me--not! The in-laws new house seemed very spiritually healthy. I did not detect any spirit activity other than the family associations. The house seemed to have very good energy. As well as energy from the previous owners all seemed very clean. There was a very noticeable "we are pleased to have a young family here again" feel to it. One the way back there was a car pile up and it took almost 4 hours to get home, in what should have been a 2 hour trip.

On the way i practiced Reiki and asked my Reiki guide Elizabeth to begin teaching me how to use energy to heal past life energy. It's one of the reasons I think I wanted to learn a healing modality.

Now, this was an initial experience. So I hesitate to feel confident on accurately describing this and what it looked like to me in clairvoyant vision. But I'll give it a go.

As I meditated on and chanted individual reiki symbol as directed by her, I felt guided to the point origin of the source energy that I believe is the point origin for the akashic consciousness for my soul. It looked like a giant white galactic disk in a star field. The center of this light pulsed in a wave expanding outward to my point of conscious awareness in the astral. I was directed to lay my etheric body on it's back and ride the wave. Then we progressed into it and at it's center was a beam of light. It pulsed up and down into unseen distances. I was told that this was the representation of time for my soul group. That I now needed to will perspective to that which was my thread. At that point, my etheric body and point of view seemed to swing around this light and go into and up it. Then it seemed as if a slice of it, rotated out as a disk. It was 3 dimensional and as it rotated out it, unfolded into this flower shape that was made up of pulsing thin lines. Like a wire frame in the shape of a flower. And it pulsed with light and emotion. It looked just like a flower, the center was two circles within each other. And from these two circles rose, petal after looping petal that looped intertwined with each others wire frame and back in on themselves to the circles. And traveling on each petal was these reflective opaque orbs. The orbs, themselves spun around as they traveled the wires, each off-set from another. I was told that the entire symbol was my over soul, and that each orb was the symbol for one of my incarnations. And that I could watch the essences of each life by looking into the reflections on the surface of each orb. And that I could see where and when each orb crossed the line of another life. Where they crossed, parallel lives and other dimensionality could be seen. But within the lines of each petal was the past present and future lives of each incarnating personality. All belonging to a greater, the two inner circles. Which then all taken together stemmed from the point energy of my soul group. So just as I am a microcosm of energy so too am I connected to the individual microcosms of my group and we are all connected in the same way to all that is. Now, if I wished to transform energies, there were multiple ways of doing this. There are more than I am aware of but, I will touch upon the ones I know of now. One, is by changing how one views one's present and then readjusting the emotional perspective of how one views the past experience. This changes energy from negative perception to positive. Two, is to work with Spiritual Masters to help you fulfill your Karma and escape their cycles. Three, is to use a healing modality to send healing energies to the personalities of the past and help enable them to do 1 or 2. In this case, from a certain point of view, you become your own spiritual master, looking back on your past via vision, remembrance, healing, etc.; Four is to do all this subconsciously. And Indeed your over-soul already does this. So technically you do not need to do anything per say. But to actively pursue any of this is to take a conscious participation in your own evolution as a spirit. This is always expanding and educational. So, back to the Reiki. I was directed to send distance reiki along the master energy path to each of those reflective orbs. As I did so the higher-self directed the energy to where it needed to go. And the new clarity is then supposed to go back to my own personality's awareness.

I know I know. No one has any idea what I am talking about. I told you it was gonna be woo woo... I guess a point I'd make is that people should worry to much about what kind of energy they are carrying over from past lives. It's better to just focus on what your feeling and thinking about now, which will allow yourself to re-evaluate your own past, so that you can see positive things in your past experiences no matter how small. This will invariably change your energy, and allow it to become more expansive to experience what you do what.

4/14

My Spirit teacher showed me how to do reiki on ones higher self to heal and recover from bad dreams. Also over the past few weeks, I've given my first two attunements and Reiki teaching sessions. One via distance and one in person.

3/29

I confirmed through other sources that either my guides have sent me Spirits to heal with Reiki or they came to me. On the other side they could go to their healing centers but they came to me to show me that we are all capable of healing no matter where it exists in the universe. I've had several more experiences of this type.

3/16

Morning.. .. half of work is shut down due to hot water outage. So I am gonna go on a short hike to find coffee somewhere. Am really tired and crabby this morning. I kinda hurt all over too. Sinuses to back to carpel tunnel.

Encountered more new spirits last night and this morning. But I found them confusing because they were mixing symbolism with partial minds eye vision. As if since my minds eye vision wasn't as clear as I'd like, they'd super impose a symbol or another image on top of theirs. Which was really odd looking.

For example; Erik came through to say good night. There was a female Spirit with him. She reminded me of and looked like Eriks grandma, who I met before. She was sitting in a rocking chair next to my bed and had her feet in hemp sandles or strapy shoes and feet on the bed. Erik was sitting facing her. she and Erik were chumming it up and laughing while he was rubbing my foot. I tried to focus on her face and couldn't get a clear image, so I asked her who she was. She superimposed an image of MY grandma in old age over hers and said, I am grandma. But then the image of MY grandma went away. My gut kept telling me over and over again that it was Elisa's mom on another "sleep-astral" journey with Erik.

I've also had some odd experiences that have to do with clairvoyance and Reiki. When I do Reiki, my clair junk is heavily involved. For me there is a very clear and distinct clairvoyent counterpart to any physical Reiki action, thought, or intent.

I've noticed since finishing my master Reiki training last week that when I do or send Reiki I'll have other spirits come in and act or seem to want me to do Reiki on THEM! Very odd. I am really not quite sure what to make of it. I've also noticed a bizarre thing with sending distant Reiki. If I try it in a crowded public area, Reiki balls bounce back to me. To actually send them Reiki, I have to send my higher self via clairvoyant vision to their higher self OR I have to visualize a vortex or tunnel through my mental/energy shields for the ball to get through. But once I leave the vicinity of the crowd of people I am fine, and everything works as it always has. My Reiki guide Elizabeth said it has to do with the empowerment's my final attunement gave my clairvoyance, that peoples auras and energies and their subtleties have a much greater impact with mine. There was more to it than that, but the gist was that my final Reiki attunement changed my clairvoyance and its just a matter of working it all out. I am not quite sure what to make of it exactly.

03/09

Last night I had my final attunement. Master/teacher level. Here is what I experienced.

Before hand I reviewed the process and did my meditation, connection, lightwork stuff I always do. Only this time I used music written for Reiki meditation. I felt really light headed and hopped up so to speak. At about a half hour till I started noticing Spirits in the room. They were interating with me. Touching me on my hands and feet and head. It was very distinct. As I was chanting the symbols I smelt wet earth and saw the master symbol as a huge light in the middle of a galaxy star bursting light in waves that were white colored. They pulsed out at me but never seemed to reach me. In a big ring around my head, scalp, temples, and under my nose my skin felt like it was warm, buzzing, and throbbing. I also noticed my bear spirit/totem. It cuddled me. and then turned into a dog and curled up on my lap

Then I hooked up with Ceridwen.

I saw it all clairvoyently as it happened and felt it on my head and hands. There were several spirits in the room with me. One of which I feel was Mrs Takata. They all told told me that this was also a test of my clairvoyent vision. To see if I could see the attunement as it happened.

It all went very well. One thing I noticed right away is that I didn't have to actively try to channel Reiki anymore. It just poped in to existance without even trying. This was esspecially noticable when shooting it back and forth between my hands. I didn't have the same odd 3D visuals in my external environment like I did with my level 2 attunment. What was noiticable was it felt like my crown chakra was blasted open in a huge ring. As though I'd been channeling an assended master or something.

I had really bizare dreams. Everytime I woke up I thought I'd been channeling Reiki. I woke up to chanting at one point. The time was 3:33. I feel like I've been channeling all night. I woke up and saw a couple spirit lights. My scalp is blazing. Shooting Reiki at it did not help. This morning on the bus I sent you some. But 2 new spirits joined me in so that now we were 4 people in a circle around a fire. They had me do the work. I was able to form balls without even thinking or trying or even drawing. They just winkined into existance inbetween us all and eveything was so much larger, faster, stronger, and clearer.

03/07

Here are my visions from Reiki this past weekend.

As I sit here Reading the level 3 manual. I become suddenly aware that I am feeling expansive as though I was in the presence of an Assended Master or Angels. I feel like my soul is massive and hovers around my little body. As though I am looking through my eyes--but outside of myself. Like down through a long tunnel. My scalp and head are a-flame. But it is not the flame of hot energy. It is like I am standing in a large wind and it whips up all around me. As if I had long hair and it would blow it up up and around me. I see in my minds eye a crorana or mane of green blue and white flame wreathing me. My arms and wrists tingle and buzz with cool energy. My eyes keep wanting to go out of focus. I feel hands on my shoulders. In my minds eye I am standing with hands on shoulders in great forest. The green is solid all around me, and I stand in a cool trickle of streaming water that runs over mossy earth. I tweek my toes in the moss and I hear chimes and birds. Eyes stair at me from the trees. I look around the room and everything seems to have a blue white purply outline. Weird..

As I read the bit about level attuenment I close my eyes and all of a sudden I see the power symbol flame and spark into existence a brilliant white light that sears all vision from my field. And then it fades. And in it's place is a massive star field of space. And coming and turning into it from the lower left is an dark skinned woman with large ear plugs. Very primitive looking and she rotates into view and fades. And I see people march across planes of grass holding spears. Then I see a giant bay and river emptying out from tall jagged mountains under a star lit sky. And floating down the river is flaming barge. I then see a old woman with long white hair writing in a scriptorium with candles all around. She is Asian. And is using a brush. I feel cool cold breezes rush down my arms as I type. I see a brown bear lumber down a forested hill and approach a road and it stops, looks at it and lets out a roar, then it looks at me. The star field rotates again and I am like a bird looking down and I see a mass of humanity looking up at me in the night sky.

02/16

I've been practicing forming Reiki balls for distance sending. I've started doing this on the bus. I call it bus-Reiki. :)

Have Reiki, will travel.

02/09

Ok, So Reiki level 2 attunement.

So I sat there waiting for the appointment. I got out my study guide and set up my practice sheets where I drew the symbols and wrote the mantra pronunciations. I brought the symbols up in front of me. And I did my usual light work connection techniques and I felt super connected and juiced up.

So then Ceridwen and I started. We chatted for a while. I got her caught up on some stuff in my life and then talked Reiki shop talk. I asked a few questions, all was well.

Then we began the attuenment process. This time, like last time did not go like I thought it would. I was totally blown away. First off, as I visualize the symbols in my mind's eye. The lines look like glowing white, yellow, green and blue smoke that pulses and sparkles. And the entire symbol as it resolves into focus from nothingness have sound! For example, the emotional symbol to me sounds like tinkling wind chimes. And the distance symbol has a deep continuous tone. And the symbols seem to be able to move on their own.

Upon putting my hands together in the prayer position, it felt like there was something digging and buldgeing to come out of my palms. My finger tips pulsed, and the back of my hands had this marching tingling sensation that crawled up and down my hands. As Ceridwen drew the symbols on me and my chakras I could see this misty field with white wisps in it. Upon her drawing the symbols on my hands the sensations were immediately relieaved. The fuzzy static air crawled around me just as if there were spirits standing all around, right next to me. Upon completion of the attunement my crown on my scalp felt on fire. And the rest of my body felt like I was being battered by cool waves of energy. The air smelt like damp earth. And I had a minty tingle on my tongue.

Then I tried forming my reiki energy balls. And as I spread my arms and hands further apart the stronger the energy flows got stronger. We talked more shop talk and technique. Then after we parted I tried to do my first sending. I called up my higher self in the void. And in time with my present body I formed the energy into a sphere. And within the sphere I drew the distance symbol and around it I created the power symbol and spun it. The two tones began to ring in harmony. Then I saw the energy pulse back to my heart chaka and then straight out and was pushed out into the universe. I saw it arc and streak off into the astral void. And upon release of the energy, my vision switched back to 3D present space of the office and my field of vision was filled with swirling spirit lights. Little motes of white and blue 3d orbs. My entire body felt light and huge. Like I didn't fit in my body so I filled the entire room. I felt so foreign and strange. I could see spirit energy like I've seldom seen before. It was like my entire house was a filled room. There was people everywhere. As I went upstairs that night for bed. I looked at the walls and ceiling and it pulsed and seemed liquid and moved. Like it was breathing. As I lay in bed and did my usual grounding, centering, chakra clearing, and shielding... the chakas had a new quality to them. Instead of spinning disks the seemed to be made of light. And the pulsed and breathed. When I tried to spin them, instead the flared with light.

The next morning on the bus. I still had this new odd light feeling. Upon getting on the bus I immediately felt like I could sense peoples emotions. In fact one stranger sat down next to me, and immediately I felt like I wanted to cry. Upon this odd sensation. My guide told me to form a double sided mirror ball around me using my minds eye. When I did the sensation stopped.

When I got to work, the Reiki ball I had sent to my desk burst open and I was bombarded with waves of wonderful energy that made me really happy. It was amazing.

02/02

Not too much to report. I've been trying to do my Reiki excersises twice a day. Once in the morning and before bed. I can't think of anything out of the ordinary than what I've stated before. Very much similar visualizations. I am looking forward to level 2 attunement next week.

01/24

Just wanted to give you a mini update from ‘vision land’. Mind you that has no bearing on doctors opinions or actual medical outcomes. I had several visions last night looking through Erik’s et.al’s. eyes. Erik was holding the bottom of Roberts feet directing energy to Robert and my guide Lydia who is a soul mate of both Robert and Erik was holding her hands over his body merging your energies that were coming in. The room was pretty choked with Spirits. Erik was sitting next to him for most of the night. He says he was able to sleep well although the drugs were making him loopy.

On a Reiki front, my guide Elizabeth helped me send Robert Energy. I've not been attuned to level 2 to send energy yet, but Lydia and my Teacher Z has shown me in the past how to send light energy. Semantics and intent. Tools for different purposes. Well in any case, Elizabeth physically took over my channeling and used me as a vessel to channel healing energy at him. I felt her place her hands on my head and in minds eye I saw in 3d color these energy vortexes on all four sides of me and above me. In my vision the looked like mini tornadoes of yellow white light. The bottom ends of the twisters attached to my hands and feet; and the tops swirled around my chest; and the one above me started siphoning off Reiki energy. As it poured down into me, she spun it around me in a sphere; which then drained off into the 4 twisters. The energy then looped back up into my heart chakra. She had me hold my thumbs and fingers together to create an 'O'. and then she had me chant cho ku rei and on the ku rei, push the energy through my hands and send it to Erik and Lydia who then laid it on Robert. I saw Lydia drawing Reiki symbols all over Robert and laying her hands on him. I did this for a good 30 min. I think. Very unusual experience. I am not quite sure what to make of it. Only that I believe it was real. I felt very lightheaded and tired afterward's. I just wanted to share with you all as most of us are involved in or will be involved in energy work of some fashion.

01/19

My Reiki meditation as evolved further in combination with my minds eye visions. It is now well incorporated with my previous light work. Upon commencement of the intention to formally channel Reiki energy I do the following:

-I sit in a chair, stand or lay down.

-I feel energetic roots dive down into the earth and draw up earth energy. As the cool wet thick energy rises up I feel it hit the energy centers known as chakras. Upon each connection, I envision the chakra as a flat disk that wildly spins in counter clockwise direction. upon this spin, viscus thick liquid spins off of it. It is a representation of cleaning out my energy centers. Upon the rise of the earth energy to my crown, I think redraw it back up from my feet. This time I envision it spiraling clockwise around each chakra. As it does so, This opens wide my chakras to receive energy. Upon reaching the top of my head, I envision heavenly white light bursting forth from clouds and gushing in a torrent into my crown chakra. As it hits my head it bursts out in an explosion, causing a chain reaction as it goes down. Then I allow the light to come down in alternating waves and pulses. Filling me with white light until my whole body glows. After this I gather the light in the center of my body and explode it out through all the acu-points I can visualize. I envision this as clearing my aura and chi. Then I take the glow of light and rapidly wrap it around my body in a transparent cylinder. Then I morph it into a rotating orb that surrounds me. Then I create a bigger orb around that rotating in the opposite direction. On the inner orb, I imagine a reflective surface. Then in my minds eye I stand back and look at myself. And I see my Teachers wards around me and see my angels in attendance. And I know I am shielded.

Then at this point I make the intention that I want to channel Reiki. I call out the chant, "Cho ku rei" and I close my eyes and with my mind, draw the symbol around my body and spin it. I draw it on my 3rd eye and crown and on my palms. I envision my higher self standing on a cliff and looking out in the night sky. I see the reiki energy like the northern lights. It hums with a bell like tone. I lift my hand up and draw the symbol in the air and spiral the energy down into me. It is like water. It pours into my white lit body and colors it green. I fills me up like a tub of water and I float in the energy. It begins to swirl around me and then it drains. I lift my arms up again and look up into the universe. I open myself up and will it to me. I chant Choooooo and it pours in. I chant kuuuuuuu Reeeeiiiiiii and it pulses out in a wave through my palms. Then I make Reiki balls between my hands and then place the energy in each of my chakras. Then I place my palms over each meridian that I can visualize and pulse the energy into them. I still have the odd experience of not being able to feel the energy upon skin contact. But if I place my hands above the skin. I can feel the energy pulse and move as it flows. Upon the time I feel done with the excersise I wipe my hands up and down the front of my torso in my aura and move my hands away.

*On a side note, This whole process takes anywhere from 10-20 min. If I am just connecting for channeling, I do an abbreviated version of the first paragraph.

01/14-16

I went on a road trip to see family. At the time I was also sick with a sinus infection. So busy with family and busy with being ill I didn't really dedicate much in the way of sticking to a regular spirit connection thing. I rid Reiki on myself and my spouse in the car on the way up. I did it before bed and on the way back. Nothing really to report.

01/12

So I was trying to "see and hear" what Elizabeth might say about my hands hurting while holding them in the cupping mode during the various positions. Cause I have arthritis and it hurts to hold my hands that way. Well., I was more focused on the pain and wasn't listening very carefully. And so I was actively trying to mull this in my head over any communication. ha ha. So impatient.

Well, I tired various new hand gestures to see what would be less painful. One was making a loose C and holding the open part of the C over the body. That seemed ok. But then she said I was tensing up too much and just needed to relax more. LOL, she was right. I was tensing my hands so tight to try to get the "right" form I was getting cramps. ha ha.. She said if I just let my cupped hand loose and hang I would be fine.

Got another question. If doing self Reiki. And you do it for 10 min. but then you "think you finish" But sort of wonder if you did it for long enough.. What do I do then. Do it again?

Also, I read that some people wait for and feel a build up and release to know how long to stay over any one spot. I am having a hard time feeling a build up. Is 2 min. ok then? What I feel is the flow of energy into me and then a release. No build up.

What do you do when your hands and arms start to ache from holding them over the body?

01/10

Robert and I's Spirit Teacher told me via one of his students that for those who can visualize energy flow manipulations that it is important to accept and give into the process of the manifestation rather than rely on symbols and technical descriptions. That symbols are simply a human tool to represent Spirit energy. And that if you rely on or focus on the script or the symbol in the human realm too much it will become your crutch. It is better to just see the symbol as a representation of that which you intuitively feel, know, and remember. Let Spirit direct your flows. Looking at all the Reiki stuff online, I am sure there are going to be a lot of people out there that would disagree. It amazes me how much Reiki stuff is out there for sale or a price. I am shocked. Although I suppose I shouldn't be. It's like so much regarding spirituality, alternative medicine, religion and the paranormal. Everyone puts a price on everything. I really question that. For me that doesn't seem so right. I don't think evolution, enlightenment, spirit, etc. should have a price. Too much is put into ritual, symbol, form, human rigidity, and rules. It all makes me uncomfortable. Maybe I am the one with the attitude problem. I am not sure.

01/10

Just giving you an update on my part b of 1st attunement.

I underwent this Saturday night. It went well. I spent the day writing. Before had I did my usual light work and was well connected. You know what intrigues me about the attunement? Was that Elizabeth seemed to step back from the process and let it be just between the Master and myself. That was interesting. Also the immediate physical sensations and visualizations were rather anti-climatic. It seems like most of the phenomena and sensations happen when it is just Elizabeth and I. Although I did feel skin sensations when Ceridwen was drawing on my chakras. It felt like someone was tracing symbols on my skin. I didn't feel anything when she said she was giving me the breath of life. And there were a couple of times Elizabeth adjusted my hand positions during the process.

Here's what Elizabeth is having me do. When I do my white/yellow light work, I am to build the energy up, but then raise my hands into the Reiki field and let it drain into the white light. Then it turns swirly green with white and yellow ribbons in it. She is also having me form Reiki balls between my hands. And then she has me mentally draw the cho ku rei symbol in the middle of it. Then alternate the flows so that the symbol spins like a top. Then she has build the ball up and then place it in my chakras and then make sure the symbol is still spinning. Oh, and when I chant, on the Choooooo, I imagine sucking energy down the crown chakra drain.... ha ha.. and let it fill me. Then on the ku rei ... I let it flow out my palms. When I do that for a while I get dizzy and have to stop.

The night after my attunement I had super freaky dreams! And I've felt nauseous off and on throughout the days.

I did have one interesting experience in-between part A and part B attunements. Well two. After A. I had really freaky dreams. Then the day after, It was snowing out and super cold and windy. I was walking the 3-4 blocks home from the bus stop. I was freezing. All of a sudden I thought I would try Reiki. So I drew the symbol on my palms, mentally... Then I started chanting. And put my hands on my legs under my coat. It seemed to give me energy and help. Then I mentally drew the symbols in the 7 directions all around me. and thought "Wind breaker". This seemed to help more. Then Elizabeth had me draw the symbol in my minds eye--'inside' me. The same size as my torso. And then she had me mentally treat it as a windmill and spin it. So that it rotated around me with me in the center like an orb sheild.

I need to work on more quality time with Reiki. But I've managed to spend a little time this morning and last night working on it. I Reiki's some food. I have this strange thing where I can't feel the energy so well if I have skin to skin contact, but if I hold my hands a couple of inches away or more I can feel it very very strong. I also did Reiki this morning in the shower during my grounding and centering and other light work.

Here's what Elizabeth is having me do. When I do my white/yellow light work, I am to build the energy up, but then raise my hands into the Reiki field and let it drain into the white light like water. Then it turns swirly green with white and yellow ribbons in it. Reiki feels like water to me. She is also having me form Reiki balls between my hands. And then she has me mentally draw the cho ku rei symbol in the middle of it. Then alternate the flows so that the symbol spins like a top. Then she has build the ball up and then place it in my chakras and then make sure the symbol is still spinning. Oh, and when I chant, on the Choooooo, I imagine sucking energy down the crown chakra drain.... ha ha.. and let it fill me. Then on the ku rei ... I let it flow out my palms. When I do that for a while I get dizzy and have to stop.

The night after my attunement I had super freaky dreams! And I've felt nauseous off and on throughout the days.

So I got a look at the other Reiki symbols online today. I think I really need so slow down a tad. Oh, my gosh. Those are complicated. I think I will have to practice drawing them when the time comes with you. :)

It is snowing right now. Tonight at the bus stop and the way home I am suppose to practice drawing cho ku rei in my head and just letting the flow happen and feeling it move. Then before bed I am supposed to work extra on my head.

Oh, What do you do if after a bit of cupped palms your hand start to ache and throb. Like arthritic like?

01/10

Hi Jason,

Here's a little quote from a letter from Robert that I told you about:

Jason is very open to Reiki! This is another phase of his enlightenment, and he's absolutely ready. I know from your perspective the Guide showing up before attunement seems usual, but in actuality, Reiki Guides are always around those new to this tool. It's just the student isn't usually so sensitive so they aren't aware. Also, most humans need another human to guide them, which means their intent to see Reiki Guides isn't there. Oh, I also have to fill ya in on a correction I made to Jason.. Elizabeth taught a form of light work, specifically one which helps center and protect and put a person on the path to self actualization. Though it isn't called Reiki, Light work pulls from the same Universal Light/Energy. Elizabeth explained that Reiki, Light Work and all of the tools which pull from Universal Light used by humans and those in Spirit are basically the same thing. She said that the Universal Energy is a type of "morphing" energy that when called upon changes based on the tool being used. Though we don't realize it, the tools and procedures around them enable us to set intent and the intent is what morphs the energy. Universal Energy (or Light) is the same energy used by those in Spirit to heal torn Souls. It's quite diverse! :-)

Thought you'd like to see it... :)

Lub you lots!

Ceridwen /|\

01/07

Since Xmas break, I'd not really tried to do any channeling of Reiki or

source energy. I did look at it from time to time. And think about it. When

I did my palms ached. And I felt it's cool wash against my scalp. I did

occasionally briefly chat with Elizabeth. But I was more absorbed with other

things.

Last night was part A of my first Reiki atunement with Ceridwen. Before we

talked I reviewed my manual and images. I also went through my usual light

work, centering, cleansing, and shielding. Shortly after that I was so

ramped up and connected I had an interesting interaction of possibly meeting

another spirit guide. We will have to see though. I need to follow up on

that for further clarification. Here is what happened.

I was sitting on the spiritual 'porch swing' that Erik and I use in the

void of my minds eye. Lydia came to me and sat down next to me. I put my

head down on her shoulder to cuddle. And just enjoyed the love. Then another

spirit came and sat down next to me. She appeared to be in black and white.

Very tall and thin. With diaphanous black lacy somewhat transparent dress

and long straight black hair. She had predominate features and a larger

sloped nose and high cheek bones and long black lashes and fair skin. She

reminded me of Elvira or Morita Adams almost. I mean that in a good way.

Only she was all in black and had that look. She kept running her fingers

through her hair, her bangs over her face like Jill does. She acted like she

belonged there. and just looked at the two of us.

I was rather alarmed as I held the porch swing sacred so to speak- Our

family "cuddle" spot. And so at first I wondered if this was Jillian messing

with me. Lydia only grinned at me. And Erik wouldn't say anything. Finally I

got so alarmed and frustrated given my emotional state and sleepiness at the

time, I tried to politely tell them I didn't want to guess, or see anything

for the rest of the night or next day until my Reiki stuff was done.

I ran through my energy connection/ grounding/ centering/ shielding

techniques after reviewing my Reiki manual and thus was really connected

Spiritually. I "looked" again and she was still there, only clearer and not

so clouded. And I "heard" two names. Vivian- Gloria. She came near my higher

self and I felt her push energy around me. Like she was wrapping a blanket

around me. I saw and felt her want to have me lean back into it and close my

eyes in her blanket and let myself go. I feel she is another of the hidden

guides, but I am not sure of anything else. I guess her exoticness startled

me. I am waiting to see if Robert is able to hear anything off the fly. If

not, that's ok. It will go on the back burner for now. But I get the sense

she is there to help manage energy flows during trance. We'll see... on a

related note. This morning I "saw" another female figure in shadow in a 17th

century style dress. The kind with huge hip wire balloons under the dress

and a big pompadour hairdo. She was walking back and forth in shadow. Maybe

she is the last unknown guide Robert mentioned. hmmm....

Another interesting thing that I discovered is that my Reiki guide Elizabeth

is a master at visual imagery. She's been communicating with me all week in

symbols. When I talk to her the skin around my scalp burns and I feel dizzy

sometimes. Until yesterday I did not realize this. I was rather startled

when I realized this! Because at first I was getting very upset with my

guides, because when I tried to channel them I kept getting bizarre images.

But they all were trying to get me used to symbols. Like so much else... the

experience precedes the lesson. The images were everything from cartoon like

images to random visualizations of people performing actions. For example, I

asked about the mental state of a friend. And they reply I got was a visual

of a man face peering out of a thick pile of carpet. And that meant he was

peering through a mass of thickness, feeling overwhelmed and tired with the

effort. The also showed me my state at my distaste for symbols. They showed

me as a baby crying in an empty room. So strange this new way of

communicating.

Well, I digress. Back to Reiki. I think this might be just me and other

sensitives. I know some Reiki practitioners can't feel anything, but just

believe in the after effects. At this point I can see the Reiki energy in my

minds eye very clearly. Smell it, hear it, taste it, and feel it. And I can

channel it. But it seems to get bottled up in my neck and spurt in little

steam hisses out my finger tips and my palms and heels just ache and throb

when I do that. To me the energy has this humm, it's like a bell tone. It

looks just like the vision I described in Elizabeths vision of the night

sky. Like a parabola of emerald green energy with white and yellow ribbons

of plasma rolling energy. And it moves in waves and when it hits my crown

chaka, head and face it feels and tastes cool and minty. And it smells like

a cross between wet dirt and seaweed. Totally odd I know...

Well, during the attunement I was slightly nervous and felt less than I

expected, but, I could distinctly feel the energy being traced across my

head, chest, palms and finger tips. And when that was done my hands stopped

aching. During the process I was instructed to stare at the Reiki cho ku rei

symbol and see if it gave me any messages. I sort of expected something

verbal, and tried to channel it that way. But nothing happened. So then I

switched on my vision like I would to see spirit energy. And I saw lots of

spirit faces everywhere. Old, young, babies, people in pain, people

laughing. Ceridwen said this was a message, a symbol of all the people I

could help with the energy.

Well, that's pretty much it. Oh, no wait. Afterwords I felt really dizzy and

slightly nauseous. And my palms kinda were uncomfortable with heat. I had to

go lay down.

More after Sat. when I have part B of the first attunement. In the meantime

I have to practice and get things so I remember to use the mantra phrase,

symbol image, and minds eye at the same time as channeling. Also at the same

time, I have to work on just letting it all happen at the same time without

effort. Being the empty vessel.

Oh, one more thing. Last night I told Elizabeth that I wanted to channel it

while I slept. I could feel her hands on me, on my head all night. And when

I woke up too!

12/24-28

I once again tried to "Reiki myself" and had the exact same reaction as on

the 22nd. Elizabeth said my finger chakras were open but not my palm. And I

got sick because of an improper release of energy. She advised me not to

channel it again until attunement. That the reaction was impurities trying

to purge me and a shock reaction of forced channeling.

12/23

I've been experiencing strange smells since last night. Sour-dirt, sea weed,

sugary water. Bizare...

12/23

I feel better from last night. This morning I had an interesting vision from

Elizabeth. I saw her standing on a cliff side made of obsidian. It was in

the wilderness. Dark night sky all around her. She was the pinnacle of the

rock. She was draped in white. The wind was fierce and strong and pulled her

robes in streamers of cloth. She raised her arms into the night sky. She was

back lit, but not just the night sky but by a vast nebula of green and white

plasma. It flowed like a fast moving river overhead and hummed with a single

tone. A vibration I felt in the core of everything. She turned her head back

and saw me. My higher self in the void watching her. She smiled and waved.

Then she turned her head back and looked up. With her right hand she made

the crossed spiral symbol. In the roiling river of energy it made eddies of

green white foam. And as she brought her hand down the eddies of energy

spiraled down with her into her crown chakra. It flared down her body until

it reached her solar plexus and then it burst out again and poured back up

into the river.

That was it.

12/22

Elizabeth said people are so sensitive that they can force their chakras open and already sense the Reiki energy. And channel it. She said my main chakras were already open

and I could already sense and channel the energy, but that my palms were

closed, but my fingers were open. She said that was why she had to create

the feed back loop on me because I was already channeling it, but that I had

not learned what to do with it yet. She asked me to wait until my attunement

with Ceridwen before deliberately channeling it again or I'd just make

myself sick. She said last night she had to release the energy I had

channeled so I wouldn't get blocked up.

12/22

Jason to Robert via email:

ooo I don't feel so good. I thought I may had ate something but Matt is

fine. I wonder if I having reiki side effects. Ive been reading my manual

and I've pulled on reiki energy several times now.. i think... My heels and

hands ache and my scalp has been feeling like its on fire.

how come I can see this energy, feel it.. ect... I dunnno... Maybe I just have a

stomach bug... I just tried to reiki myself . a plant . and water. a reaction?!?

Tonight I had a strange visualization with Elizabeth. In my minds eye; after getting sick; I saw her touch me. And after she touched me, I felt these vines or snake looking things appear out of my heels and palms and reach up and attach them selves to my body and when that happened I felt energy enter my head and then fly out again of my groin area. She said this was a Spiritual feedback loop to prevent buildup. That night I felt hands on my head all night.

12/22

So I am at work and reading my Reiki one manual. I feel this intense

pressure on the palms of my heels. Just below my heels in the arches of my

feet. Like I have roots. Thick ones. My wrists itch. I have this pulsing

sensation that travels from the heels of my palms to my finger tips. It

feels like throbbing nerve sensations.

Elizabeth told me that hand positions wont matter as I will be visualizing or actually seeing chakras, auras, and meridian points in my mind. She said most people wont do this, but that I will. She says that my palms will become a ring or funnel. And rather than cupping them, I will extend Reiki onto each visualization to release the flow.

When I attempt to visualize any of this the air smells minty.

12/20

**Ok, that was last night. She wanted me to watch her manipulate the flow and see what it could do for inner vision. She greatly accentuated it. But I had to actually turn off the computer and go do something else.

This morning when I woke up and took a shower...getting grounded and shielded and cleaning chakras for regular medium communication like my guide Lydia showed me; and only this time as my white light hit my head and went down my body; as it came back up to my arms, my palms actually ached and was quite uncomfortable. Elizabeth and I have been talking about how much or how little to do until I have my attunement with you in January. She told me to hold off and wait until you open my palm chakras... On her advice I am going to hold off on doing any more visualization or manipulation until then. In the meantime, I'll study the materials! :)

12/19

An email to Ceridwen from Jason:

Ceridwen!

I got further information.

I called Robert,

But before I did, I got some names associated with the entity.

kai lou khan chiu I didn't know if they were all one name or multiple names.

So like I said, I called Robert and he said he already knew who the guide was. Her name is Elizabeth. She died after you started learning. She also is a guide to Roberts friend Sherrie from the blog. Who also does Reiki. She said through him (Robert) that those names were past lives of hers. And that she recently died actually and taught Reiki, and that she taught it in past lives too.

And as soon as I came to the decision to learn, my higher self so to speak invited her in the house. She came because of the blog connection and because she was there and ready. I apologized for my childish behavior at another Spirit coming into the house without warning. And she said that was ok and that she thought it was cute. Like a toddler having a tantrum. She was the one sending the waves of energy at me, as well as you. And that was indeed her putting her arm on me. Robert said she excels at visuals and the visuals she gave me were symbols for the energy. Strength, beauty, grace and longevity.

*Below, I describe something she showed me. She took control of my channeling and visions.

So I am sitting here reading the word documents, material when I get to the mantra section. Cho ku rei. And as I am doing this, I am suddenly overwhelmed with energy and imagery. All of a sudden I see a woman in front of me, in my minds eye. It is Elizabeth. She is in a white robe and has long curly blond grey hair and smiles at me. Then she zooms in to me and touches me on the head, touches my 3rd eye and I start to see green and gold and white energy whirl around and me and pour into my throat and chest chakras. It is like ocean waves, that are green and blue and streach out to see as far as my eye can see. All at the level of my throat. It's like a flat plane. As I say the mantra I can feel this pulse go out of me on the Chooooo and then come back into me on the ku reeeeeeiiii and pour into my head and throat and chest and pour into my arms and my hands are pulsing. I am seeing spirals of energy everywhere. The look like green and yellow and white after images. And they glow blue. She tells me she will attach the spirals to the corners of the walls and send the energy to them. That the energy will attach to the spirals. The wisps of energy tendril out into a bubble and attach and overlay each room in the house.

All at the same time, I suddenly see all my guides more clearly and in greater color. I even see my bear! I can see the individual strands of fur on her. They all, my guides look more 3D, and more in color. And then suddenly I see 3 fetus like beings come out of my body and rotate around me. They trail through these streams of white and green whisps of cloud. Like bubbles in a stream. And then in front of me I see a child in a hospital mask who turns in front of me and I feel the desire to touch him.

This is all so amazing, and I've not even gotten to the pdf file yet.

I feel really kinda dizzy actually. I think I should go lay down.

12/19

Very interesting... I just downloaded the material to my computer and looked at the images folder and read a couple of the word files. And as soon as I opened the files I felt this wave of cool energy hit me from the back and I feel pressure on the back of each upper arm. And the palm of my hands feel tight. The air and feel around my upper scalp is absolutely buzzing.

I just asked the entity in the room with me what it's name was and I saw 3 images in my mind. A guy flexing a bicep, a lotus blossom blooming and a white crane.

12/18

Tonight I felt a cool tingling energy wave hitting me in bed. Well, Also, I saw and felt externally, an entity walk into my bedroom and stand next to my bed and lay their arm and hand on mine and touch my head. I did not recognize them. But I didn't try very hard either. I was a little upset with my guides for letting an unknown in without alerting me, but they said I had nothing to worry about and that they were all there. But I am afraid I was a little rude. And so I appoligised.

All day I've been sensing someone in the house and they've touched my head. My crown, my side, my hand. And it' doesn't feel like my other guides. I just tried to do a location sensing in the void to locate them all. And I am pretty certain this being has to do with Reiki. As I got the cdrom in the mail today.

December 2010

I've decided to learn to channel Reiki.