May 2012
May 31, 2012
In the physical, When people say I love you, even to experiences and circumstances. It's not that they actually do, per say, it's that they are acknowledging something as valid or not within their experience. For some, this is a denial or refusal. For others it hides and covers not a desire or affection, but rather a fear or perception of lack. And some, hope to free disquieting energy and transform it. But the sure end result of love is expanding awareness. TO know of love is to seek it, to understand what is found is to know all, as yourself. And so to open yourself to any possible love is to approach the path of the Divine. To practice it is to walk that path.
May 31, 2012
Let go of what you think you should do, and embrace what you do. If your honest, you will create something you can embrace again and again without worry or guilt.
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Yet 7 more Pillars
1)Question
It all began with the question. Who am I? Keep asking questions.
2)Creation and awareness
Everything that you are aware of is yours to explore in some fashion. Keep asking how can I create and be me with what I can create.
3)Experience
Every experience has the potential to offer something. Every experience has the possibility to enable us to master ourselves. It's not that life gets easier, it's that we become more of who we always have been, will be and are which enables us to create more and ask more questions..
4)Death and Rebirth
How we see, feel, experience, perceive, and interact with these concepts can help us with our ultimate reality. When we have liberated ourselves from this as a tool we no longer need we will have expanded beyond it's purpose.
5)Expansion
The more we can question, the more we can explore, the more opportunity to play, work, love, live and experience what we may be. The more we are aware of the more we can grow in understanding, the more we can feel, the more we can expand.
6)Understanding
The more we understand the better we are at becoming aware of all that is, the more then we can participate in manifesting creation.
7)Unity
The whole point is to ask questions, create and explore our answers and feel our unity through experiencing it all. This is who we are and what we home to express through all that is, with all that is, as one.
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In the end it is not words nor rite that is felt.
It is the music your heart makes in silence.
What feeling comes, has been heard lingering eternally in all that remember.
And so, it is not that we seek a place of silence to listen, but that we simply listen to our hearts.
Letting go of what that should feel or sound like.
Even should it thunder,
Even ringing with distraction.
It is not that we need to understand how to breathe in silence,
But that we feel that breath as genuinely ours.
May 30, 2012
It's not that truth will define our experiences. It's that how we feel about our experiences creates truth. This truth is how we define ourselves.
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Sometimes desire isn't about what we want, but about resistance to being comfortable with what we do have. Its not even necessarily that we do or don't want what we have, it's that we haven't given ourselves permission to be ourselves within it. True, a lot of the times circumstances and situations would appear to be not of our choosing, even beyond all understanding; But, I believe no one comes to a physical life who did not choose it or the theme or type of experience in general. Those who protest in my opinion, simply have surrendered to a certain focus of their own choosing or understanding. In that focus, anger, blame, and the justification for experience reigns supreme, until perception changes.
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You are what you know about yourself. What you understand of that is yours to create. Who you are in Spirit vs physical life is just another layer to explore. There is no defining line, that than what you choose. But by coming to earth you've chosen a life within perception of time. In no way will it limit your experience.
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Even a missed boat can be an opportunity to swim.
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There are ranges of possibility that manifest in probable ways based on conscious or unconscious focus. The degree of free will choice within that range of probability enables all that is possible until the focus expands. This is but a part of our intention to create understanding for ourselves.
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Everything creaks in the haunted house until you figure out what bangs is your plumbing, and what creaks are the stairs you're climbing. Everything else is just noise regardless of what causes it.
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One of the hardest parts of a physical life is moving from the need to find value in it, to the desire to create that value
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Strive for self assessment without self judgement
May 29, 2012
Life is never about finding answers as it is about creating questions
May 25, 2012
Economy, climate, politics, community, beliefs change. The great stable driving force is the expression of the soul through human nature and our capacity for creating. There are many ways to create, even through destruction. But the great grace is our ability to love. And so though turmoil, traumas, and upheaval, we always have the choice to look at each other as we we look to ourselves and take what seems disaffected and offer whatever love we are able to give. It's not just a choice of society, culture, or communities. It's the momentary look that says, I see me in you, how can we share love?
Even though we feel helpless in the face of change, even though we haven't a clue where to start affecting change other than to ride it out and not let life ride us down; We still have that moment, that moment where we can choose how we are going to view one another. It is not that change defines humanity, it's that this choice, is one of the great moments, that define our soul's humanity.
Our free will to choose love over fear.
May 24, 2012
Is your glass have full or half empty?
Some are ardent supporters of seeing the glass half full.
Some live not only with half empty,
but they've dumped it out and smashed the glass on the ground.
Either is a very valid choice
to learn about yourself in the world around you.
I'd like to suggest rather
that life is neither half full, nor half empty.
In life, there is no real glass.
It doesn't exist except as momentary feeling.
Outside of that moment
the who we are
can never be defined by a glass of any size.
It's not the size of what holds you,
that defines you,
it's what you fill it with
or how you empty it.
It's the action you take
or don't take on your intent that matters.
May 23, 2012
Dragon of Personal Drama:
Projecting Consciousness into Fields of Potential Reality
"gain an understanding of how you create your realities by the action of the thoughts you focus your attention on"
May 23, 2012
A whim expressed a desire, which became the bedfellow of expectation.
Together they gave birth to a belief, who sought to create what could be felt.
Creativity became passion, which transformed love into life.
Life wished to know what it was about, so it coveted itself.
This illusion evolved into fear of it's absence,
anger at lack, which hid present love.
Enraged, chaos devoured
until empty dispare and grief over what seemed no more,
took hold, and slowly, sudden death,
cast voids of separation across all perception.
With perceptions sated with emptiness,
what was left,
was the shell,
crumbling before the passage
of what into who....
thus on yet another whim,
the desire asked,
who am I.
And so life sprung forth yet again
from its own ashes and recreated itself,
leaping from its flames,
its inner light shown forth
giving nourishment to all it touched,
singing we are what I am
and so are you.
And so we find comfort and balance
from love to chaos
as we experience all that we may be
in all that is.
May 23, 2012
Just because I desire to experience and co-experience a particular reality, doesn't mean that those I co-experience with have given their energy to my vision. The two co-experiencers may not be in harmony in ways that my present conscious focus is currently aware of. That doesn't mean that what I focus on is not in my best interest, or appropriate, it simply means that one can not fully understand another point of focus fully while enmeshed in a waking incarnation. It is when the life review at the end of an incarnation happens, that one is able to energetically feel that other persons focus and then understand how all the pieces fit together. Which is yet another reason, why it is best to let go of worry. Do what I can today, and let the rest go.
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Many times, a life experience that seems bad, discomforting, hurtful, poor, and subjectively or objectively bad was planned by you or another person not because they wanted punishment, but because it serves to balance out experience across life-times of incarnation. At the same time, some aspects of ourselves can only be understood, by experiencing the polar opposite of who we really are on a soul level. This provides contextual experience to explore cause and effect on an emotional level. Many times, it is utterly impossible to understand even a glimmer of this while in the body.
May 18, 2012
In the throws of life few souls feel themselves with the conscious liberty to seek knowledge. Fewer seek understanding, and of those even fewer come realize that true understanding comes from balancing all one may be from all sides of experiences. It is the rare brave soul knowing this who then asks to know. As such one of the journeys one can take is to liberate one self from the answers they have already assumed and then having to feel what they understand about what they think they know. To discard justification, conformations, consolations, comforts,and seek to just understand through experience. To truly seek self understanding is to open the floodgates to the universe's hurricanes and ride its eyes. To engage the great question of who am i annihilates the question and answer as it does the seeker. It is never the answer that is who we are it is the question; even those without seeming liberty eventually come to feel.
The irony is, is that no human can be told this, taught this, and even should one come to learn this, true contextual understanding can never move beyond very basic rudimentary conceptual awareness while in a human experience.Not only that because of our multidimensional energetic conscious focuses, such awareness is forever in flux because all that is eternally evolves and creates itself in ways far beyond our capacity as a human to understand.
As such it really is best to let go of what worry we can and love the best we can, for then simply knowing we will come to understand one way or another, we can focus on ever more joyful expressions of or creation.
Knowing a glimmer of this doesn't make life any easier, far from it, i know i struggle with the most basic emotions on a daily basis, but that glimmer does refresh me and keep me going, and eases fear. I have nothing but the hope i have for myself among all of you and together with all that is. --- Inspired from Spirit
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Getting real with psychic pre-cognition: (random early morning thoughts from the bus-stop)
From my own personal experiences and views of watching others experiences...... this morning, I had the thought that psychic precognition and predictions from spirit or via mediums is a lot like going to the casino. It can be a total gamble. Because of our souls multidimensional timeless nature, the probabilities, the parallel lives and , likely to occur situations in our life that is based on choice of all involved..... I think that asking spirit for the future is a total game of craps at times.... Every medium is a different dealer, every spirit is a different observer, and every game is different thread of various chance based on how the dice is thrown. Now based on the throw, and based on point of view and what the spirit can see at that moment, they can give a snap shot of likely to occurs, and then attempt to translate that to a medium..... Or the psychic can try to see the game from afar and tune into it.......and as a player.....You could win, you could win big, but more than likely you'll just get a number based on that moment....you could get any number, or based on the free will of those involved, you could loose it all and you wont know the out come from spirit until the dice stops rolling..... and some dice rolls for what seems like an eternity only we can't see it...... I think that's one thing that my interactions with a few friends of mine in the CE community have instilled in me, is that while they as spirits can see more, they are only giving us a snapshot of that moment, and the next moment could be different. For example, I have this friend who in the past was told both her mom and sister would be dead of cancer ala several month ago..... but the mom is still here struggling, and the sister is 6 months free...Really in that situation... personally... I wonder if spirit was simply offering up probabilities to engage, create and set her up for emotional experiences her higher-self wanted to feel and experience regardless of outcome.... I always say, life is not about doing, it's about emotional experience, and I think the stage in our plays are heavily scripted to make these things happen... meaning... the casino game is totally rigged at times.....That every game represents a type of emotional experience, and that through karma and choice we play every angle of it........Where we get into trouble is from the emotional energy we channel into our expectations about our desires and beliefs about ourselves in those situations, how we see ourselves in that moment. And in that scripted moment, I know I often have big issues of trust in regards to spirit. How can I trust, learn to trust when I know the board and dice has been messed with. How can I have faith in Spirit when I know they are messing with me according to a script... Well, I've come to feel at least for me, that it's never about my faith and trust in them as a spirit that matters... what matters is the faith, trust, and love of myself, how I see myself, how I react in that moment, and what action I take based on what I am feeling. Even so, I find that there is 99% more going on in most cases than we as incarnates can know, and so I often find myself questioning what I am told. That's not to say, my interactions with them are not valuable, because they are. They provide friendship, and guidance, but when it comes to predestination, free will interference of others, or fortune telling, I find there isn't much there for me. Just some random thoughts from the bus stop this morning.....
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The Lords of Chaos met with the Princes of Harmony and together they held each other in Balance. The union of which, provided a much sought comfort. Some called this a peace, some called for love. But as sun chased the moon. It is simply the ebb and flow of life manifested in every way possible through choice manifested through the creative expression of unique parts of the whole of All that Is.
What seemed to be a right side or unjust side is but choice to express uniqueness as separate from this balancing act. In truth there is no one side without the other. What divides is not a poor choice, but the illusion that we are not each other. It is only when we learn to master the inner Chaos and Harmony within ourselves that we can join the Lord and Prince in holding Balance. Together, only then will we begin to approach an understanding of All That Is. Then we have but begun the journey. All else is preparation.
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On fresh graves of hope and plenty
I dance
mocking doubt
promenades with subtle truth
to the rhythmic tune
of life still to beat.
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Through veiled mists I gaze upon back lit anticipation
who's wonder succors to my mind
like the end of a journey
and the beginning of knowing.
Fool like hope
I sit as vision visits,
desire for relevance coats
what visage fades into being.
Upon static charge
caressing light flashes
in motes of blue and white.
I sigh and sit yet again in loves hope.
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We always meet our destiny though we may not see, feel, or understand so in this life. Experience has the potential to be the great equalizer, the balancer of scales upon our whims.
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The lines we carve in oblivion, washed in true hearts light, radiate love from pain's eternal night with the might of our eternal light.
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Lucid dream... A poem:
A dream of childhood, which dreamed of what might have been.
Slumbered in storied whispers and hidden flashlights we giggled the night-away with improbable stories.
In fearless safety friendships were as never broken, and conspiracy of comrades plotted ever greater adventures.
Such was the vision before alarm that woke me to the dream. Its doors down tunneled hall rattled the knob with urgent impotence.
Smoke and mirrors took me pulled me thrust my vision away to burning flame filled traps beheadst the door.
Violently it opened and illusion was no more.
May 16, 2012
We all stand in the center of each others universe looking at ourselves.
When we stop looking at each other and feel ourselves,
we will then see that it's not where we stand, but that we are that universe.
May 15, 2012
Musings on:
How does one find the motivation to keep caring?
-Discover your personal reasons
-Explore what brings you joy
-Refocus onto results as opposed to desire
-write about your moods
-Don't look at others experiences
-What others think is often none of your business, let it go
-Ask if what you've committed to is valid
-every negative verbalized gets a time out
-Don't compete to unless uplifts and helps
-allow yourself forgiveness, acceptance, and comfort.
-Baby steps are about exploring with wonder, racing to the finish misses life.
-plan, rewrite, edit, and evaluate without judgement
-unless your sleeping or on the pot, procrastination keeps you from acting on intent. It's not about 'not doing' so much as not having intent on your mind, avoidance without thought.
-It's ok to learn from what hurts, as long as you look for change, new opportunity, insight, and understanding what is and isn't you.
-You have a right to ask for help.
May 14, 2012
People believe what they want to believe and not much will persuade them otherwise until they examine their feelings about those beliefs.
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To view what is, requires unwavering perception. To understand what may be, requires independent feeling.
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In the game of life, I am convinced that there is a strong correlation between belief, effort, and laziness. It's similar to a group of people taking a road trip. One person will have a detailed pre-made preplanned map and refuse to deviate from it, including all the emotional reactions that happen when a deviation occurs. Another person will have a general map, continuously stopping to look at it, or while driving, giving into either a laze-fair attitude, or frantic panic at unfolding the map. Another person will insist on stopping and asking for directions and start demanding to do so. Another person will go as they will from memory, get lost. And aside from various combinations of such, there are those who just don't read directions, because they can't be bothered too, or they refuse to try, or out of sheer laziness get lost and blame others, and want direction given to them. I am equally convinced that none of these individuals are in the right, as it's the driver who should be in charge. The driver can use any of these, but also has the chance to be open to new routes, the scenery and learning about the journey, and simply enjoying the view. Anyone can get from point A to Z, but driving the roads of life takes a bit of creative effort. When you insist on taking direction, or don't put any effort into your own navigation, you can drive by quite a bit.
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A verbal or written label, term, definition, symbol, etc., is as only good as it's understanding from the point of view of the observer in context.
May 08, 2012
At the end of the day, All you ever have is what you can make of your nights, knowin about the morning or another day can help some. Just as knowing your long day is done can feel good. But that night is yours, just as much as any time can be, and what you make of it is up to you. Worried hands, and fear of the dark never make it go faster. But wrappin your arms around what love you can give, or sippin your warm tea while rockin your aches away can feel mighty good. It's those quite moments I feel like myself, even if sometime I don't know exactly who I am or what I am doing, I know I am me in that moment. Best to let my worries rest then. At the end of the day, it's all I need. All I got.
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Peaceful is as peaceful does, and yet there's something to be said for avoiding or running from what doesn't feel peaceful. Maybe the only difference is how far and long you can run before you have to create your own peace.
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Life can be like a good sauce. Sometimes it's best not to use every ingredient or worry about what might make it taste better. It's often the most basic ingredients of good quality that make the dish. Cook what you know, and do the best you can, and serve it with love in your heart.
May 07, 2012
The day I cried for Peace.
On the day I cried for peace.
I prayed for it to be given
I didn't think,
but for what could be taken.
I prayed for release
without knowing how to heal.
I prayed for salvation
beyond knowing what from.
On the day I cried for peace
I wanted, I longed, and
on that day, I cried
though for what I felt not,
but for what peace
was inside me.
For there was no peace
that I could touch.
On the day I cried,
my pain felt like lack
of all I saw.
And of what I saw, knew not.
What tears I had
I flowed through, but
not through experience,
just pained emotion.
For on the day I cried,
I felt Peace must come.
But on the day I cried,
I found no peace,
but what peace I could give.
On the day I cried,
I created myself anew,
for what compassion
I could give,
Not peace for them,
but forgiveness for myself.
On the day I cried,
I learned sympathy for others.
On the day I cried I felt
my pain as companion to theirs.
On that day I started asking questions,
who are we together?
On that day I cried,
I dried my tears as
I reached out
for what I could do.
And on that day,
I let go of what I could.
And on that day
I asked what I could give.
And on the day I cried no more,
I found but a piece,
I gave myself peace of mind.
On that day I lived peacefully.
May 04, 2012
"While you can divine the meaning, purpose, and to-do's of life; And while you ask, spend time, money, and effort asking for answers to your world; Answers that can give direction, they are just keys. Metaphorical symbols, numbers, words, visions, thoughts, ideas, that are keys to get you started. But their direction may not be quite what you think when it comes to understanding your ultimate reality.
This is because no one but you can tell you what your life purpose truly is. For one must come to be able to define it not only by creating it, but by it passing through any desire, and into a distilled knowing, that at its very base essence embodies what one knows, and what one feels IS, at one's very core. Beyond shadow, beyond doubt, beyond understanding, its symbols are recognized as being owned by you. And as such you realize that it is through your experience the purposes are reflected and pondered upon as the flavors of your life, while lending definition to it, in no way limit it or who you are.
And so while you and many others seek answers, desire others and even those in spirit to show you and give you and tell you such things, without you passing through experience with feeling, belief, and perception, all vision is but a poor reflection to what can be discovered and explored by going within.
Have courage, have faith in your experiences, for upon your journey you will one day have pause, realizing you have arrived at you." --- Voices of Spirit (late last night at 1:30am)
May 04, 2012
I sit with folded arms held in crooked gaze
in a solitude of silence through pre dawn chill.
A shadow of your heart lingers on my mind
as thick stillness wraps me in heavy dampness.
Darkness pulls on my vision
shadowed shape seems to hover.
Lost in no where to go,
grasping not on reality, but ones place.
Faint breath like sighs
blows wind across my face
fog begins to pull curtain
a still gentle note on the wind
Gentle lark, soft warble, sharp echo
dawn rides the wind on song
and I see myself again
as darkness fades.