September 2011

September 30, 2011

Me to a friend,

"You ask yourself, Do I exist for a reason, or do I create my own reasons? Who am I, why? And What do I desire now? List it out on paper. Does that list really represent how I see myelf? Is my life about me wanting or is my life about seeing what I do have. And if I do have something, is it worth sharing? Can what I see about myself help someone else, Is this a reason I can cultivate in another person. Does my unexplored, unattainted, unknown desire overshadow what I can find out about myself? Is this the reason, or are their many reasons for life? Can I uncover and create my own answers or is this something someone or thing has to show, tell, or create for me? Is life about "doing" or is life about choosing to express what we feel in accordance to how we understand our highest possible self. I don't see that choice as something that can be helped. I dont' see it as few or more, I only see it as being who I am in the moment. Every moment. I see it as choosing to be me. I think your wonderful. I want you to just be, and share it."

September 27, 2011

No posts for a few. Not feeling so well. Got a bug or something.

September 26, 2011

I started off the weekend with Niki's Eric in formal practice session. I think it went off extremely well. Very good progress on many fronts. Nothing to report yet, until I have the time to get a page up for him yet. I plan on having another session with him again soon.

I went out of town this weekend to visit with the family. My brother in laws family bought their first house and they were having an event to show it off. It was good trip up north. Fall weather is here with a bang. The leaves on the north shore are quickly heading to peak color, soon. Their new house is great. 1920's 3 story; 3 blocks from Lake Superior. The whole trip up north I had spirit energy in the car. Pretty intense. I was too tired to tune in and talk thought. But, I think they were just there for the entertainment or to see the scenery. I suspect it was just one of the boys. My guides do not normally do that. While there the guests usually have to sleep on either the couch or the horse-hair futon. Which of course always brings out the best in me--not! The in-laws new house seemed very spiritually healthy. I did not detect any spirit activity other than the family associations. The house seemed to have very good energy. As well as energy from the previous owners all seemed very clean. There was a very noticeable "we are pleased to have a young family here again" feel to it. One the way back there was a car pile up and it took almost 4 hours to get home, in what should have been a 2 hour trip.

On the way i practiced Reiki and asked my Reiki guide Elizabeth to begin teaching me how to use energy to heal past life energy. It's one of the reasons I think I wanted to learn a healing modality.

Now, this was an initial experience. So I hesitate to feel confident on accurately describing this and what it looked like to me in clairvoyant vision. But I'll give it a go.

As I meditated on and chanted individual reiki symbol as directed by her, I felt guided to the point origin of the source energy that I believe is the point origin for the akashic consciousness for my soul. It looked like a giant white galactic disk in a star field. The center of this light pulsed in a wave expanding outward to my point of conscious awareness in the astral. I was directed to lay my etheric body on it's back and ride the wave. Then we progressed into it and at it's center was a beam of light. It pulsed up and down into unseen distances. I was told that this was the representation of time for my soul group. That I now needed to will perspective to that which was my thread. At that point, my etheric body and point of view seemed to swing around this light and go into and up it. Then it seemed as if a slice of it, rotated out as a disk. It was 3 dimensional and as it rotated out it, unfolded into this flower shape that was made up of pulsing thin lines. Like a wire frame in the shape of a flower. And it pulsed with light and emotion. It looked just like a flower, the center was two circles within each other. And from these two circles rose, petal after looping petal that looped intertwined with each others wire frame and back in on themselves to the circles. And traveling on each petal was these reflective opaque orbs. The orbs, themselves spun around as they traveled the wires, each off-set from another. I was told that the entire symbol was my over soul, and that each orb was the symbol for one of my incarnations. And that I could watch the essences of each life by looking into the reflections on the surface of each orb. And that I could see where and when each orb crossed the line of another life. Where they crossed, parallel lives and other dimensionality could be seen. But within the lines of each petal was the past present and future lives of each incarnating personality. All belonging to a greater, the two inner circles. Which then all taken together stemmed from the point energy of my soul group. So just as I am a microcosm of energy so too am I connected to the individual microcosms of my group and we are all connected in the same way to all that is. Now, if I wished to transform energies, there were multiple ways of doing this. There are more than I am aware of but, I will touch upon the ones I know of now. One, is by changing how one views one's present and then readjusting the emotional perspective of how one views the past experience. This changes energy from negative perception to positive. Two, is to work with Spiritual Masters to help you fulfill your Karma and escape their cycles. Three, is to use a healing modality to send healing energies to the personalities of the past and help enable them to do 1 or 2. In this case, from a certain point of view, you become your own spiritual master, looking back on your past via vision, remembrance, healing, etc.; Four is to do all this subconsciously. And Indeed your over-soul already does this. So technically you do not need to do anything per say. But to actively pursue any of this is to take a conscious participation in your own evolution as a spirit. This is always expanding and educational. So, back to the Reiki. I was directed to send distance reiki along the master energy path to each of those reflective orbs. As I did so the higher-self directed the energy to where it needed to go. And the new clarity is then supposed to go back to my own personality's awareness.

I know I know. No one has any idea what I am talking about. I told you it was gonna be woo woo... I guess a point I'd make is that people should worry to much about what kind of energy they are carrying over from past lives. It's better to just focus on what your feeling and thinking about now, which will allow yourself to re-evaluate your own past, so that you can see positive things in your past experiences no matter how small. This will invariably change your energy, and allow it to become more expansive to experience what you do what.

Thank for reading!

September 23, 2011

I am heading out of town this weekend and doubt I will be posting much if anything for several days. I've spent some time re-arranging the sections and splitting them up as the articles were getting too numerous to keep with my "musings journal". Feel free to dig around the other two journals. I still need to transfer all my facebook channeled material and writing over to this site. I'll organize it eventually. Tonight I am sitting in a formal session with Niki's Eric for the first time. I am not sure if we are going to work on past life vision practice or question answer.

Someone ( I highly suspect Eric) kept poking me last night. I think they were teasing me cause my toe got pinched and when i said "knock it off the started poking my face, messing with the dog. Its not that i wouldn't sit and talk, its that i was tired and wanted sleep. Cranky I know!

September 22, 2011

Not too much going on, after a busy weekend and start to the week, I am mostly trying to just take it easy. Headed out of town this weekend, with some good news. Originally I thought I was going to be helping my in-laws move into their new house, but turns out they moved early. Yea! so we will just be socializing. It will be my nephews 1yr b-day, so I am gonna have to devise ways to monopolize him for spoiling. :) My dog Boo loves going up north to visit the family dogs. It's a giant party for them.

I was thinking last night that I need to let people know I've not made much progress on my "communication section" this past summer simply due to being so busy. But also, I have a handful or so research materials I had set for myself to study and work with before writing. And I am still making my way through them. Thus, no updates yet.

Last night was rather odd. I had trouble sleeping. The night started with what I call a "spirit experimentation event". I call any thing a spirit attempts to communicate, but isn't quite received as intended an experimentation event. I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep, when I felt a presence to the side and back of me. On the left. Then I heard a male voice start jabbering at me, trying to speak or make him self heard. I believe it was the same "inner-aura" tunneling technique Erik has used in the past. Although it wasn't him. I am fairly certain it was Niki's Eric, but don't quote me on that. I am only guessing because I felt him around off and on, and I had briefly chatted with him. It was just a young deep voice. But it was tinny and hollow like the tunneling effect I described. I just acknowledged him and said I'd talk later. My gut tells me, he was experimenting. Next time, I'd prefer an image projection afterwards. I am not sure if that's possible or not. I am not sure how much energy it takes to make external objective sound. Which leads me to tell you, that if you ever hear what you suspect are noises in and amongst your sleep, don't just blow it off as dream, imagination, or some sleep state delusion. Just record the event, the particulars and review later. There can be months between events so it's good to have a record.

The rest of the night was weird. I kept waking up and having visions of me sitting in a classroom setting and me having Erik telling me to write stuff and working on a book. Very odd. It did not feel like a dream at all. It was exaughsting and felt like I was actually there and doing it. I woke up at 5 am very tired.

September 21, 2011

Thoughts on Techniques: Energy workers and clairvoyance and astral vision, shielding vs/ emanating light

I realize that to most people what I am about to say is not going to make much sense. But this is more of just a recording of my thoughts to energy workers about something my guide showed me. A lot of energy workers work with visualizations and feelings. Some of this entails ritual, specific forms, thoughts, emotional direction, action, etc.

Some of that can often take the form of what are know as shields. Mental, psychic barriers against that which is perceived by belief or experience, that one desires not to interact with. It has been suggested to me by my guides that on occasion we might want to examine the source feeling that such concepts come from. To examine this while looking clairvoyently and empathically at the whole process as part of a holistic review. In some instances I have found that shielding can steam from fear, aggression, and a poor perception of astral reality. In some instances this shielding is actually limiting and unhelpful to ones emotional state as well as to the dis-incarnate that encounters it. In some instances we might have better luck simply filling ourselves with light and gently letting it fill our energy bodies and reflect out into our area of influence. This will increase our vibrational state without the hard emotional entanglements that might disturb us.

And example from my own experience is with

I was just asking Elizabeth about the purging you were just telling me about. She said,

"Every attunement, empowerment, and use of energetic source, regardless of tradition, intention, or technique causes a purge of what is no longer useful and opens the channel for new capacities of resources. This is another example of expansion. Another reflection in action."

Then I asked her, "Well, so, does every new attuenment even if you've already had it, just do a repeat?

She said, "No because you are never the same. There is always room for your self to expand and fill your perception of what is, what was, and what might be. It is the same with one's capacity to channel energies. You can let it flood you to the tips of your perception or you can experience further "awakenings" or attuentments. These can be sought after through ritual and modalities, as well as self triggered. There are many ways, but the expansions are ultimately about self surrendering to the capacity for self expression. You become filled with yourself, with the unified energies that is you, that is me, that is in all that is. The ever expanding awareness that flowers and then enfolds back in upon itself as it reaches upward and outward to connect with every thing in creation. This is to channel energies that you progressively become aware of. The expanding self consciousness."

September 20, 2011

Thunder and Wind

Tempestuous Storm

Baleful Rain

Driven Light

Gives way

Eddies Carried

Rivulets Pooled

Gathered Dawn

Peaceful Breeze

Stand I

Remain Still

September 20, 2011

I think one of things people like to work on in any particular life time, is finding and expressing what brings them joy. Erik has certainly commented on it enough to me to know it's true. Often times though, they want to find their bliss but, they cant seems to hold onto it. I wonder why.

I think that initially when they find their joy, they surrender to the utter passion of it. So that over time they started to equate passion or the emotional drive for the joy, or the feeling of connecting to who they really are. These feelings then become a symbol of their desire to return to their selves. Then the feelings and drive become this thing in their mind... But passion and joy is not a thing, but an expression.

An emotional avenue to manifest experience. It is an emotional description of a state of being. So perhaps to get unstuck from constantly grasping and struggling to find and keep; we should come to believe it is already with us.

But that, we only need to find a balanced way of feeling us, while expressing "us". I think one of the best ways to express anything that will last and make a difference is to help create it in others. Create joy, with passion with others, and you might achieve a lasting balance that really lives.

Just a feeling shared, even a small one, can help change grow.

September 19, 2011

Every now and then I get a communication from someone out of the blue objecting to what I share online. I don't normally wish to respond to them as I am more interested in sharing personal experience, but I feel I should clarify some of my intentions.

Last night I got emailed someone objecting to my interaction or should we say, "interpretation" of what I feel are my personal experiences with Meher Baba. Clearly I can understand this. I fully realize that my very presence, experience and what I profess to experience is utter blasphemy to some, regardless of belief system. I have never claimed to follow anyone nor give my own experience for anyone Else's truth. Personally, I feel Baba is a guide and mentor. I do not share many of the same beliefs as those who in this life "follow" him. I fully realize that to many, what I type out, or relate as my personal communications with him, do not sound like he did in "life", and in fact much of what I do, say, and experience are indeed contrary to the writings and beliefs of the many Baba circles out in the world. I don't have a problem with this. I fully acknowledge my own personal experience with these matters are about as subjective as they come. Sure-- I've received what I feel is validation from Karl, Nan Umrigar, my guides, other mediums--as to my own relationship with him. And, I consider even this to be a subjective experience. Honestly I feel such validations for others are pointless. One thing is for certain, it's easy to assume people share similar beliefs, labels, perceptions, understandings, and like perspective. I am not so sure that's entirely appropriate.

This person also gave me "dire warnings" of tricky spirits, objecting to how I "see" my own personal spiritual experience in relation to what I post on my website. I only have one thing to say about that. In my experience Spirits are not Tricky. Spirits are people, Spirits are conscious beings of all types. Just like you and me. The only trick is to master one's own inner reality and emotions and then express them in positive ways.

All this is especially true when one such as myself claims to have personal Spiritual experiences with entities or personalities of an established "spiritual or religious" tradition from earths history. It's akin to a farm worker in Latin America professing to have a personal relationship with the Virgin Mary through vision and voice, and yet someone in America thinking she is wrong, deluded and going to hell for even thinking it. It really doesn't matter what belief, such examples are fairly common in any belief system. I have never claimed or wanted to be the mouth piece of any entity, spirit or person. I do not take money, I do not go on other sites other than Elisa's and my own. And I've never claimed to follow anyone other than sharing my own personal experiences, journey and communications with "those whom in my own subjective experience, those I feel are my objective spirit guides". While I am happy to interact with them on behalf of others, pass along messages, and act as facilitator, I do not nor will I ever promote anything other than finding truth one's personal experience and exploring one's own inner reality. This is what I follow; Not someone else's view of truth, or perception of how a "being" was when incarnated. Your perception of my perspective on disincarnate's views, interactions, and teachings is as Erik would put it, "none of my business".

Everyone's experience is their own and no one's Else's. In every religion, belief system, philosophy, way of life, culture, etc., humanity and felt the need to apply labels and define their experience in relationship to another. There are many ways of doing this. Even more so in today's internet age. What is truth for one woman is blasphemy and delusion for another man. And yet through the ages there has been one sure thing, the most complete experience of spirituality has always been an inner subjectivity. I say, that when some ones own experience leads them to so object to yours, its better to say, what kind of choice does this offer me to better understand myself and my own experiences. For me, it does not matter whom you follow, nor any humans interpretation of truth, but that of you own experience. I have never professed to follow any one, adhere to any tradition, or follow any path other than my own reconnection to my higher self. I plainly state that what i write is subjective to my own experiences and as such is a journal. Everyone's experience of higher realities and spirit personalities is their own. By saying my label is more true than your own experience is to not only take away from your own path, but to put limits on my own. So I'll leave this reply with a reminder. Each to their own. I am not interested in anything but the sharing of personal experience and interacting with the channeling Erik community. Any opinions outside of that are for someone else in another outlet. Thank you.

September 16, 2011

Desire, separation, suffering more common themes.

A conversation with a dear friend of mine yesterday made me think of further things that young people of our world are working on. Things that obsess and cause them suffering. Often it contributes to the emotional state they seem unable to get out of. As I was thinking about it. I realized I too had, and still do struggle with this all the time! Frankly it's just part of our human experience, our emotional experience to rediscover ourselves. But it's important to talk about.

That is the "Desire to be a part of something". This is a natural outpouring desire to understand our relationship with All that IS, and to understand the illusion of separation that we have put ourselves into.

I feel led by Spirit to say the following,

"Does 'not being a part of something', Take away from who you ARE? Or who you would LIKE to be? Or is it simply a conflict with yourself; a discomfort of perception that "others actions or inaction are ABOUT or are a reflection of you? That your desire is not manifesting WHEN and HOW you WISH?

If we but say, "when and how I might contribute to this world is irrelevant to how I feel now and what I can do now"; "By letting go of worry of WHEN and HOW and focusing on NOW; that the NOW of possibilities and the possibilities of now will free us from the separation of "what if's, shoulda, coulda, woulda's".

Do not give into the feeling that what you MIGHT contribute to life should or shouldn't define you NOW.

Tomorrow is always full of the promise of opportunities but, the understanding of self lays in the now..

September 15, 2011

Random musing: Spiritual theme--giving up and finding love

One of the biggest themes I've seen in the Spirit world, especially in those who took their lives, are those who have said how they fought tooth and nail not to hate what was inside of them. They feared who they were, they feared rejection. They thought they were wrong, broken, full of lack.

They were not full of anything but the souls desire to show them just how full of wondrous love they actually were. That they were and still are perfect in every way. We need to take the time to let people know it' s OK to be who they are. It's OK to say, this is how I feel. I am OK. Our loved ones in pain try to isolate themselves, to hold it all inside. And for a great chuck of society; they are told that it's NOT OK to show emotion. That you HAVE to FIT into certain labels, and be a cookie cutter person. That if you don't toe the line you are abnormal. A freak. Broken.

But we need to show people that God is in everything. You, me, the sky, the rocks, past, present, future. That we are perfect love just trying to express itself and get to know all possible aspects of it's self, ourselves. That how we behave, that how we feel, who we are need not be defined by anther's value judgement or label, That who we are is how we choose to express ourselves.

Sure there ways of expressing oneself that is more beneficial than another. Ways that serve our best interest and the greater good. But we are all in this life together. We need to let the young people of our society that they are A PART of us NOT apart. That they matter. That they are beautiful, they are precious. That they MATTER. That they CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. That they DO make a difference. That nothing they feel or can feel needs be hidden from those who love them. That feelings are nothing to hide from. That only by joining hands and walking through what hurts can we explore the cause, the root feeling that will bring us back to who we all really are. LOVE.

So, don't give up on finding love. Love will always find you when you go inside and see how much you really have to give.

September 12, 2011

I am recovering from illness and have had a rough past couple of weeks. Sinus infection, allergies, arthritis, back and joint problems, and total burnout. One of those things aside from illness, you say to yourself, Geez I feel like I need to retire NOW, or I need a 2 month vacation in the tropics away from any and all electronics. Just me and a beach somewhere. I am doing much better than I was last week though. Although ill, I did get in some gardening. I spread mulch around. Worked my compost piles. Harvested herbs, Brussels sprouts, tomatoes, carrots, beans, cucumbers. Cooked a bunch as well. I really enjoy cooking. Before this website, I used to run a cooking blog.

On the spiritual front, I don't have too much to report other than what I posted in the Erik section. I had a few odd clairvoyant experiences that i am not reporting much on as I am not sure what to do with them. I feel I've run into several people from past lives who I know on the other side, as well as a nature spirit and had some Angel interactions. But nothing that I find I can report on per say. On an aside note, Through conversations with Niki, she asked some very good spiritual questions, that I thought would make good Q & A's. For example:

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Q) What's with all the disaster predictions? I refuse to live in fear!

A) That IS EXACTLY WHY Erik lets such things be said, It is to FORCE us to decide..... ARE we Going to LIVE? Or are we gonna FEAR..... Quite simple, Erik pushes buttons for Spiritual reasons for a BROAD public, for very good reasons. Just to turn our heads and say. Look. Look at how life can "seem" out side of ourselves. Are we THAT? or are we something else. How are we gonna see ourselves if such a thing were to happen. It's very much like my guides and I planning things that 'could' cause fear. And then letting myself experience it so a choice could be made. An emotional choice to choose love, or fear. And what I choose, then manifests in my reality. All WILL be ok. You will see. There will be love. There will be love and it will be GOOD!

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Q) If we live another life....will we be evolved to the point that we are when leave this one?

I dont understand what the point would be to keep going over and over this...

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To the personality or incarnated life; evolution is total illusion. It just totally depends on what the higher-self and the new personality wants to do, combined with karma, and all it's interpersonal interaction free will, blah blah blah. The point to keep going totally depends on us when we have clear perspective outside of the incarnation. Also, there is more than one way to deal with Karma, so "this" type of life or "that' type of experience does not have to be repeated. Many experiences serve an emotional purpose. Heck even many little painless baby ones spread out over a Milena will eventually do the trick. It just depends on how much and how fast. What, how, and when totally is up to us. The richness, beauty, fullness of possibility for engaging feeling and interaction will always be far more than "this or that". So I think there will always be a natural "draw" back to a physical reality at some point. Even if it is only exploring other realities and dimensionality through our mind.

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Q) I get the sense that one of my family members does not approve of channeling or Elisa's blog from a reliegeious point of view.

A) Yeah. Quite frankely it takes a bedside visitation with followup experiences to convicine fundamentalists of any orthadox belief system in the "OK-ness" of Spiritualist/ metaphysics concepts. In my honest opinion, it's just not even worth bothering with them. They are on their path, I am on mine. The trick is getting each side to leave the other alone.

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Q) During my last session with a medium; I discovered that a certain family member was not there, who my son (in spirit) said, 'betty was not there, that she was busy with her family and that it was best she wasnt there'. I get the sense that Betty would not approve of all of this channeling stuff. Could that be the case? Does spirit have views on such matters. Or would she now accept that once she transitioned.

A) Yup; We each create our own afterlife. And whatever beliefs you die with, is what you engage in. This could be anything from isolating yourself with a bad attitude, or creating for yourself churches, pearly gates and fat singing angel babies.

If an aversion for whatever activiety or belief is strong enough it is going to color all experience on the afterlife. So even though one on the other side could fully engage in interactions with others, like still attracts like. Frankly that's why "life" on earth is so important in energetically shaping who we are. How long a spirit remains in this frame of mind totally depends on their intent, action, interaction with us, interaction with their own guides, ect.

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Q) I am curious is disbelieving or unapproving relatives will have a change of heart about channeling once they cross over. Also My husband was concered that "his" deseased relatives were not around during my son's transition to the after life. What's up with that?

A) One's "blood family" is most definately not nessesarily one's spiritual family. It is extreamly rare to have all of one's blood family there during transistion. So when it comes to the actual "transistion event" This has influence on who is there and who takes part in the ensueing interactions, but also one's feelings on the blood relatives while alive. From what I gather it can take anywhere from 2-3 weeks to several months to get adjusted and loose the previous incarnations drama. Although there are exceptions. If one is very Spiritually open and aware upon death, one is able to reconnect with the higher self awareness with hours to days, and simply move on about previous or new buisness. Others, who have hardened belief systems can take years or even decades or centuries to "get over it".

But as far as "what a Disbelieving relative sees" when she dies; Totally depends on what she focuses on, and when. At some point it would come up during life review, but depending on her perspective, it may just be of little importance. And so it should be. It's better not to look to others for validation of our beliefs. Because then your saying, "what you believe should be a part of me". Rather it's best to say, "Because of this or that experience, I've learned so and such about myself. This has formed my current beliefs and it helps me see myself in this light". If anything at all.

September 09, 2011

A very busy week. Start of school coming off a holiday. My uncle, dad, and I installed lathing around my deck to keep the dog from digging under it. I did some harvesting in the garden. Made 3 or 4 gallons of salsa. I did a lot of cooking actually. On top of that though, I've had a bit of sinus infection, allergies, and joint pain. So I been feeling really terrible actually. Burning the candle at both ends. I've not done much in the way of channeling this week, other than what I post on face book. Although I've been trying to read, and get some sleep, without much success.

Yesterday a good friend of mine went to Jeannie Barnes for help communicating with her Angels. It was cool because we then found out about some of our past life experiences together; fun stuff.

September 06, 2011

One thing I also forgot to mention or emphasize, is that it's the new school semester, as well as it being the start of fall for the upper Midwest. So in the rush to the new work environment and rush to get the house ready for winter, life can be pretty chaotic and hectic. So for short bursts, for the next month or so, I might not post much or be very active in the CE community. I also may not be able to reply to messages right away.

September 02, 2011

It's the Labor Day holiday weekend here in the U.S. I've been busy working writing, working on new articles. I've also have to type of some Spiritual experiences from the past couple of days. I've archived the journal entries for this section and my "musings" for this year to present. The archives are always in the right hand frame of the web pages.

Some of the topics I am working on are: * The trans-formative power of agreements of love * Objective vs Subjective

Empowering vs/ Restrictive thought * Action vs/ inaction * Dualities of the Soul-scape. * Angels * Guides * Channeling * Questions & Answer . As well as my regular channeling practice sessions, Reiki work, Channeling Erik requests, etc. As well as fulfilling family, career, and home life commitments. So as you can imagine it's going slowly step by step. But no worries, I want everyone to still feel free to communicate with me. It might take a while, but we will all get there.

On a personal note, Fall is almost here. And I expect to enjoy harvesting vegetables from my garden. I plan on "attempting" to use my new canner. I've never done such a thing before, but I've always enjoyed cooking and am looking forward to preserving the food I've grown. I've also got a bit of work around the house property to do to prepare for winter. Hope everyone is well and enjoys the weekend! --J