February 2012

February 29, 2012

Happy Leap-day!

We are having quite the winter storm here. It's like the heavens opened up a giant convenient store Slurpee outside and I got hosed down by a passing truck! YUK.... My wool coat now smells like a wet dog! ha ha

Drip

On another note, I am half way through that book I mentioned in my previous entry. Quite frankly it's one of the most amazing things I've ever read. It's VERY different from most of the afterlife material out there. So I hesitate to give my opinion of it until I am finished. That's NOT to say I disagree, far from it; but,

I think what strikes me or what the topics in the book engender in me is just how abstract and symbolic literally everything is. Reality seems sooo indescribable and non human. Its like everything inhuman history is really slowed and dumbed down for us so we wont reject it. Its also.....so far remarkable the vast differences our perceptions, perspectives and beliefs alter and mold reality even on the other side. I mean everything in human history, it doesn't matter the religion or movement uses symbol, and imagery and storied scenes to describe symbolic emotional thought and meaning. And how it's all true from the eye or view point of the perceiver. I think that's why my guides go on so much about emotions and balance. Because they really do define reality. Even more so on the other side.

Here's an example, Ok in the book these case studies or people under hypnosis recall life between lives. They describe what their experience looks and feels and sounds like as they progress from the body to their final destination so to speak. And I don't know if it's the hypnosis, or the methodology or the people themselves, but they can perceive that trip as anything from energy manifestations, to lights and color, to analogy and symbols, to fully fleshed worlds and scenery. And if you read between the lines and compare it with other afterlife descriptions such as monsinour Benson's book, or the Spiritualists, or the parapsychologists, or the channeled material, or even the Bible, it's quite clear that our ultimate reality is a giant emotional thought manifestation. It's sooo blatant and obvious that we are all given what we need as opposed to want. That things are presented to us for comfort and acceptance. So that we focus on either life lessons or experiences. It's really a wild book. If that sort of thing doesn't intimidate you, I highly recommend it. It's an eye opener and head bender for sure!

Lovein the stuff I am learning about guides. It's interesting to me to run across a turn or phrase in the book that makes me go.... AHHA! or I remember, or in spots where the case study or client is describing something, but doesn't really know what it is; in some cases I remember, or I've read about such things in other places and I put two and two together and get it. For example, the person talks about being pulled by some unknown force across space and dimensions as if in a galactic river. Well I know what that is. It's one of the transportation methods. It's actually from the energy of an entity that regulates things. An analogy is a Spirit who's body is a planet, or solar system or galaxy. A Spirit in charge of vast energies and responsibilities that on human terms we can't relate to at all. I think the only thing that bugs me about the book is the "human" methodology and tendency to put labels, and structure and category on these case studies and apply them in a systematic way. Everything in my being is telling me that what is presented in this book is but a pin drop of perspective in all that is. And that we are in no way limited or bound by such seemingly narrow confines... unless we feel, believe and perceive we are.

It never ceases to amaze me how off and incomplete in picture even the most knowledgeable group or person can be here on earth. How everyone only works with their little water drop at a time. The more I learn the more I realize how far I have yet to go. One thing is for sure. This book totally reinforces the idea that the key to life is to let go of worry and fear and just give into our experiences the best we can, and all will be well. Do right by ourselves and the universe will do right by us.

February 28, 2012

I'm feeling pretty arthritic today and have a lot going on here. Work, and the weather mostly. Snow storms. I can't imagine that I'll be posting or able to correspond much this week.

Yesterday I was watching this series

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QDT58Q6Zxo

So then I went and bought his Kindle book.

http://www.newtoninstitute.org/

I think the book is amazing.

http://www.amazon.com/Journey-Souls-Studies-Between-Lives/dp/1567184855/ref=pd_bxgy_b_img_c

I am gonna buy his other books too.

Check out these urls

http://www.afterlifetv.com/

http://www.youtube.com/user/DrBrianWeiss

February 27, 2012

If you have not already, I highly recomend Linda Labertew's most recent sunday writing.

The Benefits of Holding down Strong Emotions

http://www.dragonofdrama.com/the_weekly_lessons

http://www.dragonofdrama.com/archives

February 27, 2012

"It is to our great joy, that often the first sounds of Heaven is release of the utter peace of Silence,...

followed by the gleeful chimes of laughter!" -- Voices of Spirit

This past weekend I had the honor to witness just this. A good friend in Spirit Eric (with C-Niki's son) grandfather was dying. I knew it would be very soon. But I didn't not get any visuals, or any of the sometimes sensation of looking through Spirit's eyes. I only felt as though the curtain had been pulled for privacy. As if those in Spirit surrounded and waited, helping with his transition. I didn't really think too much of it. I'd had other "transition visions before" and figured, if I was meant to see, I would, if not, then so be it.

As I was commuting home from work on the train, I was suddenly hit with this odd feeling. Sort of felt like a sense of expectation waiting. I sensed Eric's presence along with another. I didn't think much of it. In fact death was the last thing on my mind. As the entire day, I'd been feeling very odd. Almost as if I was floating out of my body. Like my spirit was swimming around my head and refused to be stuffed in my flesh. It's hard to describe. The nearest I can come to describing such a sensation is a cross between being on a caffeine high and drunkenness. On top of that there was a lot of road construction going on that distracted me. So that when the text message from Nikki that her husband reported the grandfather had just died, I didn't feel any shock or movement at all. In fact I wondered if I should or shouldn't try to focus in his direction at all. As I didn't want to intrude or impose myself on the situation. I even felt very strange in how to respond to Nikki. It was almost as if I was getting a clairsentient response from Spirit to do nothing. I felt a little odd about that, but went along.

In any case I wrote to Nikki; "My condolences to your family's loss. And of course my love and congrats to charlie on his homecoming. I'd not picked up on anything visual.....my sense is he's veiled for his privacy while he heals and gets reaquanted. Eric only hollers at me from a distance that hes fine and in good hands. My feeling is that he quietly slipped out of his body with ease and was started at the seemlessness of the transfer."

Then all of a sudden my entire left side lit up like someone had poured warm water on me. Like I walked up to a giant magnet scanner MRI machine. Static electricity and feather slight pressure. It felt like the rare times I get a massive spirit hug. As though a warm wet blanket was wrapped around my face. From Forehead to lips, ear to nose. The crown of my skull on fire. Followed by a rush of emotion.

It startled me, because at first I was certain it was Eric and I didn't really understand at all. The intensity was quite beyond the norm. Especially in public. Then all of a sudden I felt the presence of what reminded me of my uncle. Who was a huge old man. HUGE. And I was totally confused. Then I heard over and over again in a loud boisterous voice. It was almost a in-your-face quality. A voice I did not recognize at all! "Tell them I am ok!" (huge mental grins and laughing) Very strong energy. It made me dizzy. Good clean energy. Like a spring in his step! Dancing. Joy.

I was in total shock. I found myself questioning if it was real and what was going on. But then the pressure intensified. And I felt Eric and Earl. Eric kissed my head and Earl winked at me. And then who I now knew to be the grandfather beamed at me and ruffled my hair said, Soooo Eric this is Jason. And then I felt a large crowd of people surrounding us. It was exactly like being in the middle of a party. I could sense intense light, noisy laughing, jumping up and down hugs, and bright happiness. My heart felt like it was racing. Earl was very amused and said that they were making the rounds with family. And the feeling I got was exactly the feeling one gets when you hold a new born infant. Like everything in the world and universe is right. Like joy, light, and life is eternal and new. And the possibilities of life are endless. It was sooo light and free.

And then it was all gone. Eric and Earl stayed connected for a while, and I rode the high all the way home, with a huge grin on my face.

I just cant get over how different the energy of someone who dies of old age natural causes feels compared to and established spirit or recent suicide. It is soooo clean white yellow happy light and YOUTHFUL.....its like the same feeling you get holding a baby!

Iam grateful to Nikki's family on both sides, here and there for that spiritual experience. It was more intense than I thought. When I came home, I felt rather wobbely and dizzy still. But it was exhilarating and awesome. I am so happy to be included.....although i suspect I have been for a while...haha....there are no coincidences, just opportunities we forgot about? (Grin).

How wonderful it is to be able to come home (heaven) after such a long life, and as Puck on a midsummer's night said.....all shall be well, all amends mended...

Ive always known that home is where the heart is. And family are those we share it with. Sometimes it takes a life time to rediscover home is not just a heartbeat, but home is a thought. And family, true family is felt. We feel it when we are born. We feel it when we share with open arms. And we feel it when we are reborn. But I am fond of feeling now. Thats when we can really feel with remembered glee that we are not alone in this life. We share it forever.

February 26, 2012

I've had a pretty good weekend so far. I am in the middle of a second round of antibiotics for a respiratory infection and it is sooo nice to be able to breathe again! As well, I had a fairly rough time last week with some personal matters but doing really well now. On a lighter note, yesterday for the first time, our pup (beagle) "Boo" was able to be left home alone for an hour and didn't tear the house up! Life just gets better! ha ha..

Last night I woke up seemingly every couple of hours of super intense vivid dreaming. At one point I was really startled and called out for Eric for help. This is the 'gist' of the info I got as a result.

"On dream symbolism, clairvoyant vision, and imagery":

"We may desire to know meaning through what we see and hear, but often it can only be understood through what feels confusing.

The bridge of meaning often crosses two seemingly unrelated views.

Two images held together in confusion can only be understood by what their collective experience feels like. Individually they simply leap over each other where ever an association is glimpsed. To know how such an experience started one must break apart what that experience felt like and one must look at what each image felt like. And what about that image's feeling gave birth to the one before it. Explored back far enough, there will be a beginning in what you believe about yourself from the original experience."

On an unrelated note, I got this from Spirit,

"The meaning of hesitation is not to look closer, but to step back and take in a bigger view. If we feel fear while pausing we should look inside at what is behind that fear. Then the hesitation is really about resistance, and worry and lack. If we do not feel fear, it is our way of letting us know that it is OK to pause, feel, and experience ourselves in the moment, a state of grace if you will. If allowed, this will feel like peace, it is a moment to share and express your love. It is a moment for you to feel, not do. In our culture we often approach pauses with discomfort because we are taught that to be without doing is lazy. But to be with understanding while feeling is to do what comes natural to you."

February 24, 2012

This morning, I opened the morning local news to be greeted with yet another story of a young person who chose to exit life early. I can understand this but it kinda makes me blue that people feel the need to leave after spending so much spiritual time and energy in coming into life to give up without a better fight. Often times a fight alone. That said, at the same time while browsing the blogs, I came across the following two posts by Erin Pavlina. I think they are very well written and worth reading. Everyone knows someone who is struggling with life. http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2012/02/battling-the-desire-to-suicide/

http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2012/02/no-excuses/

Overcoming the shame of pain, is not easy. The gut feeling of what was experience needs to be acknowledged and as accepted as real and heart felt. What is harder and what is real spiritual growth is deciding whether or not such experience defines you, and what you believe about yourself as a result, as being valid. This is an inner confrontation of what you want, desire, and what you don't want. The key is never to let yourself run into a the corner of this tight focus. But the key will only turn true if you put it against what "you DO have". The emotional resistance and pain is not there to torture you. It's there to get you to look in another direction, no matter how improbable, or unassuming. This journey of finding yourself and finding your emotional balance is the door that will open up new life for you.

There is something to be said,

Of Shame and Guilt.

When emotional reactions

hold us hostage.

When what hurts

leaves us us with fear.

When what we fear

sends us into panic.

We desire simple escape.

Walking away, vanishing.

The silence of nothing

aches as we long for ourselves at peace.

It is only when we remember

what Grace we have.

That we can find the gratitude

to explore who we are in life.

When we come to understand

what our natures can show us,

in each experience felt true.

Who we are has always been

forever in light, forevermore

a part of God's Grace.

Under this understood knowledge

shame and guilt fall away as

Pride of opportunity takes hold

We can find thanks for Love,

Of all that is, we are too.

February 23, 2012

"I think sometimes we go through intense emotions to learn about ourselves and come out on the other side. You have nothing to give anyone, unless you take care of yourself first; which includes going through intense emotions." -- S.D. (a good friend of Erik and I)

February 20, 2012

The scripts of life are but a part of the Divine Playbook. Our role in the multiverse.

Just as every actor know he is playing a part, he knows the life of that part and feels the individuality of the character so intensely, that the character has a life of it's own. The character and role evolves. Even so, both are scripted, directed and funded. All are part of the play. Each to some extent are aware of the other. Each communicating, both individually and collectively. Each actor has a life on stage, and off stage. Each rich with perceived reality.

Each of our life's, each of our lifetimes are self aware, conscious and has a soul on it's own development. At the same time it acts with others who are acting within from a direction, movement, a script. This guidance is from the an over-soul. Some say a higher self. All this means is that the facet (life personality) that is "hooked" into the physical to play a role, a life, is tethered to parts of itself that reside in the non-physical. Together these form a multidimensional energetic body. They over-soul.

But there is more to us than that. Each part, each act, every over-soul belongs equally to a greater play. --That being an 'entity'. The ture higher self. An entity or "play" is made up of individual acts, themes, scenes, each with evolving and conscious actors. These are what we think of as lifetimes. As such, each lifetime is made up of multidimensional parts, an over-soul. Within each entity co-existing all at once are what we typically think of as past, future, and alternate lives or realities. All are co-joined, co-experienced, and united as an entity. YOU. There is no separation, there is no real division. It is only the limiting focus of 3D physical duality that makes it seem so.

As each Entity is a whole complete play, made up of many parts, so too are there series of plays, families of plays, and groupings. As all are part of a cooperative whole, so each player is a part of All That Is. The Divine playbook of a multiverse.

It is because of the stage lights and the focus of the performance and the audience that we as actors do not see the scripts, or the playbook while we perform. Just as each actor interprets their role, each strives to expand their contribution, experience, and part of the production. And so we live but for each moment played out.

February 19, 2012

Spiritual Purpose vs A Purpose:

It has been said that to find and seek one's purpose is to win. I have to take issue with that mentality. I find that in most cases such a statement, especially in Western society immediately makes people look outside of themselves. So instead of looking within at what they do have to work with, they look outside of themselves for something to complete or make their life have meaning. I really don't think it's very useful.

If you feel purposeless, its not that you are here in this moment to be handed a worthy task or to do anything. Its often that you're here to experience who you are behind the belief that you lack purpose. Of course there are those who feel passionately charged to perform a task, duty, or endeavor. But it is not the action, their soul seeks to engage, but it's the inner experience of self passing through such experience, not some purpose.....

Purpose is never anything found....purpose is always expressed. It is the inner reflection projected outward as you state who you are.

By focusing on purpose as a "thing outside of you", you are manifesting a lack, a whole that needs filled. But the problem is, IS that we are all complete, we all are unique and we all came here with everything inside of us to experience ourselves. When we realize that our purpose is to simply be ourselves, we can come to an acceptance that nothing needs to be found, taken, or fulfilled other than expressing what is inside of us according to our highest possible self in any given moment.

Where we get stuck is by ignoring our inner signals, and emotions. We instead make the assumption that how we feel must come outside of us and is apart from us. We only need to turn back inward and say to ourselves, what in this moment is really me? What in this moment is love? What is fear? Which says anything about who I am and how will I react? Or is this simply a matter of emotionally balancing the two to find peace....

Such introspection is work at times and not something others can give us unless we hand over our power. But understanding such discernment, clarity, and freedom is, is a live purpose, a reason to incarnate and live.

Have you done anything today you find joyful? Or have you accepted something as unfavorable.? Why? Is what or how you feel a good enough excuse to not do something you find joyful? Is worry or focusing on i don't, i cant, i wish, gonna make you feel better. Is it who you are.....if not let it go. You want purpose. There you go.....learn to let go and focus on what you can do if just for today.

February 18, 2012

To dream, to dream, a place I go where friends love lost is found again and in great fires of bliss we dance the night away. Step in step out of sleep, under whose moon spins me into the embrace of friends like you. Heart held to cheek, we slumber not, for in heavens light what was lost fills the night.

***

Homes heart is not found in place, or contentment. For me, it just the place where i can simply be.

***

My hopes and dreams have never gone anywhere. Its mainly because there was never anywhere they needed to go. Ive always held their fruits inside me. I picked them long ago. One might think that means i ate them already, but no, Ive only been keeping them near to nourish me and those who would share.

***

I was raised that mankind needed salvation and forgiveness. That he was doomed to eternal separation if one did not believe, perform, and express a particular thought. This was labeled the great gift of free will. Yet obedience was mandated. I found my salvation, but it came from accepting, remembering, and exploring an eternal journey of my own making. Some say this is heresy. I say it is a key. A shift, A expansion of awareness.

February 17, 2012

Signs of Spirit Activity in developing mediums; Both Mental and Physical. (Beginning physical experiences)

*Constant yawning: sign of energy blending, personal, environmental, and spirit. It' is drawn and mixed from all.

*Solar plexus pushing or pulling: intensity of great variation possible for the same reasons.

*Itching or tickling: Ears, nose, eyes, mouth hair. Personal and Spirit energy is being manifested for physical experience. Touching the effected areas should be avoided unless you want it to stop.

*Smells: Spirit manifestations. If you are sitting for development, avoid external scents at all cost.

*Earthy smells: Personal and spirit energy mixing. Some traditions label this ectoplasim. It can smell like sweat, musty, dank, unpleasant, ozone. It is temporary and will dissipate.

*Water sensations: This could be felt sprinkles onto face, hands, or elsewhere. OR it could be akin to floating or being in the pressure of submerged water.

*Wind or Breeze: On face or exposed skin or clothing. When combined with temperature changes indicates power or energy fluctuation. Often felt starting at floor height and rise up.

*During these times spirit lights, sparks, motes, orbs, shadow, and colored mist may occur. This is charged air. It is mostly electromagnetic, which contributes to the air movement sensations or emotions felt.

*Lip licking, smacking, or finger twitches. Sensations of hands on top of head or middle of back: This is an indication of Spirit teams increasing connection for communication.

*Other basic and early phenomena may include faint bell sounds, whistles, music, voices, or singing. Even pops, taps, or knocks.

February 17, 2012

I always get the giggles when I hear people ask, "Is this the last life I have to live?"

Look..... Think about this:

In the Milky Way there are 300 billion stars + or - a bill.

There are an estimated equal number of "observable" galaxies in our universe!

How much life is possible? Not only just physical life, but Spiritual life...How do you define a Spiritual or physical life?

Physics and Mathematics tell us that there are many different universes. Not to mention different dimensions. If God is the Alpha and Omega Source, All that IS, then how do you see your role? Do you want to find out? Are you curious? Or does this moment of this life define who you are? Still want to limit yourself? You can pretend it to be so..... It's your choice. But even a choice is only as limiting as the belief you hold over it.

There are advanced guides, who have lived through multiple universes who still wish to use some of their focus to help not just humanity, but each of us individually. If such options to understand and participate are available to everyone, why stop? Can you? Why worry? You are divinely perfect in every way. You can not help but to be you. So just accept everything as an opportunity to make a choice. Then always choose your highest possible self as you see it now.

February 14, 2012

The basis of Spiritual energy, is the same for the healing arts, emotional navigation, communication or learning about who you are.

You project emotional thought. You reflect it. You absorb it. You transform it. And you choose how to react to it.

This is the individuality of free will. To do so with conscious awareness. All perception is a tool to help you express this. All else is unconscious.

All possibility is probable but only in so far as you focus on it. Existing together each is an outpouring from the other. Supportive in so that balance is achieved.

What was, is not so much born, as it is expressed together with what might be. There is no separation other than perception.

To look at what is possible is not so much about creating, but revealing your expression in all that is. To know what you are projecting, absorbing, reflecting, or transforming is to understand your reaction to it.

You can look at what you are doing, and what you are feeling in every moment.

When you realize that you are more than your reaction to life's circumstances you realize that you can be aware of your experiences to live life more fully in self aware moments of now.

This expression is the energy of now. It will tell us something of who we are.

February 14, 2012

When I dream of paradise,

I set thought to what I know not.

Heart full of feeling

not for what longing

pulls my blood,

but for what I know,

can not recall.

What such dreams

send me floating

out of body and linger

in early light

only takes flight

when I think of

sharing it with you.

my friend.

February 14, 2012

To the love of those gone before:

When soft songs of night

hold my mind from sleep,

I have but to think of you

and open my souls heart.

To take your hand

to feel your temple touch,

is to say not I miss you

but, to ask to share a moment.

Together this time

is held in still moments reflection

And sleep takes hold,

there we will stay.

I often wish, I could or knew how to do more for those I love. Some times I feel sort of, not so much as lost but maybe impotent to help. Not quite helpless, but unsure. I know that taking things step by step, without worry, and having faith in what bravery I can muster will have to suffice. Though a part of me hungers to ease all of their burden. I know that is not wanted. We would all loathe that and insist on each experiencing our own way, but still I hunger. Perhaps in the end knowing that those we love, love us enough to allow everyone to carry their own burden, will be love felt. When we let go enough to watch with pride whatever steps and falls another makes, waiting by their side. I suppose that is what it is like for those in heaven. You stand with us, by our sides, watching with love at what steps and falls we may make. I can truly be thankful that at least i know this, i can see it, and sometimes if i hold out my hand, i can feel you there waiting for me, for us. I guess love isn't about wanting or fulfilling. Its about sharing, and experiencing together. No matter what side of the veil we are on...

February 13, 2012

When focus moves

from closed

to open

Light pours in.

What stood dark

Stands in new light.

What lay hidden

Is seen not found.

How felt

moves from shadow

to radiance

Light illuminates

What inner mood

lost without might

Stands firm

in understood beauty.

When you see

what you have always had,

you too will

understand beauty.

When you get the chance

to choose

your expression,

you will feel beautiful

no matter the light.

February 13, 2012

When thinking about healing, clairvoyance, or spiritual communication, it is always important to examine the feelings behind ones beliefs or assumptions. Many times when we do such, we find that they are actually others beliefs and may not in fact reflect our own feelings about our own experiences. So, what does one do when confronted with troubling thoughts...ask yourself this.....is this worry about love, gain, exploring,and sharing? Or is it about lack, worry, fear, doubt? Which path do you choose? Whatever you focus on, will return to you a like weighted by the intensity of your focus. It is a choice. Free will.

Now this does not mean that you can not experiment with who you are and what you do in each experience. There is a difference in looking versus focus....it is like the difference between knowing and understanding......its all relative to experience......

So let go of worry and embrace what feels right in your heart. Live the best you can while seeking love and you will be guided to whats right for you....

February 07, 2012

Q & A cont.

Q) Where did Grandma Go?

A)

A colleague of mine in the Spiritual exploration field who is a medium recently answered a question that I thought could use some further exploration. Especially since my own Spirit team has spoken on the CE website about it before. It's a fairly common question that is asked. One that tends to really push a lot of buttons with family of those who have passed away.

That question is: What if our loved one's on the other side wont talk to us?

When ever I hear this I wish I had the ability to stop time, make everyone pause and re-think this question. All too often the person (this sitter) is asking a medium or psychic they paid and they are on the clock so to speak. But the problem is that this question is really about perception, belief, perspective, intent, and life contracts on both sides of the veil... It's not something that can really be explored in one sitting with a single focused question.

Most people who ask are pretty deep in their emotions and don't really care, they only want reassurance. But such a question is really a fundamental question to get us to understand some of the complexity of the journey of our conscious experience. In many cases it is not about the other person at all. It's all about us!

If and when, during a channeling session you do not get an answer from someone you want to speak to, there can be a myriad of reasons why. Some it has to do with the medium, some has to do with you, and some has to do with the Spirit. It might be that your not asking the right question, or speaking to the right person.

And; Those are only part of the equation. There are many other possibilities. Some can be that the Spirit recognizes that your higher-self really wishes to focus on this life and not them. Some can be that the Spirit recognizes that silence will get you to learn how to develop your own spiritual skill set in which case it is intended for you yourself to contact them as opposed to through a medium.

Some more possibility are that you and the spirit in question had a pre-life contract for no contact so that you could work with the feelings this engendered. In some instances they simply belong to a soul association that is not in close alignment with your current perceptions of your reality. Your belief system or understanding may not engender good communication. In addition they may have created for themselves or take part in a restrictive reality for themselves. It's not that they don't love you, it's that their focus can not be helped but to temporarily be away from you.

Now I want to make something clear. This is but a sampling of possibilities. Spirits do hear, feel, see, and are aware of those who they share love with. Silence perceived from our end is not a good indication of their reality. I know this can generate a lot of anxiety in those left behind. But we can use this as an opportunity to expand how we see our own greater reality. If in that course we discover that our loved ones seem to be very busy, know that they still hear you. You can develop yourself or use other to help you approach them or meet them half way. You can also take the opportunity to explore the feelings this brings up in you. Why do you "need them" to commune with you? Do you see them and you as separated from each other? If so, why? And is it true? How so? Are you seeking validation for a certain belief or perception? Why do you seek to aliveate doubt? Would how you live your life change as a result of conscious contact?

Some times our emotions that wrap around "a desire" are so strong that nothing can manifest but more "wanting". It is only when we stop seeking and start accepting that nothing is lost and that we will always be one, that a connection is noticed. Then you might see that what was once missing was with you all the time.

That said, I'd also like to say that communication is about sharing energy. It is not always easy for a soul to manifest outside of a body, especially if they are not experienced in energy manifestations. It is important to set your intention, examine your desires, and understand your feelings. Then, practice patience, forbearance, and fortitude. If such manifestation are in line with your life plan, and can show you love in a way that further your spirituality, something will happen in time. It's important not to place expectations on them. They have the bigger picture, we don't'.

I'll give you an example. One of my biggest "pre-life plans" was to work on all aspects of fear. My grandmother told me that when she first crossed over that she had to "learn how to hide herself" from me. So that I would not focus on her, but rather focus on what I came to this life for. And in fact, during some of the roughest patches of life, I tried to reach out to her, only to be told she couldn't help me, that I needed to master my experiences on my own. And most recently when in tears thinking none of my blood relatives were around, and that I had been abandoned.... suddenly she came in loud and clear and said, how wrong I was to think that. That the reason they seemed to stay out of my life was due to my own focus, not theirs. And that if I wanted them, that I had to be the one to reach out to them, not the other way around. And that I couldn't live life the way I needed to if I used them as an emotional crutch.

I've also had readings for people who in life, thought they were all alone, only to witness as the crossed over that they were brought to tears in shock to see everyone they thought who had left them were the first ones waiting for them with open arms. Some times such experiences help you with lessons on abandonment, survivor’s guilt, and self love. Last year I channeled some material along the same lines. I feel it's worth re-posting it.

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A message from Spirit--03/18/2011

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Voices of Spirit to the CE community:

"There are many who see their deceased loved ones as being silent. There are many possible reasons for this. But you must remember you are all on different journeys. You are all at different levels of perception, awareness, understanding and belief. So to, are those in Spirit. Every being is a force unto themselves. And you do yourself great dishonor when you assign blame to yourself for a perceived lack of communication. You must keep hope that your love will be true to yourself. That your loved ones evolution has engendered the ability to receive that love. For love never dies. Only our ability to experience love is influenced by the reality we create for ourselves. In the past, present and future, as well in other realities. Discovering this is a process of growth, learning, and evolution of personal awareness. For you and for your loved ones. It would be a mistake to assign blame or reasons for a perceived lack of communication. Rather it is it best to think about what you might learn about yourself from this experience and how you can share and support others in spite of your experience.

It is vital to never give up and to move your views and attitudes to how you can support those around you within love, without expectation. But do not fear this as giving up, giving in, or loosing your loved ones yet again. For even if they are stuck in a reality of their making, or their emotional state does not lend itself to communication, there is still hope. You can not possibly know all the reasons for a perceived lack of communication. Even if this experience is somehow part of your life plan for emotional experiences, you can still bring positive change. Prayer for those who need help in Spirit does work! It is always heard. All of those in higher spirit can hear your love projected. Your love will strengthen those who would go to your loved ones. They are flares of light in clouded darkness. They are calls of hope, calls of love. And upon hearing the calls your loved ones will eventually look up and reach out to Angels, guides, and loved ones of hope, to continue their journey of self discovery. Eventually upon doing so they will hear your love. Love never dies. It is only transformed. Have faith in yourself. Share it with others.

Never see silence as loss. Never see reasons of loss directed at you. Never fear, but see these experiences as an opportunity for personal growth.

Many times you experience great grief in your life at the loss of family and friends. During the process of dealing with this grief you often encounter evidence and experiences of the continuance of life. Many times as with this community, you experience fluctuation in communication levels, awareness, and a sense of closeness or nearness. And then as time passes you experience fluctuation in that spiritual presence. So that at times you feel the spirits of your loved ones seem to move on or become more and more absent from your presence.

The terms and phrases: lingering , moving on, holding them back, visitations; Can be confusing and incomplete when you try to give them meaning. They do not quite work like you think they do. This is because you are working with incomplete information. In part, information that will never be totally complete. But as humans you need to assign meaning to the world around you, to interpret your experiences.

View of dis-incarnate vs/ incarnate on these topics are really about a process. For the dis-incarnate spirit it is about remembering upon arrival in the so called afterlife. It is also dependent on variables of their personality and spiritual evolution. And it all changes based on their emotional state, spiritual callings, and interests.

Humans are often confused.They are trying to interpret objectively an experience that is always subjective to your point of view. To properly deal with these terms and experiences a change in thinking is necessary. A change in perspective. View loss as not something gone or taken from oneself, but to a view of a process of gain, growth, and discovery of every greater love. It is actually like raising a child or the process of growing up. Upon each new spiritual transformation, this process repeats itself to a certain extent. Being reborn; self discovery; remembering or finding out who you are; acting out; learning; careers; hobbies; family; then returning; new awareness.

All these terms really represent--Not loss, but a process of discovery to ever higher callings. This process is simply a continuation of what you go through in your time on earth. It is among other things, yet another process central to being human. These types of processes and growth do not change on the other side as you like to think. It is your perception that causes confusion.

Just like a forgetful teen going off on their own there are some Spirits who-new to the return to Spirit life; can seem to cause a misunderstanding in themselves and you by their perceived actions or lack there of. They have deep impulses toward self discovery so that in their current incomplete awareness they feel the need as you perceive to move on. But, what they discover is that rather moving on is a poor choice of terms to relate to their loved ones left behind. It is actually a process of realizing their higher self, NOT leaving you.

Another misinterpretation you make is that, one of the #1 things Spirit wants us to know, do, remember, is to live in the now and complete your life goals. Whatever you wanted to experience, learn. What you want to work on emotionally, spiritually, ect. So sometimes your loved ones in Spirit seem to leave or 'move on'. But, rather they are trying to turn you back to yourself. They are not gone but waiting for you to come back into proper thinking.

Higher Spirit never abandons but waits for healing and works in ways you can not currently perceive. They wait for changes in emotion, perception, and EXPECTATION, for the greater good. For even the highest of beings come to you or send their messages, messengers, love, and communication. Life is NEVER lost. And Love is ALWAYS transformed into higher and greater love. "

Emily says:

" The beauty of the universe is never kept from you. By seeking to grow every opportunity experience gives us you will reach higher more positive feelings and open more doors for communication. When you say, "you are gone from me, I can't feel you anymore, you must be free"; You often forget to free yourself. If you never give up and keep trying, you will come to hear us and see us through many aspects of creation. You will eventually find that you can create experiences that will help bring about such communication. Don't have expectations of Spirit, or communication. Do not grieve over your expectations or how you see things. But explore your expectations of how you wish to experience communication. Explore how you wish your life to be-- given your new circumstances. How might you change your reality for the better? If you don't know, or don't wish to be, live or go on; Explore those feelings. Look at them honestly. Only by staring at them in the face can you find out some of who your are and how you can help others through your experiences. Even if you can not see, now, then, or later. Its about the emotional process. Both now and for those in the here-after. In the end it will always be about moving into love."

Andy says:

"We are not asking you to let go and move on or saying that we can't be there for you. We are saying we want you to come back to yourself. This is about your journey. Not ours. We all love you so much and we want you to love again. We want you to remember that death is not a brick wall, it is an illusion. It can be confusing, it can seem like an huge hole. A grave is not a dead thing, it is a pile of clothes. We have new clothes now. We love you. We have lives here just like you have lives there. Just like kids who start off to college sometimes the kids and the parents each seem to get wrapped up in the new life, but as life happens we move back to those we love. When it matters we call home and love. We make visits. Just be patient and hang in there. We got school here, and you got your stuff there too. Just wait, pretty soon we'll all be home for the holidays, together again.

Chris says:

Same here. When I first came here I tried very hard to stay focused on those I left behind and my life here. It was wild. I couldn't believe all possibilities in the universe. So much to do, so much to see, I often didn't know what to do or where to start, so I just ran and ran and tried to get in as much as possible. It can really be overwhelming sometimes and exciting. At the same time I focused really hard on mom. But as my time here progressed I began to remember more and more of who I was and I realized new things about myself and what I wanted to to do and accomplish. But I felt kinda like a kid. I kinda knew what I wanted to do but I didn't know quite how to start. So I tried different things. And a lot of that came across as miscommunication and silence to mom. It was hard to balance what was best for me, and what her and her guides said was best for her. Also she has goals and plans and I can't interfere with them. I wanted to try to figure out ways to help her. That's part of what I want to do. Do those plans with her. Cause that's part of my goals too. When Erik came along he helped me with that. That's some of the work that Erik and others like him do. I just really want people to know that communicating with us is not a black and white thing. There is so much going on. Not only on your end, but our end too. Grief is a process for you, and remembering is a process for us too. Just make sure you don't view these in terms of a timeline. Cause it's different for everyone. Just don't give up.

Erik says:

You guys need to stop worrying about if your a freak show or not. You need to just feel! You need to get it out. If you need to work it out. You need to lean on each other for support. You need to be there for each other and hold each other as family as a community. This is what matters. Working out your experiences as emotional and spiritual lessons. If you need to cry, go for it. If you need to yell and swear, do it. Just let it out, but do not hold on to it. Do not obsess about it and punish yourself. Cause if you do that you are not helping yourself and others. These experience are painful. They will not go away because they are a part of you now. They are part of your experiences of this life. But they don't have to hold you hostage. You might feel that your weaker, stupid, broken from them. But here's the thing. Now what? Where do you go from here? Are you gonna give up? If you do you can, but how's that fair to those still living and yourself. If you wanna give up no one is going to stop you. But yourself. If you keep trying and try to keep living you might eventually find new things about about life. You might find more to love. You may not think so, but then you wont know unless you keep trying. So keep telling each other your stories. Keep giving each other love. Cause when you do your light shines brighter than the sun, and it's rays will heal and help others on their path too. Luv Erik

February 05, 2012

I recently heard a singer say something in her music video, that reminded me of Nikki and I discussed last night on why we could, would, or should return for another earth life. I think the words speak for themselves....

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"You may say I lost everything. But I still had my bedazzeler, and I had a lot of patches... Shiny ones....so I reeked havoc on some old denim and I did what any girl would do... I did it all over again." -- Lady Gaga

As long As we stay in touch with who we are. As long as we see ourselves as that create spark. That spark of God living through us as us with us;, that we will travel universe after universe co-creating ever greater realities for us to share. The joy, The love, The thrill to Explore who we are....

February 03, 2012

Last night I was chatting with Eric, and as per usual. When talking to him, I frequently am bombarded with visual symbolism of some sort. It's often moving images super imposed on him, my viewing surrounding or it floats around. At one point I turned to Lydia, and I said, "Ok, what?!? Why do I keep getting this shit? Can't I just have a normal conversation..?" She said, "Just because you don't hold conscious awareness to develop your skills, doesn't mean we don't. It's our job to help you progress in experience and understanding, whether your aware of it or not. It's up to you to engage what you will and work with it. If you want to ignore it and let it bother you.... Or you can step up and keep trying". --------- My only comment pretty much was sort of, (to Eric) fine... but you sooo owe me beer.

February 02, 2012

Tonight I hopped onto a really crowded train. At first, I had to stand for the first several stops, and then I was able to grab a sideways bench seat with 3 teenagers who were super noisy speaking in slang. I couldn't really understand what they were saying, so I closed my eyes and tried to snooze. Not easy as I get motion sick really easy. So I rode with them the whole way, and my head was pounding when I got off. Fine, no prob. But right before the last stop, the "traveling preacher man" comes through and starts to ask everyone if they know Jesus... sigh...I pretended to sleep, and he walked by me.

So I get off at my destination at the mall. And walk to the bus stop. Totally crowded. I wait 15 then get on my crowded bus. The card reader doesn't work. So I get stuck sitting sideways at the front of the buss. I was surrounded on all sides by 3 ladies, who are all on their cell phones, talking very loudly about their very harsh lives. Lost jobs, sick family, lost homes, trouble this or that. Right as soon as the bus left, I was starting to get very very uncomfortable. It felt like I was getting sick again. Like all of a sudden I was getting depressed, and upset, and full of all these scary feelings. I just felt like shit. Totally like I was drowning in sorrow. I didn't know what was going on, cause earlier in the day I thought I was doing so so well. But it was like I was totally having a back slide.... I felt like crying. But I sat there and tried to visualize energy washing around me in a whirlpool and washing down the drain.

Finally I got off the bus at my stop, and INSTANTLY felt relief. Instantly. I walked across the street and it felt like this huge freaking weight lifted from me. I called up a friend, who is a rieki master an empath and channeler (we share a guide) and, Elizabeth our guide said, I was absorbing and taking on their energy and acting as a healing presence for those ladies. I was washing their energy. And when I got off the bus, I was out of their energy flows.

Wild huh? When I finally walked in the door, I was totally exhausted. She told me to eat protein, take a shower and get some sleep. And I was totally fine after that. Now that I think of it, if it happens again, I am going to send them Reiki. It reminds me how we can all transform negitive energy but confronting it with our own positive energy. We don't have to know a healing technique or be clairvoyent. We can simply try hard to focus on what we are grateful for, what we do have, and how every hardship helps make us stronger.

February 01, 2012

As you know I am very slowly writing a book on Spiritual communication. The other night I was pondering some problems people frequently have. They get really worked up about what is and isn't real. To my mind, Spiritual Communication is a life long tool, endeavor and pursuit. I don't really care what anyone believes or not. I feel the process is far more important. Who am I in this greater reality I perceive.

One of the problems people face in Spirit Communication is that they project a thought through their third eye or crown chakra. While doing this they physically associate the thought as coming from those physical spots in their head. But as soon as the thought leaves, they switch focus from this physical locale to pause at their ears or the side of their head and are met with silence.

Reply thoughts are usually received from the same mental local as from where they were sent. Sometimes it is helpful not to pause in waiting fo a reply, but rather to "prime the mental pump" with the first word you "feel' would be a reply. You see all the senses are connected, they are never singularly separated as one typically thinks of a physical organ. For example. say,.... "Erik are you there?".....follow it with "yes.......------ (insert the thoughts that follow)... Let the thoughts flow without judgement of orgion, interpretation, doubt, evaluation, or validity.

This is where people think they can not distinguish their thoughts from others thoughts, from Erik. They can not perceive a "disassociation between thoughts and their own thoughts, when actually it can all be compartmentalized through intent, acceptance, and belief.

For example, If I visualize Erik and ask, "Hey dude, how's it going?" I may "think a reply of "hell yea, awesome dude"..... If it comes immediately without effort, I just accept it's from him and go with the flow. If there is worry, doubt, fear, or anxiety, I discount the communication.....When I know it's him, I KNOW. I can feel it at the same time I get the thoughts in return. I also often have visuals, pictures appear in my head, as well as exterior skin sensations all at the same time.

Another thing to keep in mind is that most people have a hard time accepting that information passes both ways at the same time, and is rarely limited to "thought-words". I liken it to "whole body symbolism".

Further thoughts on Spirit communication:I often hear people say, "gee, I wish I could meditate more, maybe I'd be in better contact with so and so, or it would raise my vibrations"....

I got to tell you, I really don't feel meditations do anything other than provide you an opportunity for self examination, detachment or stress relief. If you chase change, especially with worry, you will always be running around. If you actively practice visualizing mindful intention, change will find you. It's going to be really hard if you wish to contact Aunt Suzie, but all you can think about is how you need to release all thought, feelings, and look at an empty room. What I do, is fill that empty room. I visualize, imagine, and picture Aunt Suzie in the room, with all of life's clutter and chaos. I simply say, I remember Suzie, She is still here, with me, She is out there, still Aunt Suzie. Instead of letting go, I tighten my focus on Aunt Suzie, and I hold that image to my mind and I "think-at" the image as if it were her. I think of it as a video phone to other side. Now if you find the mental work of focus, refocus and effort in visualizing all that as meditation, then I guess you are.....

But when I meditate, I do so only for stress relief, for letting myself closely feel my emotions and visualizing them wash away, and closely examining the how's and why's of who I am. In that quiet light I can then decide what is and isn't me.... And I have to tell you, I am never an empty room, a flame in the dark, or a quiet wind.... I am eternal thought seeking love of those I share life with. If I closely examine it, I will see all of our connections.