Meeting my higher self

Rough draft----02/01/2012

Last night,

I asked two friends of mine who are mediums, Robert and Sherry; The following:

I am interesting in your visualization of this.If you were to try and picture my higher self..... just play along here.... for giggles.... Try and close your eyes and ask the universe what my higher self would look like. I am interested in seeing if others can or how they view such things in general. If you were to clairvoyently view my higher self, what does it look like, specifically to you. Feelings and words are ok too, if you get nothing. I ask, because I rarely seem to see higher selves as anything but light. I have no idea why. And in the Astral, I can only ever see my hands, I can feel and know where my light body is, but I never seem to see it. Also I frequently move between a little boy, a woman, and me. It's weird. So, I am curious what others see, when and if they have ever tired to view such a thing. I wish I knew the technical hows and whys of this. I know Jamie and others have also said, that they rarely see feet as well. I know many spirits keep the look of their last form until they reincarnate, or other simple project a familiar form dependent on whom they are speaking with. And yet others are simply emorpheous energy. I've experienced a bit of all of it, but i am left to wonder about myself. Am I Jason, a pink sparkly cloud, a princess, or what? ha ha......And no I am not a little shit! Erik!

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In this light:

Sherrie said, "I got someone wearing a red shirt with brown eyes. A male. With beams around him going outward, like beams from the sun and wings on his back."

and then,

Robert said, "That he saw a formless body with just legs in fishnet stockings, with really vibrant colors radiating up and out and black and red sparks flying off from it as if from a fire, with orange in the middle and gold and yellow in the center of the sparks."

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And then Erik, Robert, Sherry and my guides interpreted it all for me.

Here is what Erik said:----

The higher self, does not exist in form, shape, space, time, nor any physical construct. It is like an energetic network and yet at the same time a collection of data points. Each point representing all that has been, all that is, and all that will be of each point. It is you, and yet can not be defined by you other than what you look at. It is the web of all you are in all that is. So that said, I asked Eric through Robert last night, "What does a 'higher-self' look like, if I were to stand if front of it?" Erik said, "A mirror" ( he showed me a floor length dressing mirror) .. I said, "Huh?"... He said, "The higher self will always show you a symbolic metaphor of who you are at any moment. But that moment is not fixed. And what is seen, felt, heard, or otherwise is limited by the observer, at that moment in time." He also says, " You have to make sure you look at it like an emotional metaphor because your higher self is not a thing or place. It's a reflection of all you are. A conscious thought of all you are connected to all that is. It all exists at once. There is never any separation. That's why I always tell you to just live to your highest possible self. Because only you can determine what that is and how that manifests based on your choices".

Robert and Erik said, "that the stocking represented a net, or a restrictive bind that has to do with sexual and emotional lessons. That the vibrant colors represented all the nuances of possibilities that were available within this construct or life. And that the sparks represented a release like the sparks off a fire. That dissipate as they cool and burn into the air, being released from the fire. That the black represented fears, and the red represented physicality. Orange represented a balancing point and change. And that what was left after the fire, was the gold and yellow of focus, harmony, and enlightenment."

Sherrie, and my guides said, "The red shirt represents passion, and anger. Earthly intense emotions held close to the heart. And that the wings represented release of it. The light represented the inner light breaking free and the connections and ties to everything you are and all that is." She followed up a bit later with some clairification; "What I meant was the red shirt represented all the anger and resentment you had being raised in such a religious family, how you felt stifled. The inner light was who you REALLY are shining through."

--When she said that I had an Epiphany that hit me like a lightening bolt that made my breath catch. It was like my head caught on fire and I thought of all the anger, resentment I had been holding onto in relation to my childhood, and how I was raised. Emotion quite frankly I didn't realize I had been holding onto inside of me. I had been working so hard on addressing life's fears and issues of self love, that I had totally forgotten or pushed aside those other issues. I felt sort of dumb struck. And then sudden release in that when I looked at that old anger, I realized that it was no longer relevant or that I felt secure that I no longer needed or wanted it. It just seems like it was a non issue or that I didn't or couldn't identify with it. Especially since I had come to terms recently with my mother. And so as I lay there in bed talking to Sherry on the phone, I felt this great sense of peace and release. I am sure I will revisit the issue sometimes soon, but that was my experience with meeting my higher self.

On a related note, the next morning I went to a dream website and looked up what the colors meant as the pertain to seeing them in a dream: ( See below )

On an interesting side note: --- Robert and I asked Erik what "his higher self" would look like.... He said, "Good question, Let me step outside of myself for a bit and see, ... It's like a pit bull. Fierce, aggressive, protective, dog-headed, but gentle, playful, sweet all at the same time, determined. Blues and golds...." Although at that point the conversation degenerated into teasing, and all around silliness. So I'll stop there..... .

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The following from this website: http://www.whats-your-sign.com/index.html

Red: Dreaming of red is about activation, physicality, passion and intensity. In the chakras red is the root, it's a primitive energy that expresses itself in terms of survival and prime instinct. Consider the deep blood red that runs through our veins. Life-affirming, flowing, and activating our energy on a very base, physical level. Red is the root that runs through our psyche. It speaks to us of dormant power. Consider fire. It requires an igniting action. The capability of fire is all around us, but it takes a spark to release the power. I particularly love the symbolism of volcanoes when contemplating color meanings in dreams. The red hot energy is always there, just under the surface. What provokes its resurfacing is key.

If you see red in your dreams:

What needs activating in your life?

What physical (body, material) conditions need your attention?

Are your basic, primary needs being met?

Is stagnation disallowing reproduction?

Is it time to reconnect with nature?

Are you in an environment that allows you to ignite your passions

Orange: Orange in dreams is a sign of equalization, balance and temperance. Orange stands stoically between the raging initiations of red, and the themes awareness/realizations of yellow. It is not entirely physical and not completely mental. Orange is the fulcrum and our perception the teeter-totter. When we dream in oranges, we are asked to consider what is in-balance (or need of balance) in our lives. Orange offers messages of harmony and contentment too - often achieved through a specific (sometimes lengthy) cycle of time. Orange also asks us to build up our immunities, freshen up our routines and engage in practices that enhance our daily lives. On a personal note, I think of pumpkins when my clients tell me they've dreamed in orange. Pumpkins speak to me of manifestation - from tilling soil, to planting seed, to tending the plant, and then harvesting. In other words, actions over a period of time lead to specific results. .

Color meanings of orange in dreams offers questions like:

What needs balancing in your life?

How can I temper my obsessions yet still remain creatively productive?

What kind of results are my actions, over time, going to yield?

Am I approaching my life in a creative way?

How can I incorporate more creativity and play in my daily life?

What's my idea of satisfaction, contentment, completion?

Yellow: Yellow color meanings in dreams radiates themes of centralization, focus, awareness and reminds us of our role as humans within the context of the whole. Consider the yellow tones of the sun, and how central this star is to our existence. Consider the center (solar plexus) chakra which is also yellow and governs our will and even our sense of identity. Some of the first flowers to burst out of a long dormancy are yellow (dandelions, daffodils), this screams to me about awakening - resurfacing - becoming aware (maybe for the first time) of the larger picture of life. Yellow is the color of intelligent design, and when we dream in yellow it reflects a special kind of clarity. Yellow is a bright idea, and an epiphany on a grand scale. When we dream of yellow, our deeper consciousness is paving the way (yellow brick road?) to a path of higher understanding and mystical awareness. Yellow centralizes our energetic focus so that we may intensify our presence. That intensity then radiates outward - just as the light of the sun does. Effectually, dreaming of yellow indicates a time of intelligent reflection in which we are influencing the world around us in amazing ways. .

Questions prompted from color meanings of yellow in dreams:

What perceived barriers do I have that prohibit my greatest view?

What core belief do I express that puts me in the best advantage?

How am I influencing others?

What is my guiding light, and how can I remain illuminated?

What can I do to gain more clarity?

What steps can I take to nurture my creative awareness?