APPEARANCES Writing 5
Today, I wonder if should just go on and wait for You to guide me.
Or get first some concept of Your fourth face, candle, spirit, light?
The name of Your fourth face was revealed to me a long time ago.
Then, the name posed a problem, as my spontaneous association
was of a negative nature. The name Proper seems inappropriate.
To me, proper evokes prim ladies sitting straight on stuffy chairs,
surrounded by things of the past. Or it paints a clerk delighting in
filling out forms with perfection. It smells ancient, dull, irrelevant.
You take this as a joke and laugh when I again share reservations.
As this aspect of Your person, You now appear as a young woman,
full of pep, power and a zest for life. All is clearly positive for You.
Right, just, solid, of beauty, are qualities connected with the name.
Reality is proper, whole, reliable, functional and all over pleasant;
it's dynamic with youthful, clear and enriching lively exuberance.
I clearly had chosen to not wait for clues about what would come.
I do not know if, as You did before with color and sound, You like
to present me with You being Proper by involving my own senses.
I'll just focus on the sparkling aliveness Your face and smile emit:
confident, nurturing and fresh, sharing strength with the world.
It portrays life's structure as grand, beautiful, strong and whole.
You nod and say, 'Yes, this is Me. I am the fullness of existence,
'always active, always expanding, always being related to what
'receives life from Me. I am - you should know - creativity Itself.
'My structure isn't 'just' there. I don't set confining boundaries.
'My 'rules' for life are the wisdom of love and the good of truth.
'I'm the Reality in which life takes place, its one, single setting.
'As Truth and Love are 'married' and committed to each other,
'so it is in the structure I am: a glad joining of My components.
'Being Proper is My structure. You, like all in life do figure in it.
'I am the I AM, the Center and Source from Whom emanates
'in for you hidden ways everything that did get a place in life.
'ALL of this (Yes, use capitals!) is right and just, is showing off
'My fourth name Proper. As it is said: 'I know what I'm doing'.
'I see Myself in the fitting together of detail and the totality
'as I 'thought' them and therefore let them exist: if they want.
'My emanations reflect Me. They always magnify life's total.
'All products of their lovemaking are modeled after a design
'expressing the desire to, with all, make all of life beautiful.
'They use principles of a wisdom all possess who'll love Me.'
'I use the word 'structure'. Reality isn't abstract, vague, a concept.
'My showing off through emanating is willed. Any idea coming to
'fruition is as solid as I am. Everything fits. Whatever can be seen
'is a reminder and a correspondence of what happens from Me.
'I say that nothing occurs randomly or is just an accidental idea.
'To the contrary, all that occurs has its function. The 'hell' of the
'Negative State, is all life's least substantial or solid occurrence.
'Their hanging together at all is a miracle. That is because they
'serve such crucial mission. Though their makeup is very unsafe.'
I wished Your words were heard everywhere. You are bubbling with information,
inspiring everyone to be enriched. Reality is so clear! Who can ignore You, once
we can see You, as I do, gracious, pure, alive, determined and right in every way?
I realize You have given me no indication whether I will get a specific sensation,
You do come to me in order to show Your face as Proper. There is a need for it?
The theme seems that all is well organized, functions with grace and a youthful
agility in all places and regions of life. I am aware that thoughts come up in me.
One is, that You told me that this aspect is being connected and partners with
what You mentioned as You being 'Healing', Your fifth face and spirit. The two
complement each other; one is Your masculine, the other Your female aspect.
Another thought is, that now is shown to me the part of You we could take as
Your internal Self. You offer me today to see Your internal mind, Your psyche.
Perhaps this is the reason I do not need to experience You via a special sense,
since on the internal level of my mind or psyche, all can process this directly.
I tell You that Your vigorous presence as this woman broadcasts that all has
its proper place. All operates in Your eternal structure, with no irrelevance.
All stays part of our secure belonging in the breathtaking edifice of true life.
How effervescent You may look, You do come across as determined.
I've many questions on my mind, and You seem intended to offer me
today all the pertinent information. You then bring up one of those.
How does Your being all-love work? How precisely will it affect me?
I see living as quite complicated with its multi-dimensional systems.
I take it You don't see any problem. Indeed, You tell me that love, as
such, isn't an emotion, a state of mind or feeling. It's not just caring
deeds. You say: 'Love is My nature. It means that all Reality is positive,
'and all that makes up existence, its workings and its results on all levels,
'consists of, and runs on, clean energy, without ever a trace of pollution.
'So is 'the' characteristic of life itself, of being's whole universal totality,
'All, without exception, is born from love and in turn want this to show.
'All in life mirrors solid goodness. How technically love does performs,
'is hard to grasp, as you did lose the naturalness of a unifying wisdom
'that recognizes love as life's essence. So perfection went out of sight.
'When You now see Me this radiant and, correctly, take Me for real,
'you've the option to surrender to and follow up on what is so in you.
'Which is your inkling of goodness and love as on earth this is known;
'while pleasing and welcome in My eyes, it is far removed from fully
'mirroring the total integration of My love essence in life's structure.
'In the universe, it's openly manifested that each participant in life
'has but one joy and one goal. It's to happily show that life is great!
'The distinct components of life participate with ever-novel shapes.
'Never ever will any contact they make not echo their common joy.
'It is for an earthling like you that I have to describe facts this way.
'You still operate as a product of a one-time-only 'pseudo-creation'.
'Yet now, you hear the full truth! As often stated, the human race
'came about to explore,challenging Me, with free will and choice.
'By allowing this, I did test Myself: Will My reaction remain love?
'I chose, as you know, to permit evil to come to its fruition, so that
'possible ideas of life not equaling love, would not be entertained
as viable option. You told the story! In the present cycle of life, I
'expanded My being by including the human situation. Meaning,
'that My being human is permanent part of My fullness as I AM.
'Don't get Me wrong. The choice to stay involved with a world
'that keeps denying or ignoring Me is completely strange, unreal.
'Yet I've done it from evil's very beginning. You can testify to this!
'As the later human generations uprooted a normal functioning,
'My whole structure as Love and Wisdom is strongly attacked.
'Yet I will never stoop to the level of confusion, evil and chaos.'
'One day, learning will be over, when all evil has been portrayed
'exhaustively. That means, it does not need to ever be repeated.
'Even possible vague ideas of doubting Me will fully evaporate.
'My structure changes in that all not-love will be removed from
'what is negative and their products. It creates a new situation.
'Life's edifice now features the futile effort of letting it collapse.
'The end happens not by magic, by a sleight of My divine hand.
'I have lessened My density for humans, enabling them to turn
'life away from and against Me. Yet I did remain Myself as the
'One Proper, by not deserting the Negative State. I care for all.
'This human cycle ends. The path I take isn't easy for you, yet,
to say it again: be assured I do always know what I am doing!'
It's such a comfort for us, living today on planet earth,
where decency, beauty and love seem often defeated
and atrocities committed by humans do not taper off,
that evil is a one-time shot. It will never be repeated.
'Life' and 'existence', are big words. What do I talk about?
Is this philosophy, theology or whatever sort of science?
Is it understandable? I know now, it is. We can grasp life.
Yet, what enables us to do this; which part of us does it?
Life is a given; we all have it. Yet it can seem a mystery.
Even if life evolved from 'scratch': what is that scratch?
From a human perspective, life looks large and strange.
Nothing of it escapes; alive or dead, all does fill a space.
Somehow, life holds on to itself; also as matter it is so.
Life is on the move, so the question will still be asked:
who made the first move, and how began awareness?
We can simplify it and react like we see it in children,
'Eh, I'm here; that matters. Just try to enjoy yourself.'
We can choose to be good people who do their best.
We can use our energy to fight evil, what is negative
without grasping how life's diverse systems function.
Should we get it? Or is it perhaps 'the' earth tragedy
that we, in the midst of life, are still so disconnected
from its source, from You, in spite of tiny remnants?
Our groping to make sense isn't just piecemeal but
a waste, as life in general and our own person stay
an enigma: unless we'll receive proper information.
I pause and wait... What will You explain of You being the rightness of all that is?
You say I should not go overboard with denouncing all the happenings on earth.
Indeed, nothing is comparable there with the scope of reality in other universes.
It's giving You satisfaction that our fabricators fail to eliminate all true Reality.
To be suitable for their purpose, they had to use their human genes and tissues.
In those, Your life force remains. To their great sorrow they had to accept that.
They mutilated what they could, yet undoing life itself was outside their power.
For that, they hate You passionately. It hides their failing in what they live for.
Yet in the middle of the rubble of life gone astray in our galaxy, there still is life!
Remaining in us people is a deep longing to feel at home in life, the best we can.
In all of history, humans tried to find divine signs in nature, in events, or inside.
Most of true life they discovere is immediately confiscated by negative forces.
Nothing we can trust as pure, proper, right, just or beautiful: it all can be a trap.
But this must not stop us from following a path that uses data of true Reality.
Despite technical advances, life's total structure is still elusive for our insight.
Only our longing is for real. To feed it, we can see in beautiful things or justice
being done, and in plain happiness, a clear correspondence with Your nature.
Most of us judge life by moral standards: Are things right or are they wrong?
We continuously use validations proving our point of view is proper all along.
The trap here is that when we are judging even the evil things which we hate,
we cannot honor You or Your wisdom unless we scrape all ego from our plate.
Doing this, the need for judging wanes and we can re-focus on our real goals.
The truth is: right or wrong is immaterial; only Your closeness gives life value.
So no use giving up! We have the chance to listen to Your gently whispering:
'Go on, I am with you'. If this may seem childlike, our stubborn trust in being
on the right track while we have to keep laboring uphill, then I say, so what?
'Throughout all history on earth and, of course, also in the 'hells',
'I am painted as a wrathful sort of master who attacks enemies or
'deviations from My rules, so all in life must fear My raging fire.
'It's thought people must bravely accept disasters or suffering as
'punishments coming from Me. That way you'll be cleansed and
'purified, the one condition for being reconciled with the divine.
'Then, there are all the solar systems with the cosmic explosions,
'storms, thunder or cataclysmic events raging feverishly all over.
'Fire devours what crosses its path. Many do blame Me for that.
'Wrong! It is offensive that even the need to imply that in some
'shape or form I'm involved in something destructive comes up.
'It is absurd to see Me as a source of what is dark, or projecting
'in Me on a grand scale what those denying Me have concocted.
'They've found themselves in more and deeper deadly darkness.
'In order to make sense of the chaos they cause, they blame Me.'
'Bloody stories in so called `holy scriptures' are totally false when ascribed to Me.
'They mirror and describe the falsity the 'hells' and humans pollute My image with.
'As if I can harbor violence! If I did, I would not be different than those evil powers.
'The cosmic energies, holding life's structure together are a purely positive force.
'Nothing is forced on anything or necessity. All comes from a desire to be part of
'sustaining and contributing to glorious living. It so reflects My light and strength.
'It joins with all the other elements the celebration that for them being in life is.
'Nothing is passive, tired or needing a boost. All the 'heavens' are totally healthy.
'Flamboyantly, they wave to Me that they are O.K. and all want to keep going.
'And I wave back, sending flames of My spirit as supply for their creative energy.
'You'll know this, when you meet with Me now or later, and pay close attention.
'It became clear to you that problems come from you, but that as human you
'can screen what's dark in you. You can learn what is right or not good for you.
'Closeness to Me is a choice. You can invite My peace as a force, as a wave of
'well-being inside you, regardless of negative situations that you'll encounter.
'You'll know what is right and that I, being Proper, observe only by that light,
'even in your temporary states of being all mixed up in your earthly disarray.
'And what about My 'enemies'? I am the Healer, not the destroyer.
'Nothing can stop that I am light. It burns in all My manifestations.
'Do realize that My fire and the darkness aren't of equal strength.
'By closing their eyes for the glow of My spirit, your ancestors did
'find themselves in a new, self-imposed state of all over isolation.
'In it, they experimented and ignored all principles of My nature.
'Abusing the ingredients of My nature's real fire, they managed
'forging a structure that must serve as alternative to true Reality.
'They did succeed. See how human societies bluntly exclude Me.
'You know darkness setting in is contingent on light being shut off.
'Truth and lies are not family. Abused fire is stoking the 'rebellion'.
'They 'stole' it, use it as theirs in shaping earthly humans' 'reality'.
'What you get out of reading all this, is that now you don't ever
'have to believe any more any of their many insinuations or lies.
'Treasuring this in your heart and mind will feed the flame of
'knowing that your person is safe in life's eternal structure I do
'dwell in, so I can share it and shine with all who are My lovers.
'Those who ran or still run away from Me are doing so in vain.
'If they don't abuse My fire but let it purify them, they're safe.
'If they refuse, it's the 'last judgment' brought on themselves.'
Up till here, You seem intent to instruct me.
You are as a tutor, who just loves to teach;
as an artist whose whole passion is beauty;
as a leader who envisions a universal bliss.
But actually, is it not the other way around?
All those who feel enlightened, are as You.
They operate from Your fire within them.
You look so self-assured. You're radiating
deep caring. I have complete trust in You.
The doubts I may have don't relate to You.
They stem from my frustration about the
too-narrow range in my ability to clearly
verbalize the warm intensity of Your glow.
For me, space dares my imagination to soar.
To belong to life's one volume is 'out of sight'.
Some approach reality in mathematical terms.
It seems a level average people do not reach.
I ask what it means that everything 'is' space.
You remind me You explained this before.
Increasingly, I see that all that occurs, also
Our meetings, is structured, isn't just there.
Your name Proper, of Beauty, Right and Just
indicates all in space is of the same quality.
It means that, for instance, nothing in life is
of minor value. All lives up to being right.
The spirit of the universe equals Your style.
What is, fits harmoniously into the total.
This fact colors every detail and fragment.
It proudly shows life's solidity in all that is.
Any function, position or volume is a chance
to let Your endlessness materialize in them.
For us humans, it is difficult to not question
that limitless space serves as a safe haven.
How we know that this vast volume that's
enclosing us, is a secure and good edifice?
Why dare we imagine that it only contains
youthful excitement and novel chances?
There's no waste in it or a possible failing?
Nothing in it has to be feared. You tell me
that space cannot show anything negative,
as all its elements have their origin in You.
As humans, we keep on probing what we call space.
We wonder whether other forms of sentient life exist.
Although, if they do, those may be frightened by us
when they notice our contorted image of Your face.
Space, the fifth of the twelve elements of full reality,
isn't a matter of distance, speculation or even faith.
If we avoid earth-centered-ness in our explorations,
we may be granted a full view of real celestial sights.
Earth shows an isolated, pathetically limited, place.
It is hard to picture it as a part of a well-run cosmos.
The Negative State's forces barely hold life together;
they're caricatures of the happy dynamics of space.
As individuals here, we've a few decades to wonder
what it's all about, filling a certain place and time.
We can choose to follow up on heavenly prodding.
If not, we waste being in it before going yonder.
That humans produced such an ugly chaos is only allowed for the sake of free exploring.
The Negative State is modeled after the Positive State: as opposite and as an alternative.
Only You, as total of the Positive State, know precisely the depth of our darkness here.
You claim what is displaced. You enter its core. All those affected You do welcome back.
How majestic is reality's structure. You offer resurrection to what seems beyond repair.
That all connects, communicates, is logical, considering Your name Proper.
It is an inspiring situation that wherever we look or find ourselves situated,
we are in the right spot for branching out with our full personal potential.
All words spoken, all desires shared, all touching and working together, it
can fit to strengthen all. What a comfort that in the real world all is in place,
that Reality truly reflects Your fourth face. Though it is not easy for us to
imagine us people mutually loving freely and openly, as their way of living.
You say that all structures are modeled after You, as You cover all of life.
I still clearly see You as an energetic woman, youthful in spirit.
Your body exudes a happiness matching Your round features.
Not one disturbance shows in Your calm yet vivacious person.
So like You are, are also your emanations in other dimensions.
Still hidden from our view and knowledge, they do mirror You.
They're wholesome, strong and in every way as an open book.
How they connect is like singing, melodious and hitting right
notes; always sounding delightful, showing love is in the air
and any touch, any word is a song. In all connecting is Your
presence as Love and Truth; as Proper and Beauty, and the
four other faces You will show me. They're all full splendor.
I think it's useless to dream up images of particular features in the full Reality.
My brains are twisted. More importantly, I'm not ready for it. If I could enter
any other dimension, I would stick out as a sore thumb. I'm self-centered and
to the bone contaminated, so how would I be able to communicate there?
Yet, once, I had unexpectedly some personal glimpse when I felt ascending
to a gate through which I was allowed to enter a realm of the Positive State.
It was very short and 'heavy'. It was hard to grasp. All that I could glance at
was of a highly energetic, everyone-involving, yet smooth-flowing busyness.
Colors and shapes were sharply defined. There was a huge crowd that did
move around and mingled on what clearly functioned as a public square.
I couldn't really focus in those few seconds. Yet at that time it floored me.
Why? Because it truly was another dimension opening up in front of me.
Now, I think of it as probably a forecourt we will move to when we die.
I didn't get any particular attention. Yet instantly I felt I belonged there.
I don't think I could have handled more; I'm poor in grasping such things.
Even if I try hard, I can't find adequate words to describe that one scene.
You look at me, amused and say, 'What nonsense! Why trying to express
it with earthly words? Visiting with Me is the Reality, verbalized or not.'
Now this sinks in, I realize that not for a second I must do this writing
on my own, as all insights come from You, if I allow them in my space.
In listening is my value and wisdom. Even if I can't describe the beauty
of the full reality and what goes on there more than I did; yet, a vision
like I was given that time, still means a lot. I draw comfort from Your
fourth name and being shown the character of it in a way I can process.
Many people have come up with ideas about You and life's structures.
But You did convinced me that You truly like me to know full Reality's
ins and outs in all its endless wideness, provided that I truly want that.
I see You clearly. Your standing close seems to
emphasize that what You will say is important.
'I will speak about Myself,' You say. 'About My
'moving forward, ever changing and progressing.
'I know the familiar concept people have: that I
'am the same forever and ever and never change.
'As Love and Truth, that is correct. Yet now I add
'that My nature includes the human endeavor.
'If besides Me another life exists, is a pertinent
'question. I raised that issue Myself. Openly.
'Making room for answering the question was
'a challenge I chose to face, as you now know.
'What's related to a pursuing life without Me
'may seem a wasted effort. Its price is so high.
'It looks like regression that My visibility on
'earth is limited and can not be enjoyed fully.
'Yet remember, it's a one-time-only occurrence,
'My position being once and for all challenged.
'It was a giant step to a totally new situation,
'in which existence itself is shaken to the core.
'The emergence of the cancer of evil amounts
'to an indirect attack on My being One Holy.
'I process it, not by withdrawing, or forcing an
'end to it. I don't stoop to any of evil's methods.
'The Negative State is free on its own course.
'I exposed Myself to it and seemingly became
'its 'victim'. By acting that way, I entered their
'inner and outer space and show Who I am.'
Our concept of time reminds us we're on the move.
Nothing stands still; this may frequently include
the possibility that our situations won't improve
but like our bodies, at one point become unglued.
The opposite is how time is processed in 'heaven'.
There, time measures our understanding of God.
You are young when you need to learn still more.
Old, when finding a truth you honestly sought.
'I tell you that what seems to go downhill is part
'of adding to fullness. Regression is non-existing.
'The Negative State's doings do serve My nature.
'Shaking the basis of life by turning against Me,
'they involuntarily reinforced it fundamentally.
'Their 'success' like violence, death and denying
'Me, proved My nature as right and enduring.
'You can intuit within you, whether that what I
'say is indeed true, reliable and universally real.
'The element Progression states I always move
'to more glory. Responding to evil changed Me.
'The universe adjusts. It admires My reaction.
'Progress on earth occurs when I am invited.
'All other changes will be spiritually doomed.
'In all of the multi-verse, My nature prevails.
'My absoluteness as Love is adored. All do
'reflect gloriously that I, life's one I AM, am
'moving forward through all and everyone.
'Can you see that moving on is progression,
'based exclusively in Me, and is irreversible?'
'Perhaps,' You say, 'this is the aspect easiest to grasp of My structure.
'Nothing hangs loose, so to speak, or is without an impact on others.
'However, the law of cause and effect, as you call it, is very involved.
'The effecting all particles in life's grand scheme do, identifies them.
'This has to do with My structure. It all reflects My universal nature.
'Effect happens not by chance, as from a casual or occasional touch.
'Effecting is life's prime function. It portrays goodness and wisdom.
'It happens not automatically. It always is based on choices made.
'You take atoms dancing or a skin forming cells as a biological fact.
'Yet it's more. Any ongoing activity joins the life celebrating parade.
'For those with awareness, it's a pure joy to exercise their influence.
'Voluntarily, they share and discuss their desire for swaying things.
'If what they're involved in loses attraction, they will replace them.
'Those replaced, happily move on and focus on other adventures.
'The influence people have on others is recognized and treasured.
'You see that My name, Proper, Just and of Beauty is universal?
'Will any structure stand if not well designed and properly built?
'Being a faulty product causes the many miseries on your planet.
'Eliminating My presence, your ancestors turned things around.
'For instance, your solar system: it is out of sync, you can rightly say.
'Yes, that is the reason for earthquakes and other natural disasters.
'The objective was preventing their offspring grasping real reality.
'For a time, they were very proud of the world that they produced.
'Many today do realize that their days of full reign are numbered.
'The earth won't return to glory. It never was right to begin with.
'No, I prepare a cycle of time that surpasses all and includes all.
'It will show the final positive effect of the human drama on all life.
'The negative efforts will run their course and end up being empty.
'In the meantime on earth evil forces panic, wanting total control.
'Corruption rules your systems. What's positive is a breakthrough.
'It gives Me joy when in you darkness, the rays of truth penetrate.
'Be assured, each touch of the true Reality has everlasting effect.'
I wish I could be all-around productive and see results when trying to help out.
It sure would give me great satisfaction when despite weakness, I can be proud.
It seems a healthy desire to be effective as contribution to the well-being of all.
Even with no clear defined motivation, it responds to a very basic creative call.
The first humans meant well by looking at the outside of the edifice of creation.
Yet, absorbed by the passion to achieve, they chose to neglect their hesitation.
We can't undo their disastrous setup. Earthly life will always stay treacherous.
Yet we can, rather than focus on doom, while rejecting evil, gladly be on the go.
'From free will you chose to be saved,' You said. I knew You were kidding,
because the religious word 'being saved' never meant anything to me.
'The point is, nothing exists that is not a product of choices, aware or not.
'Freely made decisions mirror My nature. There 'is' no forced love or truth.
'As I said often, the slavery you encounter on earth is all the result of your
'ancestors' choice to prioritize externals and sever ties with My presence.
'As one of their products, you are moving in a cage as it were; chained by
'gravity, physical limits and cross-wired brains. Still, it isn't doom or fate.
'It's a challenge! Because what makes you eternal is being as My image,
'is the freedom you have, even if only used to doubt any falsity on earth.
'What is most important for you, is not to focus on the limitations you
'have as fa human, but to keep realizing My closeness. I'm all-freedom.
'`Being saved' is a too passive expression. I am not a savior for anyone,
'I am within all. This statement can also inspire you: I love to be your model.
'You can choose to let My spirit come out of the many closed closets in your
'systems' where your fabricators or their minions still try to lock Me up in.
'What did get lost on earth, is the sense that all functions anywhere reflect
'My composition. Therefore, you have also the freedom to not accept this.
'Deliberations and discussions in 'heaven' happen from a position of total
'openness, respect and joy; as mutual and enjoyable teaching or learning.'
'Nothing is gained from suppressing any private desire to ask and explore.
'The human race was specifically brought into existence by Me so that
this could be illustrated. In the course of their.....'
I stopped listening, because I suddenly wonder why again I hear
You talk about what has happened to our humanity in the past.
I look at You and ask You about it. You suggest that I continue,
as what You say is information that needs a presence on earth.
You remind me, pointing at the fragile structure of our planet,
that hearing why it is, can lead to insight into what life means.
'During the human explorations, the focus became life's outside
'as an alternative to Me. They willfully ignored so many truths.
'They can pursue their 'impossible' quest till at one point all the
'questions will receive an answer; however painful this may be.'
I can see now that, to provide answers, they had to be allowed
to have their lies run full course, even if this would hurt badly.
You became directly involved in this drama of our human race.
You also promise all will end well, as Your love will stand firm.
I hit walls when My thoughts can't go further. It is frustrating.
Also scary at times. If I seek to grasp more, You say, it is up
to me! So in the midst of personal conflicts, I'm not asking
You for help. I tell You what I really would like to happen.
I see that sharing with You is 'the' answer, is 'the' solution.
What more can I do with my freedom than to let
You know I am stuck and that my wish is to still
hold on to the feeling that You know and care.
During our visits I sense the realness that all in
real life cooperate to always make things solid.
It works from free choice; individuals or groups.
What science may discover when searching in
our confinement as isolated space, can only lead
to the conclusion that all choose their reaction.
No place exists where happily working together
is not the desire. All particles and units use their
freedom to support the whole they are a part of.
When in our personal life things hit home in a negative way,
like failures, pain or fears, we have a choice how w'll react.
But do we really have free will? We can't dictate emotions.
We can be trapped in behaviors that notoriously do hurt.
Yet You like us taking heart, even smile with quivering lips.
Because of You, our safety is closer than around the corner.
Happiness or joy can be seen as just iffy feelings.
It all depends how deep in reality they're rooted.
When I do see You, Your joyfulness is so obvious.
My heaviness of heart fast dissipates before You.
Weaknesses may linger, but Your glow endures.
The secret I learned is: to let You be You in me.
Only then can I truly understand the person I am.
It is the same for everyone, so I better not judge.
Is there any impropriety in the Positive State, or
are 'Just' and 'Proper' absolutes; no contrasts?
It's difficult to figure out the ways things visible
or spiritual are constructed and how they're able
to happily cooperate. You say to always keep in
mind that earth shows the one 'living' exception.
All the universes know to always joyfully relate.
It sounds too good to be true that anything there
has the right place in a safe and happy structure.
I am not doubting You, how otherworldly Your
appearance may seem. Your radiance is so real!
With You as model, life is as an ongoing party in
which everyone can express their festive mood.
Proper, Right and of Beauty paint Your totality.
You say, this fullness is good reason for laughter.
We miss it here, where joys partner with tears.
Will I get used to this all-lightness You radiate?
In this eleventh of life's twelve elements, I am reminded of Your structure's all-inclusiveness.
Nothing is not part of the universe's edifice or not part of how all segments jointly perform.
It's our privilege as life-forms relative to You to receive our unique place and awareness, so
we can branch out and engage in shaping a life that in our way mirrors Your all-round beauty.
It's Your dwelling in our systems as the One Who is in all that exists
the source, road and lively center that enables us to feel life's bliss.
We, on earth, are at a loss of how the Positive State looks. Yet now,
seeing You, I can imagine all as distinct with their special features.
Here, being-unlike-others can kill. It cries out for tolerance and real
compassion. You tell me an all-over differentness is very important.
In 'heaven' are clones nor phonies, no goals set up to make one fail,
no expectations, but to be genuine in freely taking part in the whole.
This is Your attitude towards life. Your nature never separates what
You think, show and treasure. We don't bore You as long we are 'us'.
Some people saw scenes in 'heaven'. My only impression was short.
There was a busyness without tension, reflecting multi-coloredness.
Some describe You as sitting on a throne. Indeed, in all, You're life's
central force. The light of Your seven candles has all of Reality shine
with a surprising glow. So all that exists, does relate to Your 'throne'.
Nothing occupies the same spot. This makes everyone an individual.
It is liberating for me to realize my value is in the acceptance of my
particular features, and joy is in that tiny life-form that is my person.
I may dream of a future paradise, everything plenty and in place. Yet
the future becomes past, when I dwell now in Your grand presence.
It could be said that You appear to each of us on our level.
We can't oversee Your total volume, so You adjust to ours.
Our 'not yet' is not true. You're not 'there', or once a while
bridging a gap, bowing down graciously to our lowly state.
Reality is that You are the differentness, also in distances.
In all respects, You are more than the sum of all existence.
We are all manifestations of You and You live through us.
You recognize in us Yourself and see in us Your presence.
Is the word 'splendid' more appropriate than 'beautiful'
to indicate Your shine that covers all the universes in
existence with a glow that does and will not diminish?
What words do angels use or other speaking entities
in the rest of creation? We say, 'They do praise You'.
Can they adequately express how beautiful You look?
I say, 'You are 'beautiful', but I go by earthly standards.
You must far transcend the sum of what we imagine as
Your most glorious all-life-including divine appearance.
It is easier using negative words, and say that You are
not like anything we imagine. Or that Your fullness is
shown as tiny glimpses. When You visit me or I can
'see' You, there is an overwhelming sense of harmony.
It never fails. It's as peaceful as filled by cosmic energy.
There's no fear in me when You are close. In the past I
backed off because I dared not face You too openly.
But that's gone. Any direction in my thinking leads
to being aware of Your features as Love and as Real.
It is all so proper, right and precisely fitting together.
Your sharing Yourself with all that exists, if we let it,
defies the control of negative forces, as You want
to relate to us as to Yourself. Therefore, the variety!
I keep going and wonder with increasing gratitude.
I am grateful You show me Your perfect structure
that's proper, right, of beauty, and tell me that all
are welcome in the one edifice of life, of which You
are spirit, mind and body; allowing us to be mirrors
reflecting Your beauty and love on those three levels.
I guess I'll need the rest of my life to figure out what
all this really means in terms of my so-limited person.
But then, perhaps, You do not at all expect that of me.
You just grant me this intimate contact, the seeing of
Your Being. I can hardly believe that I experience this
closeness to You and can even add it to this writing.
Whether other people do read it, is not my business.
I just wonder if and how this can be shared publicly.
I won't avoid that, but don't feel in charge of it either.
I keep going and wonder: with increasing gratitude.