Report #215 — entities
Everything in the room had a kinda "squared" surface, breathing by its own... As soon as I felt that I had observed this, I started going through a tunnel filled with squares in colors which slowly became more and more colorful... Constantly changing and creating new shapes and colors…
There was this extremely crispy sound that also influenced my body I felt, but soon that body didn't exist anymore… First I had to get myself used to this sensation, and struggled a bit (I think that's quite natural) but when I finally gave in, I "entered" the realm of DMT…
I was greeted by a being in a room where everything was made of full-colored squares... ( They followed me all through the "trip" ) so full of incredible love and it reached out for me and bid me welcome... It had this huge kinda clown-mouth all red, and somehow it communicated to me, that everything was alright, and that there was space for me as well...
Suddenly the word "Nirvana" entered my "consciousness" (or what was left of "myself" floating around somewhere) and kept echoing all around me, and for one blasting moment, enlightenment came to me, why we are here, the purpose of it all, etc…
I had absolutely no track of "time" whatsoever, and basically I didn't care... I just floated around with all this love… Then it changed, and some other kind of beings came to me... first a few... Then more and more (basically they looked a bit like "gremlins", although I wasn't really afraid of them at that time). The clear and beautiful colors changed to some kind of muddy greenish and yellowish ones, and I felt that these creatures wanted to "take me over" in some way... First I just thought they were funny, and had a kind of "dance" with them... I would form clear colors in the center of my mind, then they would heap muddy colors over the colors that I'd just put…
Everytime I thought of the word "love", they would make fun of it and say "noooo" ...
We "danced" like this for a while, and suddenly I became aware of myself somewhere... (which I shouldn't have... I should just have given in) I suddenly got this kinda paranoid idea, that I'd been there for a month or so, and that somebody was trying to wake me up from that state of mind I was in... Kinda like when you see people who've been blasted out in space on a heavy dose of acid, and they don't know how to get back…
I remember wondering if I'd already been sent to a psychiatric hospital *LOL*... and I thought that if that was the case, I better try to get out of it... The next moment I wouldn't care... Simply because this was a blast! Then I'd try again, but mostly because I thought of my family and the people that love me... (I never knew I was that stubborn until then *LOL*.)
Apparently I grabbed my friend in order to have something "real" to hold on to, since I thought (somewhere) that I might be in a mental institution *G*... At the same time, my hair seemed to be something to hold on to, and I have to say, that I'm quite relieved to find, that I didn't pull it all off. It went on like this for what I thought was some time and suddenly my visions changed... I went back into the room with the loving being, floated around there "watching" the colors and tunnels and then it all changed again…
I saw all these clusters of "eyes" looking at me from all around me, leaping out towards me, then withdrawing, coming, going... The most trippy thing I've ever experienced... and probably ever will... even if I've heard that it gets wilder and wilder everytime!
Suddenly I had the sensation of knowing that I was in a room in our 3-dimensional world, and could see a tiny bit of the furniture in the room, it would be there, then disappear... Apparently I'd been quite "wild" while I was out there... I "woke up" on the floor!!! There are absolutely no words that could possibly explain what I saw ... you couldn't possibly "prepare" other people for what they might experience... It just has to be tried... there's no other way!!!