On Arrival Writing Question: EXPRESS FEARExpress a little bit about a feeling of fear you have in any area of your life? Describe the fear as a sensation in your body.
( concern, stress, anxiety, fear)
Express a little bit about a fear you have in any area of your life?
A big fear from me is about income. I haven’t been very effective at making a reasonable income from my empathy work which causes a lot of stress for me and my relationship. I feels like an ongoing anxiety in the background.. I’ve gotten so used to it that it’s difficult to articulate from other anxieties in my awareness. Sometimes I wake up around 4am and start thinking and thinking.. Sort of an ongoing rumination trying to address it.
Seeing so many people have long drawn out deaths.. Face it, by being present.
Fear is my friend. Kayaking.. Have fear A henny penny the sky is falling.. But the fear gets things that I might miss.
A fear of me is not seeing my younger son because of the distance since he moved to Portland. I miss out on his life. Even though we skype, but we really have to make an appointment and it is different than having him close to me. I am afraid that it may even be a couple of years. There are more hurdles why I could not go and see him, or why he and his fiancee may not come here. To start with the last.
They just started their jobs, so they cannot schedule vacation time yet. The finances is for both of us a player. For me plays also a role that I can not leave my husband alone (he is 85 and start forgetting things) and he does not want to go anywhere anymore (traveled a lot in his life) Another element is that I dislike going by airplane. All the hassle of the scanning etc.
Fear of career and settling down professionally . concerned how I will make it.. So may self doubts. Financial incomes.