Мелодии Миры №6: Гречка, Не за что
Мira Wroblewski
Альбом: Не за что
Исполнитель: Гречка
Избранная песня: Это убило меня
Singer Anastasia Ivanova goes by the stage name Grechka, which translates to buckwheat—she states that she simply came up with the pseudonym during a time when she often ate buckwheat with milk and sugar. Her interesting name and music proved to generate a lot of popularity. Grechka released her first album on Russian social networking site VK at the age of 17 and became an instant hit, especially among fellow teenagers. Just months prior, she had moved to St. Petersburg to go to plumbing school. Grechka dreamed of becoming a musician ever since watching the Disney movie Camp Rock in 2012, and her dreams came true with all the magic and quick pacing of the movie. As early as 2018, Afisha Daily called her "the musical discovery of the year" and she appeared on the popular nightly talk show “Evening Urgant.” Although she loves music, Grechka admits she would’ve preferred a gradual increase in popularity, as the ups and downs of such attention took a toll on her mental health. She also firmly asserts that the money and popularity mean nothing to her—the rewarding part of her life is her evolution as an artist and human being, and she would happily go back to playing on the streets for spare change, even saying “musicians have to be hungry, like any creator."
Grechka writes all of her music herself, at first taking inspiration from teenage angst, but gradually moving on to more mature topics as she gets older. In 2021 she released her album Не за что, which is about moving past breakups. This summer she revealed that much of the album was about her recent relationship with a girl, officially coming out as bisexual. As an open member of the LGBTQ community and an artist who sings about some of the darker parts of life, many young people strongly relate to her music and see her as an inspiration. Grechka says she hopes her music helps people handle some of life’s difficulties and teaches them to be open, honest, and decent people. She is also open about seeing a therapist and encourages others to seek help if they need it.
I’ve selected some lyrics from the song Это убило меня off of Гречка’s album Не за что.
Избранный текст песни Это убило меня:
Я до сих пор вспоминаю
А если сильно — ты снишься
Но я давно так не знаю
Тебя и ты меня слишком
Лишь вспоминая, мы дышим
Улыбаемся чаще
Но в этом городе принцип
Разрушать всё на части
Сначала не отвечаешь
Потом становишься скрытнее
От меня убегаешь
Ищешь причины забыть меня
Ну, давай, только быстро
Я привыкну и к этому
Не скрывай безразличие
Оно видится первое
Когда-то это убило меня, всё было так трудно
Вставать по утрам не могла, призраком будто
Меня не искали нигде, не вешали постер
О том, что пропала и нет нигде больше
Я так не могу
Я проживаю в тайне
Никто не знает о тебе
Как о воспоминании
Никто не знает о том
Что было между нами
Да и ты не помнишь то
Как мы с тобой летали
Или не летали?
Может быть мне всё приснилось?
И твоё было желание
Время тупо с кем-то выбросить
И тут стояла я
Похожая на мусорку
Выкидывай в меня
Я замолчу и скушаю
Всё переживём и дальше будем жить
Я в борьбе с огнём, борюсь только за свою жизнь
И обещаю впредь не верить в чудеса
Односторонних отношений и любви лишь от меня
I still remember
And if strongly – I’ll dream of you
But I haven’t known you for so long
And you’re too much
Just remembering, we breathe
We smile more often
But in this city it’s the principle
To break everything into pieces
At first you don’t answer
Then you become more secretive
You run away from me
Looking for reasons to forget me
Well, let’s do this, just be quick
I’ll get used to this too
Don’t hide indifference
It is seen first
Once it killed me, everything was so hard
I couldn’t get up in the morning, as if like a ghost
No one looked for me anywhere, they didn’t hang a poster
About what went missing and is no longer anywhere
I can’t do this
I am living in secret
No one knows about you
Like a memory
No one knows about
what was between us
And you don’t remember
how you and I flew
Or didn’t fly?
Maybe everything was a dream?
And your desire was to stupidly throw away time with someone
And here I stood
Like a trash can
Throw it out at me
I’ll shut up and eat it
We’ll live through everything and continue to live
I’m in a fight against fire, I fight only for my life
And I promise not to believe in the miracles of one-sided relationships and love only from me
Цитаты:
Кафискина, Динара. “‘Голодала и Писала Песни’: Певица Гречка Об Отношении к Деньгам и Недавнем Расставании.” Вечерняя Москва, Mar. 2021, https://vm.ru/entertainment/870666-golodala-i-pisala-pesni-pevica-grechka-ob-otnoshenii-k-dengam-i-nedavnem-rasstavanii.
Шульгин, Евгений. “Певица Гречка Совершила Каминг-Аут.” Lenta.ru, 7 June 2021, https://lenta.ru/news/2021/06/07/grechka/.
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