Nest in a Tree
late afternoon torrential heat.
late afternoon torrential heat.
furnace car engine combusting.
furnace car engine combusting.
deciphering some meaning from this
deciphering some meaning from this
is like hoping for a bolder to move by itself.
is like hoping for a bolder to move by itself.
200 road miles later
200 road miles later
pausing inside a wooded park
pausing inside a wooded park
to consider, piece together homeward mixtures
to consider, piece together homeward mixtures
only to find angry birds screeching down at me.
only to find angry birds screeching down at me.
strangely, earth's vast openness does not excite,
strangely, earth's vast openness does not excite,
this constant movement derives no meaning,
this constant movement derives no meaning,
instead, fake trivial distractions exhaust the time.
instead, fake trivial distractions exhaust the time.
yet stubbornness pushes the footpetal ahead
yet stubbornness pushes the footpetal ahead
sheparding a heart brokebrick and desireless,
sheparding a heart brokebrick and desireless,
a soul void of excitement for this journey,
a soul void of excitement for this journey,
void of that familiar inner sweat
void of that familiar inner sweat
the prankster road often has conjured.
the prankster road often has conjured.
today these bones are saturated
today these bones are saturated
heart discharging misery,
heart discharging misery,
I see a weary face in a mirror
I see a weary face in a mirror
a comatose stranger stares back at me,
a comatose stranger stares back at me,
some clueless passenger hitchhiking just another empty ramble .
some clueless passenger hitchhiking just another empty ramble .
once spirit was nothing more than
once spirit was nothing more than
effortless automatic breaths,
effortless automatic breaths,
now punch-drunk,
now punch-drunk,
blinded by endless possibilities
blinded by endless possibilities
fostering dreams without recognition,
fostering dreams without recognition,
an unglued life story
an unglued life story
where paths of diversion appeal
where paths of diversion appeal
backpedaling away from those lustrated rains,
backpedaling away from those lustrated rains,
pretending excuses to reelectrify my existence
pretending excuses to reelectrify my existence
when lost somewhere inside I know
when lost somewhere inside I know
life connections already hum with sparks and open doors,
life connections already hum with sparks and open doors,
that same life I question today,
that same life I question today,
that I would gladly take back
that I would gladly take back
after these changes finally solidify and vanish.
after these changes finally solidify and vanish.
good to remember
good to remember
this play is a game of chance,
this play is a game of chance,
where players compete against the dealer,
where players compete against the dealer,
and the dealer happens to be me.
and the dealer happens to be me.
1975
1975
Safford, AZ
Safford, AZ