Vanilla?

Barriers to a relationship

Poverty

Check

Anger management

Check

Wounded nay shattered sense of masculinity

Check

Disrupted family circumstances

Check

Shame

Check

Unclean

Check

Desire to be free at all times

Check

Claustrophobia

Check

Ptsd

Check

Avoidance (symptom)

checkcheckcheckplease

Paranoia

Are you checking up on me?

Profound and not groundless fears

About ability or desire to raise children

Poor house keeping

Serious doubts about my capacity for

Emotional monogamy

Passionate attachment

To my craft

Deep seated desire to prove

My fathers axioms about

Life love sex power and money

Utterly false

While trying at the same time

To stay true to brothers

And sisters in arms

The desire to take women in my arms

But not into my confidence

Or descision making process

My inability to work

But my terror of not having

Financial independance

My castration fantasies

And the rest of the weird toot

In my amygdilan sexuality

Forged in pain and humiliation

Vanilla?

Im more sort of marmite

Either love me or hate me

Take me or leave me

But most of all you must understand me

It may take a decade to aquire my taste

Lets not marry in haste

Lets marry for the pension

It will save a lot of tension

Lower your expectation

And maybe we can take the odd vacation

Some like it hot

But id rather not

Povey 2013