Vanilla?
Barriers to a relationship
Poverty
Check
Anger management
Check
Wounded nay shattered sense of masculinity
Check
Disrupted family circumstances
Check
Shame
Check
Unclean
Check
Desire to be free at all times
Check
Claustrophobia
Check
Ptsd
Check
Avoidance (symptom)
checkcheckcheckplease
Paranoia
Are you checking up on me?
Profound and not groundless fears
About ability or desire to raise children
Poor house keeping
Serious doubts about my capacity for
Emotional monogamy
Passionate attachment
To my craft
Deep seated desire to prove
My fathers axioms about
Life love sex power and money
Utterly false
While trying at the same time
To stay true to brothers
And sisters in arms
The desire to take women in my arms
But not into my confidence
Or descision making process
My inability to work
But my terror of not having
Financial independance
My castration fantasies
And the rest of the weird toot
In my amygdilan sexuality
Forged in pain and humiliation
Vanilla?
Im more sort of marmite
Either love me or hate me
Take me or leave me
But most of all you must understand me
It may take a decade to aquire my taste
Lets not marry in haste
Lets marry for the pension
It will save a lot of tension
Lower your expectation
And maybe we can take the odd vacation
Some like it hot
But id rather not
Povey 2013