Muttered Excuses
To all the women
In my life
From whom I walked away
Who did not become my wife
In my muttered excuses
And evasions
This is what I was trying to say
I want you and love you
So much that it hurts
But I desperately
Don't want to hurt you
And I will
I will take the best years
Of your life
Then cast you aside
Either that or I will leave you
Through an act of suicide
I am unable to give you children
Least not ones I can raise
Neither can I show you a time
In nightclubs full of gays
I cant take you travelling
Cos my life is unravelling
I don't want your help
I must save myself
He must do that
Which he must do
He that be a man
And neither marriage
Nor callous fornication
Is part of the plan
In short
I am desperate that you find
Happiness
To do that you must leave me
Behind
And let me answer the struggles
In my mind
My life will not lack love
For even a moment
With just you
Is like an eternity
Of sweet dew
But the responsibility
To solve my shit
Lies with me
Not with you
I will always love you
If only you knew
Povey 2014