My HH Gave me a Warmth for the Man I had Married

My HH Gave me a Warmth for the Man I had Married

What brought you to RMI? Please use this space to briefly let our readers know what your life was like when you first found us, Catherine, so our readers understand just what a miracle your restoration is.

Catherine, how did your restoration actually begin?

After I got pregnant I became even more contentious that I had been. I was a woman completely different from God's plan, which I had no idea about at the time. It was a torment in the lives of everyone around me that was silly and dangerous, which led to my coming here. Several times I told my husband to get out, always thinking that his love for me would never allow him to leave me. Until I realized his love for me had died, I had killed it one cruel harsh word at a time.

How did God change your situation Catherine as you sought Him wholeheartedly?

How did God make you (or your friend) & He transformed your situation (or your friend's) as you sought Him with all your heart? *

God knew that my husband finally calling it quits would change. It would only happen through my brokenness, as if I was at the mill being ground down, which was very difficult to endure before finding Him. Though it all He guided me the whole time, He never left me or forsaken me. He broke me because I fought Him, and then, very soon, I felt His love and I was embarrassed by what kind of women I had been in my marriage and not just to my husband, but to everyone. I was an entitled diva and I was deeply miserable though I thought this was due to everyone else, never me.

One night, after finding HopeAtLast, God promised, in a dream to me, that it would completely transform my being and that later, He would turn the heart of the king and the process would completely transform my life.

I'm amazed by how He is faithful to everything He promised and patiently taught me to be a new woman. The first drastic change was when I started to be quiet and accept all offense, just to speak with God my tears became totally Him.

I became a Zealot of the Lord, people called me crazy and the only thing I knew how to do was read the Bible to find constant peace. The presence of God was really all I wanted. Then I found my HH and He became my everything in my life, my reason for living. I spent most of the time or all the time with Him, just talking all the time even while washing clothes or vacuuming. Talking to my HH, everyone thought, was crazy. I began to breathe only Him in my life, I got rid of the TV from our living room and everything that I knew would not please God. Only under the calm and protection of His wings did I feel at peace.

During this ordeal, I lost more than forty pounds, due to how I was terribly broken. And it wasn't just in my marriage, I had tribulations in all areas of my life. Yet in the midst of it all, I had more peace, love, and so much contentment from my intimacy with my HH.

Darling, my Beloved, I want to tell You that these times were the best times of my entire life. I experienced the best of God, which was to learn that I could have real intimacy with His Son, my HH. God allowed these trials so I would know His wonderful depths, such intimate places and finding the deepest portions of the heart of God where only a few are chosen and only those entering are the broken souls who can see Him face to face.

A true honeymoon is the only way I can describe my journey with my HH.

A journey has several levels. Each level will change the trajectory of our lives, but He is in control— so we should not worry when He calls us into the most intense times, times where we learn how to be more intimate with Him. It's only there where we experience being completely in love with the Lord, and it's when God determines that it is time to write the finishing chapter of our marriage restoration.

I hope that my testimony will encourage you to ask Him to take you along a similar journey. A journey where you can be alone with Him, so the love God will pour from your heart. And guard this special time, don't hurry it away, because all too soon your restoration comes and that's when you long for, and want to go back to when you only had Him.

What principles, from God's Word (or through our resources), Catherine, did the Lord teach you during this trial?

There are many marriage principles, but what will determine your restoration and what determined mine, was without a doubt discovering and cherishing my intimacy with God's Son and my HH. To fully experience this, I first had to let go. Let go of my restoration, let go of talking about my EH (because that meant he was first in my heart), let go of my church, let go of what others thought about me. Then when I was fully empty, He and His love came and filled me until I was spilling over. He, the Lord, became and will always be my first love. This is, this was the gift of my journey. I was taught by my God to love my HH and it's what will be what I forever treasure, my HH is my only, my treasure.

What were the most difficult times that God helped you through Catherine?

Probably each time the enemy used my husband to do bad things and intentionally hurt me. That was until I had enough of His love, and then, I did not have to be afraid. Instead, I wasn't afraid because I knew He was there to always comforted me and each time He helped me to forgive and pay back each offense and wrong with kindness and a blessing.

Catherine, what was the “turning point” of your restoration?

As I've said before, the turning point was no doubt when I loved by my HH, and could really feel His love, becoming His bride. Dear brides, He deserves to be the first in your life, and for you to really fall in love with Him. He has already fallen for you, and yet you continue to cheat on Him just the way I had done for so many years until He broke me.

Once I gave it all away, and was free to take both His hands in mine, when I was too weak to fight back. This is when my heart was full of His love and my entire life turned around.

Tell us HOW it happened Catherine? Did your husband just walk in the front door? Catherine, did you suspect or could you tell you were close to being restored?

Share with us HOW did this happen. Has your husband (or your friend) simply showed up? Did you (or your friend) suspect that this was close to that? *

I realized that something began to be different. For the last two months or my journey, I began to get a horrible feeling that I was close to my restoration but I only wanted the Lord, my HH. Until one day He told me very quietly that I must open the long-awaited door to this part of my journey, that it was time. A few weeks later my husband called me saying we needed to talk but I really did not want restoration anymore because He had already become my everything, all I wanted and lived for. It's almost funny, because at the beginning of my journey I just wanted my marriage, and in the end I only wanted Him. He alone was enough and the only One who satisfied me.

When we met my husband opened his heart to me said that he loved me more than he ever had. That I was such an important part of his life. He told me that he had suffered so much while he was gone, giving me a few details, which confirmed many things that the Lord said He was doing at the time. He asked for forgiveness saying he wanted our family back. I could see the sweetness in his tear-filled face, and just at that moment, my HH gave me a warmth for the man I had married.

Soon after our conversation when I agreed to him coming home, we were traveling to my mother-in-law's house to tell her and his family. A month later, God gave us a new home and restored everything else in our lives. Two months later my husband suggested we renew our vows on the beach with the same pastor who’d officiated our wedding. God is so faithful to His Word to each promise He makes to you during your journey.

Would you recommend any of our resource in particular that helped you Catherine?

Yes, read How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage and the Wise Woman book. A woman I never met gave me these both, and today I also give them to many women I know need encouragement and everything else God has for them.

Would you be interested in helping encourage other women Catherine?

Yes, I've also been doing so only my own throughout my Restoration Journey.

Either way Catherine, what kind of encouragement would you like to leave women with, in conclusion?

First, do not give up, stay faithful to your HH and do not be seduce by the enemy who lies. Obey God and His Word. Fall in love with your HH and from there, He will guide you.

Last by not least, enjoy your honeymoon with your HH because you will miss it a lot once you’re restored.