If you asked me when did this all start I wouldn’t have an answer for you.
The last time I remember feeling good feels like it almost never happened.
Never thought there’d be a time where I live in constant never ending days of pain
It seems to never end, but here I am, now it’s all I can feel sometimes.
Not knowing when this will end doesn’t bring me any peace, not knowing when it will end doesn’t bring me the courage to get through the days.
Time goes by and it feels like the same nightmare repeats every day.
I’m losing patience, I’m losing myself, I’m afraid.
When a certain emotion is all you feel and think about constantly, it becomes hard to ignore as part of your life. Remembering about specific life events and not being able to completely heal has inspired me to write about this.
I didn’t really have a writing process, I just started with the first sentence and let myself go however it went as my heart desired.
I really like the main topic of this poem, falling into a loop of feeling an emotion that maybe isn't so positive. The words describe my imagination with how a depression works, not being able to remember the last time you felt happy and starting to fall in a cycle of sadness. I feel as if everyone going through a hard time in life could somehow relate to this poem and the never ending emotion.
--Jesse Sandoval