Music #9

The idea behind this work was essentially the same as the idea behind SI #8. It was focused on the feeling that I get when I listen to music, especially certain songs. I know people have pump-up songs and songs to cry to, so obviously, music makes many feel a certain way. Some songs in particular allow me to tune out the world and make me feel like the main character. In my previous work, I drew what the main character's feelings would look like. In this photograph, I tried to be as similar to her as possible, showing the more realistic side of things versus how I feel when I'm listening to music.

I wanted to experiment with materials a little bit with this project and I have been thinking about photography for a long time now. I think that often photography, especially mixed with more mixed media, is really powerful and cool to look at. I also think that although other materials can show this for sure, photography can be really strange sometimes, whether posed or not. I wanted to embrace that strangeness and blend it in with that theme of strangeness I was going for from my previous project. It also felt like the most realistic and "raw" representation of myself I could get that would highly contrast the drawing that I made.

When I first had the idea, I realized that I had a lot of clothes that were similar to the drawing that I made. This makes me wonder if, although the first drawing was not meant to necessarily be a drawing of myself, subconsciously, it kind of was. When I put on all the clothes, it was definitely a little bit different from what I thought, because I had spent so much time thinking about how the clothes would hang on the body of the drawing, and in real life, my body shape was diffirent so that was interesting. The photo-taking process was fun, and I love how random and weird I looked. I used my own cat as a subject in my photo, and he was a major factor in how many photos I had to take, since he had a hard time staying still in a pose. I also experimented with several backgrounds, the wall and the bookcase, and later decided that I liked the wall because I could remove the background and make it exactly like the drawing. I think in the future, I may revise both this photo and the SI #8 drawing to have the same background.