Fred & Lucille are spent.
Have they denied the faith and become like unbelievers, or are they like little children hoping for mercy after having really screwed things up?
They are a generation that grew up with very little knowledge of God and the church and they worked hard. Despising and denying them is probably not right, but not dealing with the tremendous failure is also no solution. They had their praises sung on the stage and pulpit and enforced submission, but now they want everybody to forget and have pity and no judgement.
Like the first stage of a Saturn rocket, they burned with passion and glory, lifting us to higher heights form where we can initiate our burn. At the same time, they are divorced in the most basic of failures, having never really loved one another. Always fighting heaving biting and then demanding mindless submission. As if our suppression will prevent infection.
They are form a fatherless generation that believed children must submit and obey the parent indefinitely. Their heart was never to promote and release us, but to build a house for themselves and using us as pawn in their own grand scheme. I never got the feeling they were operating in my interest. The Kingdom, The Kingdom was the mantra that justified suppression, robbery, lies and murder. And self was ever on the stage.
We were manipulated into loving them, and praising them and holding them as demi-Gods, and yet now here they are falling to the earth like burned out stages of a rocket. Rejected and confused an isolated like an old prostitute.
And yet they will claim "mercy" as some fundamental doctrine having never understood the cross, the death we have in Him and the life that cannot be Adamic in any way. They are not repenting. Their shame and failure is now taken as the new norm and shown to the whole world as if it were inevitable, as if it were a good thing. God is love you see! God is love!
Judge not judge not is their mantra and the little ones cower. Everybody knows it wrong and terrible failure but everyone is silent, confused.
The scripture tells us to
9. Do not be carried about with various and strange doctrines. For it is good that the heart be established by grace, not with foods which have not profited those who have been occupied with them.
Hebrews 13:9
14. For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace.
15. What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!16. Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death, or of obedience leading to righteousness?17. But God be thanked that though you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered.18. And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.
Romans 6:14-18
If their hearts were for God and for the Kingdom they would go around repenting their failure and their falseness and their shame brought to Christ name. Not reboot new ministries and cursing and blaming each other.
I am very angry, I really am.
They cursed us, crushed us, suppressed raped and castrated us, all in the name of under cover, and now not a word of repentance. Only self-pity and self-righteousness, and more ongoing “ministry”.
Maybe Lord I must see that they tired, and like all victims are not responsible for their sin, for the perversion committed in the house of God, in the name of God. Maybe I must believed that they took a bullet for us, preached a carnal half gospel, psychological Christianity with no Cross and no Spirit, but laid foundation for us.
Help me Lord to see them as You see them and to avoid getting myself judged.