I gave my heart to Jesus when I was five just like my mother suggested.It worked!
All my school days I knew there was a God in heaven and in fact I knew he was the Father of the Lord Jesus Christ, BUT I did not know Him, not personally.
Since I got a brain, which I think was round about 14 yrs old, I started visiting and questioning the Dominees. Who, what and where was God? The first question I remember asking was about the election.
The Dominee explained how it worked and I went home, as I have often done after talking to the man of God, realising that he also did not know the truth. Those were the days of Christian Nationalism. Knowing nothing else I wanted to study for Dominee. My mother prayed and I questioned and wondered. Where is the God who made the heavens and the earth? Surely this is not all He could come up with??
I enrolled for engineering at RAU but my heart was set on Theology. My agnostic father (a very good man, husband and father) could see my heart was not on engineering and so I went to the army.
The good old South African Defence Force. The army is 50% prison and 50% adventure camp, but the toys are amazing. No matter how much money you make you will never again drive a 60 ton vehicle that has a 105 mm gun. After 2 years I went to the University of Stellenbosch to study engineering. At University I met some Christians and they introduced me to Jesus (again I suppose).
It was like a lightning a strike!
For the first time in my life I understood the Bible! I didn't want to go to sleep in the evening because I was afraid the feeling would go away.
It didn't!
After 8 months of Bible reading I met a most amazing man of God. It was amazing, he knew God and could explain it all! After six years I became the first young pastor who had risen from the ranks, in this vibrant exploding church. For two years I was in paradise. I believed everything and did everything, until I slowly realized that all did not work as advertised.
The Charismatic Church was was not as perfect as I had hoped. It was still run by humans and as I grew older and had kids and experienced more of life, many of the doctrines and theories and liturgies bombed out.
Jesus said that new wine requires a new wine skin and we simply had to remain flexible and open to how God was continuing in revealing His plans and His ways to us.
I resigned from the charismatic church I was part of for 20 years, with much pain, sacrifice and misunderstanding. The search and refining of our understanding of God continues. I do not doubt we should keep growing and being refined until Jesus returns in our understanding, our words and our actions.
Einstein said "Genius is the ability to make a complex problem simple" and I really thank God for showing me a few critical points that I believe require attention and can indeed be improved. I will endeavor to set them simply and clearly here.
The Lord said to me:
2 Then the Lord answered me and said: “Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he can read it even while he is running (away) .
Habakkuk 2:2
I asked Jochanan what he thinks a tablet is, and he just smiled, and so I reckon it means it must be electronic.
God has set before each one of us “Good Works that He prepared beforehand for us that we should walk in them” and this blog is mine, for now…
I met the most amazing woman at Rhema Bible School in 1993 and married her summarily. Those of you who know Sonja, know that I do not deserve her for one moment. We have four children (two have already departed to be with the Lord).
We both work full-time to earn a living, while raising our kids and endeavoring to assist preparing the saints for Jesus return.
Maranatha! Even so come Lord Jesus…