selfdoubt

27 may 2015 10:17am

my life has had its share of self doubt

not the typical self doubt however

mine comes from my communication skills

and from me questioning my sanity

i have done a lot with my life

fairly successful with most projects i set out to do

i've created & built many different things

some useful & some not so useful or helpful re the greater good of our planet

the one constant with it all is the fact that

most people have a lot of trouble relating to or understanding what i imagine & create

mostly i believe because the stuff i create comes from a very different perceived world

you see i believe the world is very different than how most believe it is

i easily see new possibilities

i easily see better solutions

or at least what i believe to be better solutions

i'm generally an optimistic thinker & believer

even in the midst of all the bs of today's world

i guess i tend to communicate from this place

and most everyone else sees this a being a bit crazy or touched

plus i don't agree with much of how the world is being run & operated today

and this alienates me even more from everyone else

i hate today's world

and love my possible imaginary world

needless to say

this has hampered my efforts to help try to execute on my ideas

at this point in my life i have few associates who stand with me

and i have my doubts that i will ever attain a critical mass of supporters

i probably will die a miserable man

because i failed to help as i believe my potential to be