2019.12.28

December 28, 2019

Let The Girl Win?

Huh? First off, it is my personal experience that women tend to hate that treatment. Second of all, if that were applicable it is clearly not applicable to a demon who in a straight up fight could kick my ass nine ways to Sunday. Why not 'let the Changeling win'? The dart player who clearly has half the ability and is barely making it a game for her. So no, there is no let the girl win applicable to Malcanthet. There is no reason to insult her like that. Sheesh! That was a fun dart game though. Although the dart game did teach me one thing and that is I need to increase my mastery in the Contract of Hearth. Having some exceptional event sitting in my back pocket is better than actually having to do it based on skill. (Though I did split her dart. Yes!)

I was very pleased with the result of our excursion down in Mexico. We achieved our goals non-violently. [Where's the fun in that? I knew she's say that.] Those rat creatures are dying and we have the low down on Hakuma Mutata. Although, I do admit that I was a bit nervous facing down two men with machine guns and a club wielding mage with a bad attitude. Next time I need to be on the negotiating team and not on the battlefield. Oh sure, I may have gotten the jump on them and perhaps Danno's ghoul may have sniped one, but the result of that battle is more than likely me being dead. I don't like being dead. I'm the one with the silver tongue and the political expertise. I'll have to bring this up at the next meeting. I'll have to thank my Guardian Angel for getting me out that one alive. Hey! Maybe The Lady Abigail (PBUHN) actually knows him! You really don't think of these things unless you personally know an Angel.

Our talk with Teoyaomicqui was very informative. He really is quite reasonable to deal with. Far better than Dante. Although I have this nightmare of Dante standing behind the curtain and Teoyaomicqui yelling ignore that man behind the curtain. Bad Padre... don't think such thoughts. But yeah, he told us about Enzuka whoever. He knew about the motes! He did confirm that other sleeping entities, spirits, creatures thought to be myth have re-awakened. He told us that Samael / Janus [Samus? Hah!] is seeking some object of myth which Que was barred from talking about. He was very surprised about the death of My Lady and actually mentioned Lord Oberon as personally being interested in this. That does lend credence to one of my theories. This frightens me a bit though. If Oberon were to find me at fault somehow in her demise he may send after me personally. If my presence were demanded back in Arcadia the Hunt may be sent after me again. I'm not too crazy about that.

On a more somber note, I did send the message to The Lady Abigail (PBUHN) requesting that she take control of My Lady's corpse. I was troubled that she wasn't there personally to talk to. I would have preferred to speak with her personally on this issue rather than essentially sending her an inter-office memo. It just seems too impersonal to write a message with such a request, but time was of the essence. I don't trust the security or sanctity of her body. I'll have to follow up on this tomorrow.

I did have a nice talk with Cygin concerning past issues. He accepted my peace terms and I am happy about that. I want a cohesive party. Harmony is impossible in its truest sense. We are going to need to fight and negotiate and make deals. We all have different perspectives and desires. We all share the same goal, but we are not all agreed on the best course of action. We all have our opinions. This is a good thing! All options and ideas must be battled out, tried and tested. I may present an idea that I may think is great, but I don't want it to be agreed upon unless it is a good idea.

Concerning the Briarwolf and my little flare up with Cygin. My initial thought was 'Damn it! He isn't going to run my whole life.'. So we had it out. I did relent though because essentially he was correct. I do care about Connell and I probably would have gone after him. I am compassionate. Although Cygin was incorrect concerning the fighting ability and demeanor of Connell. Connell is not a coward. He has strong animal tendencies, but he is intelligent. Quite naturally he is uncertain in human society. He was a pack-mentality creature in Arcadia. Now he is a solitary, unique creature in the Human world. There is a learning curve and Connell is learning it.

However, getting back to the argument. This was good. This was not dissension in the ranks. This was caring enough about the mission to vocalize strongly to what you perceive to be a bad idea. This is good for our group. We can't be afraid to voice our opinions. We are not always going to agree. I feel that he and I understand our positions.

Connell will have his place and job. He is a resource and I will use him.

I went to the party and offered them pacts. Only got two maybes. I am a little sad at this result. I can offer them a boost while not asking a whole lot in return. Although, I think I can deal with Red the easiest here. I like his spirit ability and knowledge. Perhaps if he can get me a fetish then we can talk. There are mortals or even other super-naturals who would pay a handsome price for what I have to offer. I do have some ideas on where I can peddle my wares so to speak. Perhaps in this bit of downtime I shall start looking around. Cygin thinks he has a monopoly on long distance travel. Perhaps not if I were to find my own pilot. I'm sure there is some trustworthy person out there who would love to have the piloting ability of the Baron Von Richthofen for the price of being available when I call. Hmm.... Lord forgive my pride, but I just love being a Changeling! [Willpower point back.]

I've been thinking about my powers. I am not using them to their maximum potential. There is a lot more that I have to offer... more that the Autumn Court has to offer. I think that I really need to focus on being a Changeling. There is so much more to it all. I don't really think of it too often, but I am a Fairest. I really need to think of myself in that respect. Mirror, Mirror on the wall and all that. I think that was what drove me to improve my appearance. That and my previous bout of insanity. However though, if I can bat my eyes to distract someone of the fairer sex it could throw them off guard. Hell, women have been doing it to us, for ages. Turn about is fair play there.

New Year's Eve is coming up. Perhaps I think I am going to enjoy a night out on the town. As far as I know Lylith hasn't commandeered the Palace again. My emotions have been so penned up by My Lady and the whole controversy surrounding her. Perhaps I can just go out and unwind... really unwind. I feel that the anger which I have inside me is threatening to congeal into something bad. Mal's advice on using the anger inside is useful. I shall do that. The fact that My Lady was stolen from me before I had a chance to convert her and allow her to see the light of goodness (as much as a True Fay can) is always going to be a part of me. When I wield my Maul in combat those who oppose me shall feel those blows and will feel that anger. In total though, my argument with Cygin concerning Connell was fueled by that anger. I can't be unleashing that anger on the party. Its not their fault.

I really need to find that damn servo! Tomorrow that shall be on the agenda as well. Again, time to be a Changeling. Nothing is beyond my grasp.

Can I get more use out of My Maul?... STILL NEED A DAMN NAME!! Hmmm... On second thought, I think I am using it to its full potential. Just making sure there, I'd hate to waste a gift from Jericho by not fully understanding and wielding what he wraught.

Time for fun with some rose petals, I think.

Antarctica is the best place.

What is she up to? I wonder.