We All Do
We All Do
By Juan Terrazas
I’ve been there. I understand where you’ve been and where you currently are. You feel lost. You feel depressed. You feel lonely. You think that everyone in the world is ignoring you. You think that nobody likes you. You believe your existence is a stain on our planet. You ask yourself, why am I here? Why am I like this? What is wrong with me? What can I do to change? Who cares about me? What will I become if I don’t change?
You are not alone…
I felt that way everyday for the majority of my teenage years. I barely had and still have any friends. I think I might slip up and make them upset. That’s why I keep my distance from people and from forming relationships. Truth is, I’m not wrong with the way I think. It’s just not healthy for the mind, heart, and soul. My brain is cloudy. My mind is bouncing all over the place, exactly like the piece you are currently reading or listening to. It’s just the ADHD I guess, or is it? Nevermind that, back to what I was saying.
You are not alone…
You may be wondering, why do you think these things about yourself? The truth is, it's your demons. They thrive on making you depressed and angry. I fought with my demons extremely hard in my sophomore year. I don’t talk about it much, I mean, I don’t look like the type of guy to have demons. The dark truth is, I’m still dealing with my demons. They never go away, they plant themselves in your head and aren’t there for vacation. They eat at your very soul. They question everything about you. Why do you look like that? What were you thinking that one time? Why are you like this? Imagine life if you weren’t here? Trust me, I can go on and on but I’ll save you the time. Back to the point.
You are not alone…
You have an entire militia behind you that adores you. You may not believe it, but you aren’t alone. It’s hard to understand it, trust me, I know. I thought my parents hated me, I thought I upset my friends when I said I couldn’t hang out because I’m an introvert. Ugh, I’m sorry. My mind keeps wandering off into the dark. I’m probably just annoying you, I’m sorry. I’ll just leave. But remember, you are not alone. I’m here for you, even if I can’t help myself. You are more important. I love you. We all do.