WHO IS IN THE DRIVERS SEAT?
WHO IS IN THE DRIVERS SEAT?
Not understanding what had just happen, I was shocked as to the outcome, I thought I was helping, I thought I was doing what I thought was best for the situation I was thrown into!
I thought I did what was right under the stars and the moon and God in Heaven. But all I got was a slapped in the face, the tears can not stopped they are stinging and my eyes are swollen. I just do not understand all this heartache.
They will not come to me and talked to me. I am stunned at this mess I just made of my life. I cried out to my Lord and Savior! Why did they do this to me? I do not understand? Will they forgiven me? I need to hear them say that they have. I don’t understand why they won‘t talk to me? I have forgive them for what they did to me!
That is the problem my child You thought! You was living in the flesh! They wanted to hear from you in the spirit of my kingdom! They want Love to endure not the anger you had when telling them the truth! For they don’t need to hear what the truth is when it is not in LOVE!
I am bringing you into another level and you must learn not to bring strife in where ever you go. By doing that you must give up self and live in the spirit I have given you. There are some thing’s that don’t need fixing for my hand is all ready doing the mending but self gets in the way and makes more of mess for me to mend. Did you take the time to come to me first and ask me if you can fix it?
How long in prayer did you spend with me? I minute or one day? Just because your heart is full of compassion and you think its right does not mean it is from me? Come to me, spend time with me I will give you the bread of life the truth that heals all wounds!
Luke 9: 23:27 (The Message Bible)
23-27 "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."
That is all I ask of my followers is let me led and you follow.
Understand my truths are words that bring in the harvest!
WHO IS IN YOUR DRIVERS SEAT?
SELF OR JESUS CHRIST?
Luke 9:23-27 (New King James Version)
New King James Version (NKJV)
Take Up the Cross and Follow Him
23 Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. 24 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. 25 For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost? 26 For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words, of him the Son of Man will be ashamed when He comes in His own glory, and in His Father’s, and of the holy angels.
Jesus Transfigured on the Mount
27 But I tell you truly, there are some standing here who shall not taste death till they see the kingdom of God.”
“Copyright 2008”
Jacqueline L. Geek
God had given this poem to me in Sept., 14 2008
Over the last few weeks God has been dealing with me being in the flesh and trying to fix things that only he can mend.
If you had read Detours and what happen with my brothers, this what God had not only been dealing with me on my brothers but with others as well.
God is God and he is not a God that will be mocked! When we give things to God then we take it back and do what we want to do then blame it on God we are hurting the kingdom of GOD!
Galatians 6:7
7 Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
We can not mock God, but we can mock others - Mock to ridicule. 2. to mimic, as in fun or derision. 3. to define and make futile - Vi. to express scorn, ridicule, etc. -adv. sham; imitiation; pretended -adv. falsely or insincerely /mock, sympathetic words/
Sometimes we do that when we put on a mask to cover up who we really are, we imitiate someone we are not, we put on a false face so we insincerely lie to ourselves and to others not allowing our real self's to be known. We ridicule others so we can have our fun. Or we say something that we do not mean (Falsely) just so someone else can feel better or worst.
When we say we are follower of Jesus then we tend to run ahead and not wait for the word to come forth from Jesus, Though our hearts are filled with compassion for this one person, we tried to helped them giving them what we thing is best, we only make a mess out of everything!
Some things are best left alone an undone as well as unsaid. For God is in the mist doing the mending. And had it been taken to prayer with God he would have told you to leave it alone. This is what happen with me brothers, I did not leave it alone, I had to get in the way of what God was doing and wanting the truth to come out no matter who got hurt!
Not only am I hurt by all this but my brothers as well, they did not need me telling them the truth. I could not leave it alone. I had forgiven their mother years ago when God was working this all out with her and letting me see my brothers, It was all done with God and in the spirit. God allowed good to come from that.
Then out of anger out of spite, I was in the flesh and lashed out at her. Threw it in her face what I had forgiven her so long ago! What was not to be ever spoken again, it was done it was forgotten! I blew it all out in the open what God had mended
Now she refused to talk to me, her sons have decided that I was no longer part of their family any longer. They have moved far from me, refused to talk to me.
I had made a mess out of what God had mended! Now I have to live with the consequents of my actions! For only I am to blame not Bonnie not Brothers, I still do not know to this day why she hung up on me that day. I should have called her back and asked her what I did or said to upset her. Then to hear my brother who I was so closed to... did not what me to write to him, she called my sister to tell her not me. So out of the flesh out came the anger I threated to tell the boys the truth on the divorced with my dad.. She was seeing men at the house. Ben had to be the one that told my dad, look out the window daddy, see that man by the mailbox, that is mommy's boyfriend.
I was more in shock to hear my brother did not want to see me, I did nothing to him. So out of anger I lashed out at her, neither one of us handle this well. When I have tried to talk to her she called me a lier and that was that. I was not lying to her, I told her what my dad had told me. He also told my other sisters as well and my brother confirm the men coming to the house after my dad left for work.
I know this had to do with the phone call when she called me, I was in pain and she got upset and hung up on me. Then my brother did not want to see me. What was I to think, she had said something to Ben so Ben would not have anything to do with me.
I dealt with her in anger not in Love and now I have lost my brothers who I love very much and missed them so much! So telling them the truth cost me my brothers.
God has forgiven me but they have not!
November 12, 2009
Update, Bonnie did forgive me! The night before I seen her on face book and I requsited to be added on as her friend. I left a message for her that I wanted to put the past in the past, She emailed back, not sure why she should be my friend now. I emailed her and told her I was wrong on what I did and said. Explained everything to her. I left my phone number with her. Later that day she called me. She does not want to be friends with me since she can not trust me since I had hurt her and the boys deeply and that what I had said was not true.
I know my dad would not have told me something that was not true nor tell my sisters the same thing. But I told her that was between her and God. It was not up to me to judge her nor bring up something that I had forgiven her a long time ago. She accepted my appolgy and will pass on to the boys we made amends. Now its up to the boys to call me so I can talk to them and tell them how sorry I am. I never meant to try and get them mad at there mom, I was at that time angery with her for telling me that Ben did not want me to have his address and I thought she was the one lying to me. The fact was she was telling me the truth, and still to this day I don't know why or what I had done to Ben that he did not want me to write to him overseas. At that time, I never even knew he was mad at me, so what I had done to him or said to him, I have no clue to that. All I can do is keep praying that I will have the chance to talk to him and tell him How wrong I was to treat his mom in the way I did and I no right to bring up to him or Andy why my dad divorce their mother.
Nor did have the right to message his wife on myspace and yell at them for not inviting my dad to the wedding and shoving it in his face on how he was the one to tell my dad his mom had a boyfriend.
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