WAKE UP CALL!
WAKE UP CALL!
When your down on your luck and the deception of lies you believed in, has got a hold of you. And your life is like a puzzle that is all jumble up and tearing your heart into bits. And your not sure who to believe in or who to count on. Your friends and family seem to have turn their backs on you. Even though you know deep down inside of you what they had to say to you was truth spoken in love. Yet you don’t want to believe it is true. No matter how many come to you telling you what is true.
Yet you feel all alone and God is not with you at all, let alone you do not understanding why they would do or say such things. My Friend Listen to them! They have not turn your back on you, you have turn your back on them! Can you not see this is a WAKE UP CALL for your life! Your friends are being led of the Holy Spirit to wake you up and shake you from the delusion you have made of your life.
Life is not a bed of rose you want to believe in. Lesson are needed to get you off that roller coaster ride of terror. If you want off this ride of terror, then take this WAKE UP CALL and put down that pride that has hold of you! Go to your friends in love and just sit down and talk and find out why your life is a jumble mess all over the floor.
Pray with them and let them show you the way to God by allowing the darkness to be brought up into the light of truth. For that truth will set you free from the enemy’s deception of lies you had believe in. Drama comes in to play when you think you know the way and your way is the only way to help those you think need your help.
Wisdom comes from a multitude of counselors.
Allow the tears to flow, cleansing your heart of all the delusion you had believed in are now being washed away. You can open your eyes to the truth of God’s love. For God will slowly pick up the pieces of the puzzle that fits into your life by doing it God’s way. God’s way is not our way, Most do not understand God’s way of doing things. But doing it God’s way will bring peace and blessings into your life.
Take this Wake up call as God’s way of showing you how much he cares for you. Do you not know how he cry’s over those who are down on their luck, if only they turn to him before they jump out to do what they think is best. If your not sure if your hearing God then take it before those that can show you the right way of the Lord. As hard as it is to hear the truth, understand that the truth is what sets you free!
THIS IS YOUR WAKE UP CALL!
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NOW?
“Copyright 2009”
Jacqueline L. Greek
July 13, 2009 the Lord told me to write this. It is not something I wanted to write, but something The Holy Spirit told me to write and the time is right. I was praying for a friend, and asking God what to do, all I got was Wake up Call! I knew then I had to start writing. When I get one or two words, I know the time is for me write, I have no idea what I am writing till I am done.
Then Once I was done with the poem, I asked God why this one? He told me to write in my wake up calls that I had been through, that I did not take heed the warning given to me, since I felt I knew it all! I know nothing, I am still learning always learning and reading what I can read on Christ and how to be like him. I am far from being like him! I feel like Paul in the bible, no matter what I do or say, I feel like I got my foot in my mouth!
How many Wake Up Calls does one person need to see the truth?
I wanted to go to bed! I was tired it was 10 pm at night! I was up early and went inter-tubing with my sisters and I just wanted to go to bed. But I had to write what God is telling me to write, not tomorrow, but now. I did not want anyone to know I had all this pride in me and sin as well, I was lying to myself for over 10 years and believing a lie of deception thinking I was better then anyone else! That God loved me, I hear him, but I don't need him all the time either! Just when something Goes wrong in my life that is only when I need him.
When we lie to ourselves we are also calling God a liar as well! We don't trust him to led us in the right direction with correction of his Love for our lives, we think we know it all!
Yes I hear him talk to me now! Like he did back in the early 90's, I was away from God for 10 years! In those 10 years, I had so much pride in me, that you can smell me coming 10 miles away! I reeked with pride and no one could tell me what to do, I knew it all, I didn't even need God! For 10 years I was led astray into the pit of deception! I was right were Satan wanted me! Because of the pride and sins of lies, I could not fully hear what God had to say to me. So I led to go by my feelings and emotions! That is walking on dangerous ground here, you think God is answering your prayers, but no God has allowed Satan in your life like he did with JOB!
Yes God allows the bad to happen for a reason! If you think God is in your life and he is not, you led by the enemy who is an angel of light, he answers your prayers, yes this sound right, yes this looks right it must be good so this must be God! You got the wrong G0d you got the god of this world in your life.
So now when I am around anyone with pride in their spirit, my spirit hurts so bad I want to cry! I can see the pride before the fall. No matter how I try to tell that person, they don't want to hear it. They know it all, they know what they are doing, this is there life. They will lead their life the way they see fit for them self's! Yes I was like that as well, I been there done that! God forbid that I never go there again!
Now I can see where my family and friends was with me! No wonder they did not want to be around me! I reeked with pride, they tried to tell me in the best way they knew how, but would I listen to them? Of course not, they can not run my life! They got to be jealous of me! So my family only called me when they had to or I would call them when I needed them. My friends, they all left me! They did not want to be there to pick me up when I fell.
They had been there too many times in the past and did I listen to them? No I did not!
Thank God for restoring my family with me! Now my sisters call me to go places with them or do things with them. That would not have happen 7 years ago! This would not have happen at with my older sister who criticized me to know end! My younger sister took pity on me and was there when I needed her.
Just today I spent a wonderful time with both of my sisters, we went inter-tubing at cooks forest! It had been over 10 years since both of my sisters went tubing with me, normally it would be just my younger sister. I was shocked when Sonja called me a few weeks ago and told me she wanted to do things with me, like go tubing and swimming!
My closes friend Sis who helped me write several songs and we had gone through so much together, would have nothing to do with me all! I am now working on restoring that friendship, but that will take some time, at least now she is talking to me again! And she is working on a cover for this book as well!
Worst yet, I lost my 2 youngest brothers, due to my pride and stupidly! I have not seen or heard from them since Aug. 2002! Ben the oldest we used to be so close! I missed those boys so much, Andy I had not seen since Aug 2003, when I stop by where he lived 5 hours from me, taking Sheila and her friends down to the Job corp. But because of my pride and stupidly I did not handle a matter right with their mother. They want nothing to do with me now! I was not invited to Ben's wedding Last Sept, that tore me apart that not only did He not invite me, but my dad and other brother Jim as well. I just got word he is a daddy, a girl born on July 1, 2009. I am so happy for him! I want to congratulated him, but he has disowned me from his family! Yes that hurts me a lot there is nothing I can do or say to him other I want to put the past behind us, I am sorry I hurt you, I never meant to hurt you! The chance of never seeing my niece is killing me!
Only God can heal this relationship with Ben and his brother Andy! I have tried to contact them by myspace, they refuse to answer me! I can not do anything If they refuse to talk to me, let alone, They have blocked me from myspace, I don't even have his phone number to call him. Pride can ruin family, friendship!
They see me as a liar and a trouble maker, when I allowed pride to get in the way with there mother and tied to tell them the truth on why my dad divorced her! I told them the truth that they did not want to hear or nor did they care about it enough to talk to me about it! I regret everyday what I have done, I have taken it to God and left it with him.
Only he can repair the mess I had made with my brothers who I love deeply!
These lessons were not an easy lesson for me to learn, but at the time of learning this back from 1996 to 2006 when I was away from God, Thank God he was never away from me! I am not happy about writing about my pride and where I fell so hard that I lost some of my family and very close friends.
Looking back at my life, I now understand why I did what I did, I needed to be needed! I need to be Loved! So when I took in people, I had pride that they sought me out! They cared for me, they loved me! But in long run they were using me to take what I had! I wanted my family and friends to look at me, these kids love me, they need me, I am helping them! I am not alone! They are helping me mow the yard, they are helping me paint the inside of my house, they are helping me clean my house!
In April 1997, I moved into the house next door to me, my first reaction to this was no way in hell do I want to move into that house. I did not like the neighbor on the other side of the house! I let my daughter and my brother talk me into this.
I had the chance to buy this house once I could, so I put a lot of money into fixing this house up just the way I wanted it. It was my house, and they neighbor next door, well I was better them him, I will just show him, he can not drive me out of my house.
When I had the grill out and my chair out, he seen I was reading a book and cooking a steak, so he took my peace and quite away by trimming down the hedges! Well I will show him he not bothering me. I went out and got my weed wackier and did my trim. He seen I was not bothered by him, so he went in the house after 5 min. I showed him all right!
I loved that house, I had to show it off to everyone who came in and showed them what I had done with it. This was my house!
The last time I heard God talking to me was in Nov. 1997, when I bought a computer to keep an eye on my daughter and her friends. I learn how to make web pages, I knew God wanted my poems up on line. I put up about 13 on line, then I got into the yahoo groups on tmj and started to put up the tmj stories for others to read. I left God on the back burner.
Then in Jan 1999, out my neighbor of a jerk, was buying my house! He lied to my landlord and told him I was ok with it, and he was going to let me stay here. My landlord would not sell the house to just anyone, they had to agree to let me live there.
I had a fit and called my landlord told him I had no clue he was buying it! I knew he hated me, I had the police over there so many times for this jerk yelling at me over dumb things. like my motion light going off when he backed into his driveway. Thank God my back door was lock, or this man would have been in my house, he stuck his face into my window yelling at me to turn the light off! (In not so kind words) He was told he was not allowed on my property and the motion light I had was fine the way I had it. It was on my property not his. and the light would go off when he pulled his truck in front of my car to back into his driveway.
He was to have control of the house in March! I had to have surgery in March! I could not move now, so my landlord changed the date to June giving me time to move out and take out anything I had put into the house. I was out of by April! I moved into a small 2 bedroom apartment that I hated! There were 3 other tenets beside me! It was noisy in there and no privacy at all! I was there until Feb, 2004. I had lost my house due to the pride I had in being better then my neighbor!
When my daughter turn 17, I let her drive my car! She had been in trouble with the police so I had not let her get her license when she turn 16. By this time she had most of her friends at my house living. I needed to me needed, since I left the church, I was just filling one void with another one.
I allowed my kid to drive them around in my car I had so much pride in! My daughter and her friends ran that car to death! They took me to the cleaners! I was so blind I could not see it! All I can see was they were helping me! She blew the engine in it and I managed to get another put in, my kid promised to help me pay for which she did not help me at all! then she messed up the transmission to it. I traded it in for 250.00 in 2004.
Even when I was with God back in 1985 to1996, I have taken in my friends as well that needed a place to stay for a short while, one was burn out. She had 5 kids with her, She left her husband to be with a maniac! Then she wanted to go back to her husband, this maniac blew up her home! With all the kids clothes everything she owned.
Even though the pastor of my church told me not to take them in! I did it anyways! I had one month of hell! Had I listen to him, my friend would have had to go back to her husband, she had no where else to go. But I thought she could stay with me until she found her own place, then God would work it out so she could be with her husband!
But at those time I did it God’s way. So I thought! It was really my way. When my friends refused to do it Gods way or may way, they seen the door real fast. God’s way for her was to go back to her husband, then when she started to look for a place for her and the kids then have this maniac move back in with her. Yes I had to ask her to leave. I called her husband to come get her! He had a place for them to live, but no stove or fridge, I gave her a crock pot, electric skillet and a cooler. What ever she needed I gave her! I went though my home and gave her everything she needed to get started again!
She was not the only friend I had done this to, I had to do this to my own brother as well! When he moved in and didn’t want to move out! He had his wake up call!
I would have found them a place to stay, pack up there belongings and put them out on the porch, I gave them food, clothing dishes pots pans what ever they needed to get by on. Yes those friends were mad as hell at me! But I would not let them run my life and have my home torn up like a tornado went through it! The tornado was Satan trying to steal kill and destroy me! But after a few months they would come back to me and apology to me and thank me for giving them there wake up call!
Then in 1997, my daughter was about 14 years old, I started to take in my daughters friends, who knew my soft spot and would call me mom! I thought it was wonderful they called me mom, and wanted to spend time with me. When they needed a place to sleep they knew they could stay with me. Sandra slept on my couch for nearly 2 years, Amy on off over the years. (She was the worst there was) I did not have the need to pray about this, why should I? I was doing a good thing and getting these girls off the street, somebody had to be a mother to them when their own mother did not want the time to spend with them. After all they were calling me mom!
There folks were to busy working or getting drunk, they were happy that their kid was spending time with me. This filled a void in my not being able to have more children. And love to be at my house!
I did not charge them money to stay with me, But it cost me money to have them stay. Money I did not have. I was always borrowing money from my dad or my uncle or my Sister to help bail me out. I needed food or I need a part for my car or a bill that had to be paid.
They robed me of my food and money, time I needed to be with my daughter, which at that time she wanted her friends all to be at her house with her cool mom. Not only that those kids taught my kid to steal, and sell drugs. If I had know all this, I would have ended it. But I was so blind to see the truth!
Then those other friends turn out to be her boyfriends, I just could not put my foot down with any of her friends that called me mom, this made me feel special and loved. I was there mom that cooked for them that home cooked meal they needed or took them out just to have fun, like inter-tubing or just going on a picnic or just a long drive somewhere. What I teaching my daughter? Nothing! I had no business taking in her boyfriends! NO matter what my kid threaten to do! Yes she threaten to run away, I just could not deal with her bugging me until I gave in. I gave in to the pain I had due to tmj, but my kid knew my soft spot. In stead of taking this with someone that could help me with her, I did it my way! They easy way out! After all those boys promise to paint my house for me!
I even took one of her friend on a 4 day vacation! Spent money I did not have I charged it on my charged card, that cost me over $500.00. But I had to show her friends I was a cool mom!
But in the end, they robed me. Yes all my kids friend stole from me. Not just money but my pain medication. But also in food, Then my kid would tell me I am not paying attention To what I am taking, I am addict! I knew I was not a drug addict! But no matter how much they took from me, I kept having them back into my home.
Even though I would call the police on them, but the police could not do anything, they did not find my drugs on them.
I found out the hard way, when they took my pain medication they told their friends they got it from me! They did not tell them they stole it from me, I found out this after my kid was arrested in 2003. She wanted her friends to think how cool her mother was! Another Wake up call, did I see that? Did I hear that? NO I did not! I lived a life in delusion, I allowed them to feed my ego, after all I was there mom! They came to me for advice. How can I kick them out of my home. I had to help all my kids friends that needed a place to stay.
I never had any money left over for myself. It cost me a lot just to feed them, but they fed my ego, I was their mother! It was one drama after another, as I kept falling for their lies and took them in.
Not even this wake up call. I got on losing over $500.00! My Bank was over drawn and one of her so called friends, took my debt card and changed on the internet porn!
I called the police and they told me it was a civil matter because I allowed him to stay here!
God had my back this time. One police office went after this kid. And told him he needed to pay me back 700.00 which is what I had now owned due to bank fees. Money I did not have, I had managed to get one of my SSD stopped so it would not go into the account, I had my bills to pay! One did not get stopped and I lost it to the bank fees.
When I got my phone bill, I dissolved long distance calls, which I called them and to my amazement they were to the porn company! I told them this man had stole my debt card and charged these to my card. They refunded my money! Not only they did that for me, but sent me the paper work that verified that this man did what he did, This man used his last name as password! How stupid was that? He tired to tell me he did not steal my money!
Because of this, one police office who went way out of his way for me, within a month time I got all my $700.00 back from this kid. Even though the money were back into my bank account. The office told me I had bank fees to pay and with all the stress I went through, I needed the extra $400.00.
Did I thank God for this, I don’t think I did, did I learn a lesson on this no I did not. I let my kid invite another friend into my home. This time this kid bought is own groceries, and stayed a few months, but in the end he ended up in jail. Not for anything he did staying with me. But still I did not thank God he did not rip me off. Though I still had medication coming up missing. I know him and my kid took from me again. It did not matter if I had them hid someplace or I had locked then up, My kid and her friends would still find a way to get into them,
I did put a stop to all my daughters friends staying with me, when I realized I am not their mother, they have their own mother or father to take them in and care for them! I didn't care to hear what they had to say, I had to put my foot down. I was feeding on the lies of Satan feeding on my ego, that I was there mother! A lie is a lie, Gods word says he hates liars! I was lying to myself thinking I was there mother! That I could help them, NO I am not there mother and No I could not help them, when I needed help myself! I was enabling them. I had to take the plank from eye to see the truth! That truth set me from the lies of hell! It put one more piece of the puzzle back into my life.
One more time again, another Wake Up Call! This time my aunts grandson needed a place to stay and job. I did not take it up with God, why should I do that, I know what I am doing this is family now! I got him a job where my nephew used to work and my old landlord was his boss. He needed a car to drive so I let him take mine, I trust him, he is family after all.
He stayed with me a few short weeks but still needed the car and I let him have the car. He needed to get to work after all. He had an appointment with the Doctor so I let him take the car. When he did came to my home, there was no car, He wrecked it, then lied to me about it. He was joy riding and taking his friend where they wanted to go. I called the police office in charge and this officer I knew him from years ago. My cousin was a fault and pulled out in front of another car. The other driver was taken to the hospital, her car was totaled, Thank God my insurance company took care of it. I only have liability insurance. And only my relatives are covered. And they did cover it all. But I was with out a car. Pride comes before the fall. I had pride in that car, I put a lot of money into getting it fixed up, I was babying in so it would get me through another year. But this time after losing my third car to pride, I did not cry over it. I finally learn my lesson on that pride! I was to blame for letting him have it in the first place!
You think I would have learn that lesson with the losing the first car! It was my ex's car that he gave to me, I had it painted and all fixed up nice, I loved that little car, then I blew the engine on it. I cried and cried over that car to God, begging him to send some one to me that could fixed it! What did God tell me to do with it? He told me to give it away! To my sister's husband! Talk about a melt down! I had to do what God told me to with that car! It took me 2 years before God provided me with another car!
Did my cousin tell me the truth? Of course not! Did he make it right with me? Of course not! No I was with out a car and no money in sight to buy another one.
Then I started to come back to God! Then the rest of puzzle was put together for me to see all the truth! I need God in my life, not someone to move in here and help me, to help them, when all I need was God!
With in six months time, God provided the way for me to get another car. Not hearing from my cousin in over a year about this car, I wanted to take him to court so he can pay me back at least $500. For the car he wrecked, I had the accident report and all the papers on the money I spent on that car. He owed me $500.
I took it to God and God told me no! I could not take him to court! God’s ways are not our ways. He told me to read the book of Proverbs! That is where I learned wisdom! How to live my life in the way God wants me to!
I no longer take just anyone into my home, I don’t care if they need a place to live. Not in my home, I take it to God there are other options out there to help them with out taking them in. There is the Salivation Army, OEO, that will pay for one month’s rent. If they have the money. There are churches that will help out as well.
We are to teach others how to fish, be fishers of men. Not them coming into your home and stealing from you what God had given you. I take it before God and allow him to show me on How to help these people out. Most I have discover They don’t want to be taught how to fish, they just want to take over your home and run you out of it. When it is not of God your home will be like a tornado ripping through it. One drama after another. That is not God’s way. God’s way is peace, joy and happiness. He provides the food or what ever you need to help them. He will show them if they let him!
How do I know this is not of God or if this is of God? Ask others what they think before you ok them to move in with you. There is:
Wisdom comes from a multitude of counselors.
Who do I ask? Talk to your pastor if your in church, talk to Godly friends that you know who hear from God and are led of the Holy Spirit? What DOES YOUR GUT TELL YOU? If your first reaction is no then let it be no! Don't listen to their sob story! They just want in to take you on that roller coaster ride of terror! Even if it sounds good, it still might not be of GOD! If your taking them in to help to you pay the rent or bills, Then that is all the wrong reason to take anyone into your home. Seek God out with all you heart, body and mind! Ask others what they think before you tell them yes!
Look to God to help you with your bills or rent! But they have no where to go and they want to pay me? If they have money to pay you, then they can find somewhere else for help, There are apartments that are on HUD and you pay what your income is.
There is help out there to help those that need a place to stay!
But I don’t want to be alone! I like helping others! They like my cooking! I like there company! That my friend is a lie from hell! Satan is feeding you that lie to take them in so they can steal, kill and destroy you!
If you like helping others and like to cook, you can volunteer your time at the Salivation Army or do some volunteer work at a hospital. When you take them in are you witness to them about the Love of God? Do they know God? Are they saved and baptism by water and in the Holy Spirit? If they are they would be going to God for help not you!
In 1985, I was being baptize surmised in water, I was baptize when I was 13, but I did not understand it all. This time I full understood it. And I wanted the baptism of the Holy Spirit as well, I asked for God for that baptism of the Holy spirit so I too could speak in tongues and have the holy spirit with me to led me guide me and talk to me!
The same day I was baptize that night I also had the holy spirit, I was praying and all of a sudden a was speaking in another tongue! I had my prayer language! I started to hear God speak to me!
John 3:5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.....
This is way if they were saved and baptize by water and the spirit they would not be coming to you for help? Are you saved and led by the holy spirit? If you are, then you would be teaching this to them and know what God is saying to you! Most times he will tell you not to take them in. But show you how to help them.
But I don’t want to live alone? No one does, but when you truly have Christ in your life, your never alone! God is with you at all times, he wants to talk to you! Are you listening to what he has to say? He will fill that void you have! You don’t’ need someone to come into your home to fill that void! But I need help with this and that! There are churches or friends that can help you with what ever you need help with!
I am 51 years old, I am not married, I live alone! But I am not lonely! I have my friends, I have my volunteer job with working with the Southside Neighborhood Association. I also have clothes and different things given to me from my Aunt and Uncle. It is another way for me to give to others that God gives to me. I find someone in need of the clothing and give it to them. If I don't find someone who needs what I have, I don't sell it! I wait on God to bring the person to me and just them mentioning that they need, I have it. So many times this has happen to me. To many to just name.
God sends the person over just at the right time to help me. Just the other day I had a flat tire and my car was parked in the driveway, God sent this young man to my house at the right time. He notice the flat not I. He fixed that flat for me! He took the tire off. Put the spar on and took the car to sears to fix the tire! That is God working in my life, taking care of my every need. I did not have to go calling people to find someone to fix it. God sent his helper over to me at the right time.
I found good Christen women I can turn to when I need advice. They don’t judge me, they meet me right where I am at. They don’t care what my home looks like, they don’t care what I look like, they see me as Christ sees me!
Those are the friends we can turn to, they don’t think they are better then I am.
They don’t compare themselves to me! Or act like they are above me! Yes they are married and live in nice house‘s. But they see me as God’s sees me! I am nothing, but they love me for who I am in Christ Jesus! Those kind of friends are hard to find but they are out there, I don’t have to pretend to be somebody I am not with them. I can be myself and show my worst side to them, but they are there for me. NO matter what happens in my life. I know I can get good Godly counsel from them.
Sometimes the best way to help a friend is for them to understand that they have been where you are, they know what your feeling, they know how to help you out of that mess you made. Yes a true friend will tell you the truth they see in you! Yes it hurts like hell! Yes your mad at them, for how dare they tell me I have pride in my life! How dare they tell me I lie! Or they see some kind of sin that I have! If they don’t tell you, then who will? They tell you this because they love you, they tell you this, because they see where your headed! They tell you this, because they have been there! Done that! They do not see themselves above you or they are better then you, they see you as Christ see you! Only if you can see that in your self?
THIS IS YOUR WAKE UP CALL!
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NOW?
WHO ARE YOU GOING TO CALL?
The reason I bring this up is to show that being born again and the baptism of the Holy Ghost are one in the self same thing. Let’s take this a step farther and look at what Jesus said.
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John ..14:15.. If ye love me, keep my commandments. 16And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; 17Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
18I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. 19Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also. 20At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you. 21He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.
22Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world? 23Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him. 24He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father’s which sent me.
25These things have I spoken unto you, being yet present with you. 26But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. 27Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.....
Call upon the LORD and He will answer your call!
You have not because you asked not! Ask God for wisdom to help you!
I had started to write this at 10pm on the 13th of June, I was not through with it till about 6 am on the 14th, and still when I woke up about noon, God still had me writing in what I did not want to write, I did not want the world or my friends to see all the bad I had done, when I thought I was doing what was good, my heart was far from God and living in decent of deception, I had lived in life of delusions thinking I was loved and needed, even thinking I needed a man in my Life as well and any man would do that would go out with me as well. I was living in a dream world! Letting my family and friends think I was happy dating these men and adding into it lies that only I wanted to believe!
I led my daughter down the wrong path of deception, now she is caught up in the delusion I was living in, Now I can not even talk to her about her life, after all she thinks she knows what is best for her self and her son! What shame had I brought in to my life is now going on in my daughters life. No wonder we are to repent of what our ancestors sins did. For we take on their way of living and the beliefs they had as well. We live by what we are taught by and what our family does. I have repented of all my past sins as well as my ancestors and crying out to God today now understanding what I had done to my daughter!
Yes for 10 years away from God I had gotten on Pal Talk and gotten into the medium rooms and had readings over my life, they were not of God but of Satan leading me down the wrong road to deception. Now my kid had gotten a reading from a physic saying she would be with a man that had 2 children and that all will be well. No not all is well with her! It was a lie from hell. Now she has a son to this man with 2 children who is teaching his child to listen to hard rock music with all kinds of swearing, my little grandson is now imitating this band! The words that comes from his mouth will someday get him kicked out of day care or pre-school! I see this happening I told my daughter and my grandson dad, he thinks it funny!
Now she is no longer living with him but her son spends 4 days a week with this man! Who is a loser, and user, my daughter can not see this. He does not drive, he is not working now. All he does is sit around and play video games on wii and plays the guitar and drums which he teaching to his son, that is all fine and well, but the music he using to teach my grandson is not all fine and well! It scars the hell out of me! One day she tells me she is done with this man, then all of a sudden he sweet talks her again, and back she is with him, taking him places and such. I told her she needs to go out on a real date! Meet other men, but she is with him, so she won't because he is the father of her son!
She will someday have to repent of the sins I had caused her! I can not tell her that, she needs to find God on her own like I had to. Someday she will read all that I have written, and with God's help will remove the blinders off her eyes just as He had to removed them off my eyes. She seen my life over the past 10 years and seen what I have done, thinking now she can live a life like I had in pride and sin.
I will have to answer to God someday for all that I have done in my life! I am held accountable for how I had raised my daughter apart from God and allowing her to rule me! Because I was would not say no to her, even at times I had told her no 100 times, I still gave into her.
I do know now that God has forgiven me, since I have repented from my sins and no longer doing what I had done in the past! But I still held accountable for all I have done.
Hopefully now she will see Christ living in me, and want that for her live. That is all I can do is live my live now the way God wants me to live. Not in the world, but in Christ! What I have gone through in the last few weeks is unreal, God showing me my deceitful heart that I had once live by. The shame it had caused for me to even tell you how I used to live. I had no clue until last night how awful my heart and my way of thinking with out God for 10 years could cause so much damage with in my soul and my daughters as well. Pride comes before the fall. And we do not see that pride and sin until it too late.
This was in email box this morning! It is a conformation from God as to what he had told me when I wrote Red Sea of Faith. I had to get to the point of exposing the darkness that I had once held in my heart in shame away from my family and the world to see, is now out in the light for all to see! By my word of testimony others can do the same. If I can do it with God's help so can they.
For I am nothing with out God leading the way and parting the Red Sea before me!
God Bless you that you will find the wisdom of God to show you what Pride and sin in your life has done to you and your family!
GOD CALLING - July 14 - True Success
True Success
Our Lord, we thank Thee that Thou hast kept us.
Rejoice indeed that you see My Hand in all the happenings and the keepings of the day. Protected, the Israelites crossed the Red Sea; so are you protected in all things.
Rely on this and go forward. You have now entered upon the stage of success. You must not doubt this. You must see this. Beyond all doubt you must know it. It is true. It is sure.
There is no age in Eternal Life. Have no pity for yourself, nothing but joy and gratitude.
These last few weeks have been the submerging before the consciousness of rescue. Go forward now and conquer. Go forward unafraid.
Every place that the sole of your foot shall tread upon, that have I given unto you, as I said unto Moses. Joshua 1:3
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Now to Him who is able to keep you from falling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen. Jude 1:24-25
Proverbs 1-7
Prologue: Purpose and Theme
1 The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:
2 for attaining wisdom and discipline;
for understanding words of insight;
3 for acquiring a disciplined and prudent life,
doing what is right and just and fair;
4 for giving prudence to the simple,
knowledge and discretion to the young-
5 let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance-
6 for understanding proverbs and parables,
the sayings and riddles of the wise.
7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
but fools <""""><>[a] despise wisdom and discipline.
Proverbs 2:2
turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,
Proverbs 2:6
For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
Proverbs 2:10
For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
Proverbs 2:12
Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men, from men whose words are perverse,
Proverbs 4:5
Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or swerve from them.
Proverbs 4:6
Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you.
Proverbs 4:7
Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding.
Proverbs 4:11
I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths.
Proverbs 8:1
[ Wisdom's Call ] Does not wisdom call out? Does not understanding raise her voice?
Proverbs 8:11
for wisdom is more precious than rubies, and nothing you desire can compare with her.
Proverbs 8:12
"I, wisdom, dwell together with prudence; I possess knowledge and discretion.
Proverbs 9:1
[ Invitations of Wisdom and of Folly ] Wisdom has built her house; she has hewn out its seven pillars.
Proverbs 9:10
"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
Proverbs 9:12
If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you; if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer."
Proverbs 10:13
Wisdom is found on the lips of the discerning, but a rod is for the back of him who lacks judgment.
Proverbs 11:2
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
Proverbs 13:10
Pride only breeds quarrels, but wisdom is found in those who take advice.
Proverbs 14:8
The wisdom of the prudent is to give thought to their ways, but the folly of fools is deception.
Proverbs 15:33
The fear of the LORD teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor.
Proverbs 16:16
How much better to get wisdom than gold, to choose understanding rather than silver!
Proverbs 17:16
Of what use is money in the hand of a fool, since he has no desire to get wisdom?
Proverbs 17:24
A discerning man keeps wisdom in view, but a fool's eyes wander to the ends of the earth.
Proverbs 18:4
The words of a man's mouth are deep waters, but the fountain of wisdom is a bubbling brook.
Proverbs 19:8
He who gets wisdom loves his own soul; he who cherishes understanding prospers.
Proverbs 19:11
A man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense.
Proverbs 21:30
There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the LORD.
Proverbs 23:4
Do not wear yourself out to get rich; have the wisdom to show restraint.
Proverbs 23:23
Buy the truth and do not sell it; get wisdom, discipline and understanding.
Proverbs 24:14
Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul; if you find it, there is a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.
Proverbs 28:26
He who trusts in himself is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom is kept safe.
Proverbs 30:3
I have not learned wisdom, nor have I knowledge of the Holy One.
Ecclesiastes 1:13
I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under heaven. What a heavy burden God has laid on men!
Ecclesiastes 1:17
Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.
Ecclesiastes 1:18
For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.
Ecclesiastes 2:3
I tried cheering myself with wine, and embracing folly—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was worthwhile for men to do under heaven during the few days of their lives.
Ecclesiastes 2:13
I saw that wisdom is better than folly, just as light is better than darkness.
Ecclesiastes 2:26
To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
Isaiah 11:2
The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him— the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of power, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
Isaiah 28:29
All this also comes from the LORD Almighty, wonderful in counsel and magnificent in wisdom.
Isaiah 47:10
You have trusted in your wickedness and have said, 'No one sees me.' Your wisdom and knowledge mislead you when you say to yourself, 'I am, and there is none besides me.'
Jeremiah 9:23
This is what the LORD says: "Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches,
Daniel 2:21
He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning.
Luke 11:49
Because of this, God in his wisdom said, 'I will send them prophets and apostles, some of whom they will kill and others they will persecute.'
1 Corinthians 1:21
For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe.
1 Corinthians 1:22
Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom,
1 Corinthians 1:24
but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.
1 Corinthians 1:30
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
1 Corinthians 2:6
[ Wisdom From the Spirit ] We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing.
1 Corinthians 2:13
This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words.
1 Corinthians 12:8
To one there is given through the Spirit the message of wisdom, to another the message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit,
2 Corinthians 1:12
[ Paul's Change of Plans ] Now this is our boast: Our conscience testifies that we have conducted ourselves in the world, and especially in our relations with you, in the holiness and sincerity that are from God. We have done so not according to worldly wisdom but according to God's grace.
Ephesians 1:17
I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.
Colossians 1:9
For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding.
Colossians 1:28
We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ.
James 1:5
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
James 3:13
[ Two Kinds of Wisdom ] Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from
James 3:15
Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil.
James 3:17
But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.
Revelation 7:12
saying: "Amen! Praise and glory and wisdom and thanks and honor and power and strength be to our God for ever and ever. Amen!"
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