As I'm sitting alone, I can see it all.
All of my pain, tearing me apart.
I'm sitting here watching you have what I’ll never get,
What do I achieve, while you're winning?
You get to have her heart.
I try to be smart and walk away.
But you're on my mind every single day,
it's you and her and others too. Where do I go,
can I even hit rewind?
To all the boys who were once on my mind.
All of my mistakes have me in a make or break,
This bind of feeling stuck
It’s a motion of wanting to reverse this.
Then maybe I could have had this rehearsal
thought it all through,
Not to think about being with you
but between me and you It was already over.
We weren't getting a new start or even a do over.
Sitting alone, fearing myself.
Not understanding my words or why I do this,
I chase after you by nature
there's no fixing that fact that they won't like me back.
So why do I try,
when I already know I should have other things to do.
But I feel like I’m dying inside
What's on my mind,
what's going through my heart as I want to break down.
The pain as I feel it throbbing
my heart still forever still pounding
This world is vile while I'm not trying to be in denial,
but of who.
Of me?
Of him, I once loved you
Now trying to get by,
Another day, another lie,
I still love you
What do I fix,
What do I change?
Will you let me know,
Although I’ll never be loved by you.