I think as time passes the worms eat at my broken brain more
and I think as I grow closer to things I'm more afraid of shutting the door
Am I the reason the cogs in your clock get clogged or is it because of the raging past?
I wish for serenity but I'm just met with more rain
I pray for dry necessities but I'm just met with more rain
So watch me as I tear apart the notes written to save my soul
Watch me as I tear the notes written to save my soul
Watch me as I tear the sheets off my bed that were supposed to hold me
but that's how the rhythm goes
and watch me as I take a hammer to my heart as the beat slows
and watch as I bleed from every pore in my godforsaken body
Because I made myself doubt the future
I'm a rose covered in thorns and they just want to pick me
but the last one didn't give me water so I wilted quickly
I'm a tree and they're the breeze spreading its way through my limbs
buts it's a shame all my leaves fell off
I didn't have a ray of sunshine
I can't practice what I preach because I'm not listening to my lectures
I'm a diamond that turns to coal if you put me under too much pressure
I'm a tapestry left to fall apart on an abandoned wall
I'm a rotted stump, maybe once I stood tall
I'm dropped belongings left forgotten in the lost but never found
I'm the echo of misheard screams that comes from all around
I know its my fault but I guess I'm just too afraid to admit it
I want a gentle love but I guess I'm just too scared to commit it
because what if people don't love me
what if someone's above me
What if I'm born again into unbroken skin
Then what will I do
What if my breath isn't sucked away and my heart doesn't beat too fast
What if my tears don't rip out of my eyes as if the clock ticking towards eternity
What if I didn't feel empty
What if broken songs weren't what sent me?
What if my brain was just longing for attention?
My need to be the star of the show, so I wait until then
What if I'm afraid to heal?
And what if none of this feels real?
so please, tell me if I can sit here and just listen
Because I'm sick of talking