On January 25, 2025, my band traveled to Hua Hin to perform at a charity concert supporting medical research at Siriraj Hospital. Leading up to the event, we spent a great deal of time preparing—not only because of the concert’s significance, but also out of respect for the donors who had purchased tickets to support the cause and enjoy live music. We felt it was important to deliver a performance that was not only enjoyable but also meaningful.
At first, I felt fairly comfortable while rehearsing. It was a chance to play songs I liked, contribute to a good cause, and spend time with close friends. However, as the concert day approached, a familiar sense of anxiety started creeping in. This tends to happen every time I perform—especially after a performance that didn’t meet my expectations. I felt added pressure to meet higher standards. During the performance, I started feeling that same fear again, and as it often does, it led to a few mistakes. Still, those small mistakes didn’t ruin the performance. Instead, they helped me ease into the moment and loosen up on stage. I realized I needed to be more forgiving of myself when it comes to minor errors and allow room for imperfections. This mindset helped me enjoy the performance more and made me feel more confident overall.
To be completely honest, while preparing for the concert, I didn’t focus much on the charity aspect. I knew we were contributing to a good cause, but it didn’t feel all that personal at the time. That changed a few weeks later when the participating bands visited Siriraj Hospital. We met with Professor Apichat Asavamongkolkul, Dean of the Faculty of Medicine, who shared how the hospital consistently operates at a loss in order to provide accessible healthcare for those in need. He explained that even though our contribution was small, it was part of a much bigger mission. That moment gave me a deeper sense of fulfillment—I understood more clearly why our performance mattered. It reminded me that even small efforts can make a real difference when they support something meaningful.