03-18-2010
ps 119:46 So far I am not sharing God's insights, testimonies with anyone except with the authority. And if with the authority only share these things if there would be no doubt for him, no shame for me.
Ps 119:56 – keep those things close to heart and don't give them away.
Ps. 119:79,80 – Let the Christians come to ask questions. Now where does it say to volunteer the answers. In that way I will be in your will, held blameless and not be shamed.
Ps 119: 88 – Keep me alive while I keep and hide the words you have spoken to me. By hiding your words and not exposing them like a whore, or to whores. Oh lord you know how I feel dieing by keeping these things inside. Keep me alive when I keep these things to myself.
ps. 119:104 – With all your thoughts oh Lord that you have given me, it is understanding. It is like you bring me up higher, closer to you, and my enemies get further left behind. This allows me to HATE all of their ways who are below me.
PS. 119:107 - It causes me pain to keep this inside, please save me if it be your will.
Ps 119:108 – If I only talk to you and no one else, consider them praises, out of my heart and teach me more. With tears in my eyes, speak to me more.
Ps 119:109 - I am restraining my self all the time, all the while obeying what you have commanded me.
Ps 119:111 – I will remember you speaking to me forever. I will never forget. Every time I remember, even when it was in rebuke and terrifying, I am happy. Because you, you yourself spoke to me.
Ps 119:112 – Because of this I will follow you and obey you forever. If I cease to exist even in spirit, even to that end I will follow you.
ps. 119:114 – You are the Star-trek shield that protects me from all phaser guns pointed at me.
Ps 119:120 – My flesh did tremble when you spoke and at all times I am afraid that this flesh will bring on your judgment.
Ps. 119:124 – I know every step I take on the path you put before me is in line with your loving nature. Teach me more...
Ps 119:131 – I run to you hard and fast and want to say to you “Tell me more”, but the only thing that comes out of my mouth is panting. I can't even speak I am so worn out of breath.
ps. 119:135 – Please don't use your voice the next time, but let the light that comes from yourpresence be the one that teaches me your ways.
Ps. 119:136 – I sometimes see what you see and cry be cause there is nothing I can do. I want to save them. I want to speak to them, to teach them, to convince them. But I know it could only be done if by your will that you turn their hearts, open their eye, open their ears.
Ps 119:139 – Sometime I get ankous just to see what you will do to those who do not belong to you and the same ones that give my pain.
Ps. 119:141 – Even when you teach me how small and insignificant I am I won't forget what you have showed me.
Ps 119:145,146 - Because I don't hear from you, I really from the bottom of my heart want to hear from you again and every time I am promising that I am doing everything you want me to do.
Ps 119:149 – If the only person I talk to is myself, then let it be that you hear me Lord. Please don't kill me for what comes out of my mouth. Remember you love me? And you give life to those you love?
Ps. 119:150 – I hear the people who want to shut me up coming close to grab me. They can't be Christians can they?
PS. 119:153 – Please oh God see how I want to show your glory and the pain of me not doing so. But I will continue to obey what you have told me. To keep my mouth shut. I will do.
Ps. 119:154 – Again, please take this pain from me, this wanting to speak, so that it will not be so hard for me. I am dying here Lord.
Ps 119:158 – The Christians and non-Christians alike that are faithless disgust me. They both look the same. They both don't follow your commands.
Ps. 119:161 – People better than me want to cut me down, but you are the one I give my respect to, that I will give attention to.
PS 119:163 – Like you oh Lord I am hating lies and dishonesty, but as for me whatever you tell me to do, I will love to do it.
Ps. 119:164 – Seven times a day I am thanking you, for what you are doing in my life. I know that these times are follow your spiritual laws and that they can never fail. They are rules like the law of gravity.
Ps 119:166 – I wait for this to end and while I wait I will continue to obey you.
Ps 119:168 – I know that I must obey, because you have authority over all. You know my thoughts before I think them. You know what I could be or do.
Ps 119:169-176 – My pain in writing this, it is true. Like the cry from Able's blood reached your ears, let this cry act the same way. Help me to understand. Hopefully by understanding I will have peace. This keeps going and going, will it ever stop? Will I ever stop finding your words written within words? You know I will always follow you, I will always sing your praises. You will hear them from my heart and from my lips. I know I can be like a stupid sheep, getting lost. Please find me again like you have done before. When I am found I will remember your commandment and start over again. To follow you again.