05-17-2018
Being a Christian gives New Life, but also gives New Death.
I have seen many times a mature Christian, one who is totally immersed in Jesus, leave this earth early, before his time. This person resembles a totally holy person before the Lord. A faith that couldn't be shaken.
Then there is the rest of us that live after our time. Recently I was allowed to sin. I have given everything to God, even my disabilities and lack of sound judgement. When one day I went through an action that lacked judgement. To the out side it was sin, even after I realized it it is sin to me. I can not fathom how after everything I had handed over in my life, even my judgement and thoughts, that God the Father would allow me to fail in sinning. Didn't I give up all my rights and being, over to my King? To keep everything in the right direction? Apparently and as I have been contemplating, the Father can at will remove himself. Or shall I say, remove His actions. He is always there, and we continually are reconciled and sanctified. Many times God has protected me from sinning, and from the consequence of sin.
This time it is different. With a total lack of judgement, my sin became real, to everyone. To myself, another, and God. Now because sin separates, I am being separated from my standing. With other reasons being suggested to me as reasons, only God knows the true background as to why I am leaving the presence of another.
I also think, my life belonging to Him, that He can do what He wills. My sin is my sin regardless. That I am aware, causes great sorrow, takes away my pride, and perhaps, just perhaps - all this is going to prolongs my life a week longer.
God gets the glory of having the power and wisdom to use evil along with the good. To use the dark along with the light. Hate with along with Love The tapestry is ultimately His. "When God clothes you in His grace, you become perfect in His sight." - Levi Lusko
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