By Jacqueline Santos
Here is my story just like an onion a peel at a time. I feel like this is just going to be a slightly different than in other stories you have heard. Starting from the beginning and until right now. So get comfortable and get your snacks. Let's start from the beginning Jackie is a sensitive little girl that would've get hurt when someone will throw at her mean words and point at her as the big girl. Just like I said step at a time going through first and fifth grade. So let me break it down first grade I was so glad to be in the first grade and was ready to learn, well that what I wanted I did learn kinda but for sure got hurt with those horrible words that were told to me. Knowing that I was that big girl that didn't fit in clothes easily I hated uniforms I couldn't find anything in my size that made me feel ashamed of my body. That's what I had to deal with in first grade and fourth grade, but now came fifth grade it was fine that year it was when I felt more insecure about myself. Especially when I wore that blue dress the uniformed kind I was so excited to wear, until that one boy made fun of me he said "look at her legs their big" you see that made it worse. Now you know a little bit how I had to deal with first through fifth grade, they weren't that bad as I say, there was a little sunshine after all I made friends with only boys I became a tomboy I was appreciated about having friends and only one girl friend Hailey.
Now comes the more interesting part for sixth grade through eight grade like I said before let's break it down. Starting with how I was feeling I have gotten stronger mentality and emotional that's good. More nervous than anything going to middle school but feeling so proud of myself that I did it and ready for it again. Here we go sixth grade with that anxious feeling and the feeling of lost of where am I supposed to go or with who to look for. And I'm still not happy with wearing uniform again I remember getting off the bus with my black dickies and green converse and blue shirt with a high ponytail by the way it was still a struggle finding clothes. I didn't have my head down no more I need to keep my head up no matter what, and from there it was like that all year just keeping quiet and exploring around and seeing what other things I can do that were interesting that how I spent my sixth grade. Seventh grade I was fearless and ready I knew that I would get to sport right to it and I love me even more. I actually felt that I had everything under control I like how my grades where showing not terribly at all and I found myself loving me and caring about me and not let anything bother me. But something velish happened that a year that changed everything for me I can't say much. It is hurtful and disgusting for any chance I remember I know that I will tear up again. All I can say that poor Jackie was torn apart and all a million pieces of her soul scattered on the floor. Leading to eight grade and no I didn't recover at all I was more vulnerable than anything. It past like a breeze I wasn't doing too well I just wanted to be over. Sure I kept myself occupied for I wouldn't get the chance to remember, but it didn't work. I kept more distance and more quiet than usual. Just like a wound it just that this wound doesn't heal. Ninth grade no I will still hurting I felt numb my family help me out to forget. Getting to new school helped me I started new and I thought it will get better. It did I was making friends and seeing what was there for me, but I felt secure having my brother with me I was happy for it. I Had fun being in school with him and I didn't feel alone again. Tenth grade I learned about athletic trainers so I tried it out. It was fun I got to meet a lot of people and I started to slowly recover. I spent my whole year there and I was glad I could of be part of the athletic trainers. Here I am eleventh grade tough start spending my time sitting down looking at a screen, and trying to get my life together like I will want it. You see Jackie has had a pretty rough years and feeling that my heart could come out at any moment. Hoping that this little of me can now help you who is reading this get a preview of who I am as a person, but this is not the end of my story there is still more to come…
I wrote this story because in these moments when I am more at home with myself and my thoughts made me think of my past and how in every stage of my life I fight to love me and care for me. And that in every words there are expressions of me. That why I choose to write my story my life just like if you open a book and took a peek and read.
The title of my story is called preview and the author is Jacqueline Santos. Main message of the story is life is not easy it has ups and down. In my story I made it more vivid by expressing myself my feelings and showing who I am. For example in paragraph 1 how gave details about the uniforms that I didn't like and I had were.
I begin by giving a brief description of my younger self in paragraph 1 but in my intro I made it in a way that will make you want to read my story because there that difference between other stories. Also showing you that it's going to be a pretty interesting story and to get yourself comfortable. In paragraph 2 and 3 I give details of how I was feeling and example of how I was dress for school. The structure of my story is description because in every paragraph I want to give specific details how what is going on. My main message is that life is full of ups and downs and slowly by time it will get better. I end my story by keeping you still intrige in the way that my story will still continue. I do feel that it is effective because I want to write for you to end up by knowing who I am.
What is important to me is that my words were not just simple words they were words that you could feel. The literary devices that I use were similes and metaphors all over my story for example I refer my life like a roller coaster and metaphor pisces of my heart stactter all over the floor. These word that I put gave that sense that my story could show emotions through words. The tone of the story is sentimental because I write my true honest emotions in that persis moment that every event happen to me and going back to my past.
My purpose in writing this story to show that life can be full of complications and situation you main not know why it happen. But either way time will do its job to make your life better and more peaceful. There reflected in my own thought and want to be that person that is not afraid and that am brave for anything that will in the near future. My audience is who is interested to know who I am but also if you just want to know something about someone past. Choices that I made that will connect with audience is real life events and those true emotions that when you read you can also feel them.