reBirth Ceremonies

[rough draft]

My reBirth ceremonies are where I shave my  hair every 3 years and think deliberately about my past, my future, my dreams and the trajectory of my Destiny. This physical transformation is coupled with a spiritual transformation.  In the first 3 years, I shave everything except the Mullet of Destiny which represents that some ideas will echo into the next 3 years.  After that, my hair grows back and 3 years later I shave everything for a complete reBirth which usually signals a fundamental change in my life.  Each reBirth ceremony usually signals a new era that is thematically different than the one before. 

rebirth 2022: 

reBirth 2020: The Age of Dissemination

reBirth 2017 : The Age of Blooming 

reBirth 2014:  The Age of Growth

reBirth 2011: The Age of Uncertainty

Introduction

My rebirth ceremonies initially began in  high school, where my identity was tied to grades.  My inability to get good grades made me feel worthless and generated self hatred and discuss.  Around this time, I also felt social pressure to fit in and look good but I never felt that I could achieve those standard. One formative memory in high school was thinking that I was so ugly and that somehow by avoiding looking at myself in the mirror for a week, I would look better.  I remember thinking how trapped and dependent I became with society. 

That is where the name SOMDE was born: State of Mind Detached Existence. It was created to be a kewl gamer name but its purpose was to represent the ideology that I needed to detach from the outcomes and only focus on my duty.  To practice this, I would shave weird patterns into my head and then eventually shaved all of my hair. I wanted to detach from my need to please society.