"Despair"
(1995-1996)
It Tickled When We Kissed
It tickled when we kissed with closed lips
When you lay blissfully in my arms
And we rested in the grass
Then I understood
An honest woman
Is the most noble work God created
It tickled when we kissed it tickled when we kissed
It tickled when we kissed with moving tongues
The fantastic feeling
In the belly
Made us lose in the lusts
Of loving sound
You are my muse
Words were no longer used
It tickled when we kissed it tickled when we kissed
Silent Scream
Condemned to be hanged
Tell me your dreams
And show me your secrets
You too must live as a prisoner
We utter a silent scream
And sing behind bars
Let out a silent scream
When you scream very loudly
No one wants to hear it
No matter how softly you cry
And together we share the cell
But you keep your distance
I know
Never a wish come true that feels
Rotten
We utter a silent scream
And sing behind bars
Let out a silent scream
When you scream very loudly
No one wants to hear it
No matter how softly you cry
Hasta La Vista
It no longer clicks
We no longer agree
So, it's time for me
To step up
Hasta la vista
But I can't go anywhere
I'm trapped here
Between bags and cardboard boxes
Trapped in a warehouse
That once was a house
Once a home
It no longer clicks
We can't talk anymore
So, it's time for me
To leave
Hasta la vista
But I can't leave
I'm stuck here
In thoughts that are not mine
There are no challenges left
What I can meet
Or accept
It no longer clicks
We no longer listen to each other
So, it's time for me
To move on
Hasta la vista
Towards the unknown
Maybe it will bring fame
Maybe it brings decay
But something is certain
I'll go to
Where it's different
Hasta la vista
Bye
Farewell
Hasta la vista
Brother's Keeper
We can't go back
You see it on TV
Heroism is a
Contagious idea
It spreads quickly
Nothing is that simple
But is everything my fault?
No, I am not
Not my brother's keeper
Not my brother's keeper
From heaven
Straight to hell
Shed the tears of sorrow
They slowly wash away all feeling
Is everything my fault then?
No, I am not
Not my brother's keeper
Not my brother's keeper
Not my brother's keeper
Not my brother's keeper
The sorrow or joy is
Not my brother's keeper
Not my brother's keeper
No, not my brother's keeper
Black Sheep
I almost lost myself to that
Woman
And I soon understood
You were the best of my life
You looked
Lovely tonight
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
You were so hated
So egocentric
We looked at each other for a long time
This had never happened
And suddenly everyone became
An entertaining critic
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
And with your beautiful, cute mouth
Did you wake up
A sleeping dog
Your face there in
The shine of the city lights has
Touched my soul
I almost lost myself to that
Woman
And I soon understood
You were the best of my life
You looked
Lovely tonight
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
Black sheep tell me what to do
Rule my dreams
Black sheep I can't see anyone now
Rule my dreams
Black sheep I can't see anyone now
Will sleep come very soon?
Chameleon
Is it you
Will the loneliness
Disappear now
Are you
Worth the risk
Are you her
The true in the truth
Who will make me one
Are you
The woman from my dream
Who shall I be to you
Who should I be for you
Who can I be for you
Can I be myself for you
Your hair
Is so beautiful, long, and blonde
Like a goddess
And your
Body is so healthy
Your eyes
Are so beautiful round and blue
If you don't smile
And you
Love to run before dawn
Who shall I be to you
Who should I be for you
Who can I be for you
Can I be myself for you
And you like to laugh so much
And you talk happily
Who can I be for you
Who should I be for you
And you look so beautiful
Who can I be for you
And you smell good
Can I be myself for you
Oh yes yes yes
Who shall I be to you
Who should I be for you
Who can I be for you
Can I be myself for you
The Threat Of You
Today is Valentine's Day
A day that should be nice
Ten years have already passed
But I only feel the pain
I got from you
The threat of you
Words are superfluous
It's in the air
We know what we want
We know what we feel
And I think back to that time
We do everything for a reunion
Maybe something will grow out of this
Yet we don't talk much
We turn around it
And I think back to that time
Today is Valentine's Day
A day that should be nice
Ten years have already passed
But I only feel the pain
I got from you
The threat of you
The sun is already setting
When I come to you
We don't think about yesterday anymore
And don't worry about tomorrow
Today is the time
Today is Valentine's Day
A day that should be nice
Ten years have already passed
And I feel incredibly happy
Today is the time
Eye Spy
Then there is no end
Is there no escape
Escape from the eyes
You always look
Do not you see
The eye is the enemy
It always follows us
And people talk
Then there is no end
Is there no escape
Escape from the eyes
It's always there
With the slogan
Look, see and rate
It's always watching us
And people talk
Then there is no end
Is there no escape
Escape from the eyes
By what right
Are you searching my stuff?
By what right
Do you rummage through my stuff
And then the hypocrisy
Then there is no end
Is there no escape
Escape from the eyes
Eye spy eye spy
I don't know why
But look back
A storm ensues
Midnight In Hell
Appointment at midnight in hell
She can't go any deeper
Everything for the mighty paper
For her an act without pleasure
An escape from reality for him
And she dreams of a better life
And an appointment at noon in heaven
It's time for her
To hit the streets again
She has to go somewhere nowhere
To someone nobody made of stone
There's a man waiting for her
In a room in the night
She has to go somewhere nowhere
To someone nobody made of stone
Appointment at midnight in hell
She can't go any deeper
Everything for the mighty paper
For her an act without pleasure
An escape from reality for him
And she dreams of a better life
And an appointment at noon in heaven
How did she end up here
Was her life that bad?
She has to go somewhere nowhere
To someone nobody made of stone
A friend swims in her loneliness
For she has no time for him
She has to go somewhere nowhere
To someone nobody made of stone
Appointment at midnight in hell
She can't go any deeper
Everything for the mighty paper
For her an act without pleasure
An escape from reality for him
And she dreams of a better life
And an appointment at noon in heaven
And he waits
And she dreams
Midday Sun
When the sun is highest
I forget the unhappy luck
It broke me inside
When the sun is highest
This insensitive feeling disappears
You understand what I mean
When the sun is highest
I discover a loveless love
When her rays cut through me
Midday Sun Midday Sun
I wish it could stay that way
When the sun is at its highest
Departs the unimportant importance
Which I no longer desire
When the sun is highest
That daunting encouragement fades
With an immovable movement
Midday Sun Midday Sun
I wish it could stay that way
When the sun is highest
Uncivilized civilization eludes me
Because of a power-hungry addiction
Midday Sun Midday Sun
I wish it could stay that way
Enjoy an unanswered answer
On a guilty innocence
Midday Sun Midday Sun
I wish it could stay that way
Despair
This feeling can propel you
In all directions
Black and white are only 2 colors
Of the range
I write you a sweet word
But in a way it doesn't affect you
There is no golden gate
If you don't see it with your own eyes
Despair if you are looking for nothing and
Despair when you stop looking
And
Despair if you find nothing and
Despair despair
Black swallows everything
White bundles everything together nicely
So, they are no longer
True colors
An all-meaning word
Whose value so eludes us
When you hear about it
But the beauty never fades
Despair if you are looking for nothing and
Despair when you stop looking
And
Despair if you find nothing and
Despair despair
Night Of The Sticker
This feeling can propel you
Where is the world going
People show their finger
People use vulgar words
I don't mind this so much
If only it were a little more in place
What is happening in the world
Tell me the good news
Tell me and you'll be done faster
I don't mind this so much
If only it happened more
You have nothing
And I have something
You have something
And I have nothing
Is this a reason to kill?
Does this then give the right to steal
Is this the reason to break in?
Where does jealousy come from
People commit violence there
People break the law there
I think this is so bad
Because the victim pays
Where does greed come from
Can't be progressive
Can't improve on it
I think this is so bad
Because you've been sweating blood and tears
You have nothing
And I have something
You have something
And I have nothing
Is this a reason to kill?
Does this then give the right to steal
Is this the reason to break in?
Was it for the satisfaction
Was it vandalism?
Was it an expression
To me or the government
Of your displeasure
Whatever the why
You have nothing
And I have something
You have something
And I have nothing
Is this a reason to kill?
Does this then give the right to steal
Is this the reason to break in?
The Secrets Of You
You show great courage
This proves you do
Or was it an act of desperation
That would make someone sell their heart
You started your search
Because you want to continue booking
And all the mischief you leave behind
Stays with you wherever you go
The secrets of you
Are unapproachable
Your desire, however, is not
The secrets of you
Are unreachable
So, no one really sees you
So alone
Do you also find it difficult
To trust someone?
The feeling is untold
When you think back to the claws
Were you lost the meaning of life
For a moment
Now to take the bull by the horns
And honor someone with your presence
The secrets of you
Are unapproachable
Your desire, however, is not
The secrets of you
Are unreachable
So, no one really sees you
So alone
Maybe I'm rhyming
To glue the pieces of your heart
Or looking for a soul mate
Oh, I can't control it anymore
The secrets of you
Are unapproachable
Your desire, however, is not
The secrets of you
Are unreachable
The secrets of you
Are negotiable
The secrets of you
Are understandable
The secrets of you
Are sacred
Because it comes down to this
The secrets of you
Are safe
Maybe you're not so
Alone now
You Meet Me
You meet me
'Cause you're in my chair
And when you look at me
You'll understand what I mean
You meet me
When you apologize
When you disappear with her
It hurts inside
And you talk a bit
And you smile a little
Your smile is so beautiful
And you chuckle
You meet me
When she comes back
Because the places next to me are still free
And plops down next to me
You meet me
I come here often too
She says to me
And then the conversation ends
And you talk a bit
And you smile a little
Your smile is so beautiful
And you chuckle
You take a hand
It's not mine
But from your girlfriend
And you hug
And you caress
And she kisses
With her girlfriend
Earth
We must ground on the earth
On the earth earth earth
There's a time to go
And a time to come
And the time to go
You know has come now
Wish me luck
We must ground on the earth
On the earth earth earth
New circumstances
Offer me
New possibilities
New circumstances
Offer me
New possibilities
You do what you can
Sometimes that is no longer enough
And you do what you have to
Even if it's too early
But it has to happen sometime
We must ground on the earth
On the earth earth earth
New circumstances
Offer me
New possibilities
New circumstances
Offer me
New possibilities
Terrible 4
I want to go back where we come from
I want to make everything right again
In a time when the trees were green
And happiness shouted from the rooftops
Wait a minute
The terrible 4
Come stay here
'Cause I'm so afraid
Of the terrible 4
I don't want you to hate me
I don't want you to let go of love
I do not want you to leave
I don't want the past to die
I know a difference of opinion
Sometimes turns into a big fight
And is it necessary that you scream
Until I see the truth
Wait a minute
The terrible 4
Come stay here
'Cause I'm so afraid
Of the terrible 4
I don't want you to hate me
I don't want you to let go of love
I do not want you to leave
I don't want the past to die
Negative Consequences
I'm waiting
They can do whatever they want
And I'm stuck
There are no more ways out
I go alone
To a place far away
Where everyone goes
We'll meet there
And death will come
Leaves fall from the trees
And they give way to the
Negative consequences
After flowering come the good ones
People come to visit me
Looking through a window
Behind my folding screen
Just an unnamed name
Then you came in
Taking my heart for the first time
Like a mosquito you come back
For more
And death will come
Leaves fall from the trees
And they give way to the
Negative consequences
After flowering come the good ones
I feel it coming
My heart is beating slowly now
And they ask me the question
But I tell them
Leave me alone
Before was then
Today is nothing more than now
Before was good
And death will come
Leaves fall from the trees
And they give way to the
Negative consequences
After flowering come the good ones
The clock keeps ticking
Yet I keep thinking about it
Others can stand
Desire to go
And death will come
Leaves fall from the trees
And they give way to the
Negative consequences
After flowering come the good ones
Water
And in the end
I'm swimming in water
For I've been struck
By blindness
Who throws me a lifebuoy or
Some other kind of help
This time I can't do it alone
Didn't I just see you standing there
It happened once again
And
I add some water to the
Wine
And in the end
I'm swimming in water
For I've been struck
By blindness
Everything gets wet around me here
Maybe I'm chasing a dream
And playing to win
But in your game, there are no winners
It happened once again
And
I add some water to the
Wine
It happened once again
And
I add some water to the
Wine
The Last Dance
Can I tell you something
I wanted to ask you
Go out sometime
If there is a chance
Because I think you're pure
Naturally clean
One thing I know for sure
The last dance the last dance
Should I just be with you
The last dance the last dance
Should I just do it with you
I just have to do the last dance with you
With my little luck
I don't ask you
And my courage can
Calm
I'm free
But if you want it
Just let me know that
The last dance the last dance
Should I just be with you
The last dance the last dance
Should I just do it with you
I just have to do the last dance with you
The last dance the last dance
Should I just be with you
The last dance the last dance
Should I just do it with you
I just have to do the last dance with you
I just have to do the last dance with you
The Wrong Place At The Right Time
I would like to tell you so much
But again, and again you surprise me
I don't remember where I got it
Stupidity overwhelms me every time
I want you away from me
I want you with me
I'm in the wrong place
At the right time through the deadly nightshade
Where despair brings life
I would like to make you feel so much
But I don't want to hurt you
I know because of you I am
Always out of my normal doing
I want you away from me
I want you with me
I'm in the wrong place
At the right time through the deadly nightshade
Where despair brings life
I see you in full action
And the desperate love
Slowly seeps from my brain
When you enter our world
I want you away from me
I want you with me
I'm in the wrong place
At the right time through the deadly nightshade
Where despair brings life
Drown Slowly
You stayed near me
That was exceedingly difficult
You stayed near me
It was more than sports
It was a metaphor
And it sucked eggs
You stayed near me
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
Though hope is dead
You stayed near me
That is why I wrote this letter
You stayed near me
I was helpless
It was a metaphor
And it sucked eggs
You stayed near me
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
I try not to think about them
The game isn't over yet
Though hope is dead
A Watershed
Am I cursed to live
In an interesting time
But we have a bigger problem
I've seen the future
And it floated below the surface
A dream
Of fire and flood
And explosions and angels
A waterfall of poor water falls down
Before us
Because the end of the world then
Washes away for us
For us
In down
The need for air burns in my lungs
In desperation I go upstairs for
Air
And every bite tastes even better than the last
Sweaty bodies
A little too red some
With pain on their faces
Can't turn off an idea
For virtue is its own reward
Can't turn off an idea
For virtue is its own reward
A waterfall of poor water falls down
Before us
Because the end of the world then
Washes away for us
And through a watershed fate swims
For us
In down
And we just keep swimming
Straight through raging waters
Repatriation
You have tears in your eyes
It's not because of the cold
Of the icy wind
But you are in mourning
A loss always hurts
Tears flow through your veins
Such a loss is great
They get stuck in your heart and head
And the tears are red
By that surprised expected pain
Suddenly it's over
Time to put an end to it
Suddenly everything seems to be over for good
No man could prevent this
You only have memories
It's no consolation at all
And the words fail
But you still have your offspring
Maybe this will ease the pain
Memories of this character
It wasn't just anyone
Taken from life
But you still held his hand
There was no pain then
Suddenly it's over
Time to put an end to it
Suddenly everything seems to be over for good
No man could prevent this
It hurts so damned
Because you love him
There will come a time that will be better
That love never gets cold
Is life a lie
And then comes the truth
When opening the doors
Everyone opts for that certainty
Suddenly it's over
Time to put an end to it
Suddenly everything seems to be over for good
No man could prevent this
It hurts so damned
Because you love him
There will come a time that will be better
That love never gets cold
The World Of Tomorrow
You say you belong to another
But then you no longer have the right to freedom
You are a prisoner in his world
Maybe without real love
And always believe in the great love
Keep promising eternal love
And always conquer true love
But every time the heart is broken
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is reached
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is watching
You are the embodiment of love
A radiance of purity in happiness
Who of overwhelming purity
Was fashioned to accompany me
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is reached
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is watching
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is reached
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is watching
When we belong to others
It never completely ends
Every time heart
And soul are enchanted
Even when we want
To charm others
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is reached
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is watching
Yesterday you decided to leave
Yesterday you were looking for shelter
Yesterday I offered you a ride
And we celebrated
Our meeting there
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is reached
The world of tomorrow
The world of tomorrow is watching
Homecoming
This is the day that keeps coming back
And you can be sure
The Earth revolves around the sun for one year
She gives us her warm glow
Today is the day just for you
In that cold period
Today the appearance is only for you
And here I bring my tribute
I came here to look for answers
I so wanted to hear the truth
With two ears
With two eyes
For innocence was born
This could be paradise
But there is a snake in the garden
Lies can be spun
Secrets can be hidden
You came here looking for our answers
You're aiming too high
Nice and neat
All the rules have changed
Forces are scurried
And the weapons gathered
When man shudders shudders
I know
My whole life is a lie
What can happen now
Once was my existence
Nice and neat
Set aside the sad fact of the truth
My whole life is a lie
You would love to hear the truth
With two ears
With two eyes
Because here time was broken