Agastya Rai

This is the last ICE blog I'm ever going to write.

Writing this feels surreal, and there's a sense of finality that comes with it.

Might as well make my last blog like my first.

A rushed rambling train of thought vaguely connected to the subject matter.

I'm still not sure I'd consider myself a Canadian. I think my heart will always remain in the sunlit hills of South Africa, and I'd elaborate on that but I don't think turning my blog into a melodramatic poem feels like the right sendoff.

Despite that, I still remember feeling a sense of belonging when I sat by the fire at night on our winter camping trip and heard the tale of Sam Mcgee.

That tale was almost like a lullaby.

Of course by that logic, my blogs are all lullabies too.

And this is the final one.

"Final Lullaby". Not a bad title. Actually the title of a song by the Weeknd, and a good song. As the title suggests, it's sad.

As a student I've gotten much better at well doing this. If I had to give an example I'd probably say right now.

Honestly if I were to write something like this at the start of the year (yes I know that's impossible but bear with me anyways) I'd probably just spit out some fake response that, while not representing my actual thoughts would be a pleasing or "correct" answer.

Now though, I'm not thinking about if the people (more like person but whatever) who read this will like or even care about what I'm saying.

Finally how I changed as a person.

One thing I'm proud of is how much better I've gotten at both speaking my mind and speaking up for myself while also improving at taking feedback and being more open-minded.

The best example of this is winter camping. I was reluctant to do it and spoke up about not wanting to do it. But I kept an open mind nevertheless, did the prep day, enjoyed it and went anyways.

Did I like winter camping that much? It helped me grow closer to my friends, get to know myself better and help my survival skill.

But, if you held a gun to my head and told me to do it again, I'd tell you to shoot me.

And that's it.

That's it.

It's over.

I suppose that's officially the end of this blog.

It's time for me to put this whole thing to rest.

I'll close with some lyrics from the song that this blog shares a title with.

"I hope you find peace"

"Close your eyes as I put us to sleep"

Goodbye.

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