Your voice surrounds me
wherever i go
Complete silence seems eons away
It seems almost impossible to forget the hymn of your voice
and the softness of your words
now that I’ve grown familiar with them
No matter how far i push you away
no matter what i say
your voice will never stray away
as i submerge myself in water
your voice is finally blurred out to a whisper
rather than a constant shout
i can see your lips move
but hear nothing coming out
but this sweet paradise only lasts for a minute
I try to fight it
but the urge to push myself to the surface
wins over even my strongest desires
as i make my way to the surface
at the very moment that my head emerges from the depths of the ocean
i immediately long for the feeling of
being underwater
without your voice constantly buzzing around my head
torturing me
tormenting me
in that very moment
i wish to be able to exist
without the constant reminder of what i lost
for more than a minute at a time