Written many years ago by
Wendy Stephany
I understand I am your child
and you are my father.
We are as one, though I try
to hide. Everyday I wake up
and ask you to help me.
I thank you for my life
and my world and you give
me the love I need.
I wish I felt more confident
about myself father
and I want so badly to
love and be one with
one of your children.
I just don't know what to
do about this. He and I
can be free - I know, you
always tell me so. The only
thing is - is that I know that
you and I are happiness
together when I do what
I feel you want me to;
but now that he is here,
I am scared. I care a lot
for him, so far God,and I
know that you would tell
me to let the fear go and
give it to you. So now
- here it is, take it!
I am asking you in this
letter to help me believe
in myself enough to let go
of this abandonment issue.
It is killing me and driving
him away. That is definately
not what I want though
I keep pushing and shoving
always wanting to know why.
This is not your will, I know.
What ever happens father
- please give me strength and
willingness to keep going no
matter what. Please help me
to only worry about those who
I can help - you and me. Please
give me hope and trust that we
can do this together. Thank you
for listening. I need you so bad
in my life and I know that I don't
want to be sad and lonely
so please guide me as I go
through these life changes.
I don't want to resist your will.
I want for us to be close. Amen.
P.S. God, please give me a
chance with this man.
I've never wanted someone
in my life like this since my
first boyfriend, Scott.
It is hard because I want him too bad.
Help me to let go and let you run this.
Not me. Thanks.