A Detox Moment

Written By: Wendy Stephany Many Moons Ago!!

This is what i am thinking

to myself.....As I sit in

a detox center.And now where

can I be?I feel as though

things are so different now

that I have come to a

realization. See, touch,

taste, feel the vibrations

of different things. So that

is what it takes to become

someone. Every morning I wake

up and see people wondering

around. This is what I am

thinking to myself...

Where did I come from?

What will I be? Many things

will change and I have to

differentiate with things

I do not like and haven't

for a long time. I will

have to become 'someone'

by doing things to try to

change. What can I do to

make myself a better person?

I have to wake up in the

morning, go to the gathering

in the conference room and

have a good day. Everyday

should be spent in the effort

of being happy and well spent.

Motivation and strife for what

is right is important through

the day. I have to keep on

Keepin on and stop telling

myself that it sucks being here -

because if I leave , their goes

money well spent if it did any

help -. How can I start? I am a

person who feels kind of upset -

about what? I guess grudges

and society I guess you could

call it. There has been a lot

of turmoil and craziness in my

life in the last few years

that has kind of left me scars.

Things that I have done in the

past to myself, to my family,

and even strangers that have

been left uncalled for. I

have to say it has been quite

an experience but I put myself in

many of theses situations. I've

been harming myself because the

thoughts I have from these

mistakes linger in my mind and

I get depressed a lot because

I know that I can't shut the door

on nor open it back up. If I can

manage to get myself back into a

medium balanced area in my recovery,

I can feel more secure in my actions.

I know I'm not crazy - I am a

normal person who has problems

just like anybody else. Some people

may have worse problems than me,