Notes

Notes to self for the public eye.

Poems about the fun of cancer and chemo and like feelings and experiences.

Dementia for sure, already done.

Breathing, done

Domestic Violence, from the female perspective?

Suicide dark humor

Slashing, of self and why?

Poems ideas:

Longing so far, so good.

Vengence and demand for it and obsesssion.

Anne and my affection for her, and who else? Confusion on who I have affection for.

Love lost?

Vengence for sure.

How to love and show love and express it and not be mistaken or worse? Fear of showing love cause of past mistakes and

worse, they react badly to things? Can't just reach over and grab them for one, or get them drunk or worse.

Competent Women that a women need not show flesh, cleavage to get tips, but good service should be all?

Dementia and holding on to what we are and was and sliding into it..

12 Steps, possible poem?

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Ideas:

Play guitar, it should be easy once I remember what I do know and have a guitar?

Calligraphy, same.

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BUDDY AIDE!

1-800-342-9647 or 1-866-966-1020

DCOE Outreach Center.

1-800-263-8255 Veterans Administration Suicide Hotline, Non-DOD, they do not share info with your command/boss unless you ask them to,

so call and talk!The life you save, may be your own!

Buddy Aide!

1-907-388-2553 Local Fort Wainwright Mental Health Office!

452-4357 Local Care line Crisis Intervention.

http://www.militaryonesource.com for US Military and families. PTSD and other mental health related problems.

http://www.depressionisreal.org/depression-resources.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholics_Anonymous related programs for narcotics/other addictions, and emotional needs.

WELCOME HOME!

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10 November, 2011 14:05:52

Most done before the above date.

the_new_owner_of_booksandlittwo@yahoo.com and suicidal thoughts and one other poem..

REFINERY:

Was Erika flirting with me or something? She moving back and forth, where I had almost no choice but to look and watch her tits?

She is hot, but is she my type, other than married, attractive and large breasts? Did not enjoy the beating off, feel ...

I wish she was my wife and she was into nighties and such. Erika is fucking HOT but . she is a friend and very married.

Or I was just hallucinating last nite?

Likely hallucinating, I wonder what happened to her and where she is now, hope she is happy!

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BUSINESS:

CAB/TAXI:

Got to call my business, and see if I can work tonight or what?

Cab driving, alot of fun.

WORK:

Ester and check it out? www.geogroup.com Bust or what happened, or I just wandered off again?

Argh, not tonight, damn, just to damn tired from last nite.. But heh, the guys was happy and hope they felt welcome home!

Number 81 for this weekend, all cause Kat told Bill to Jump.. What a group, I need out of cab driving and especially the ones where women are running things, even if they are from behihd..

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RECOVERY:

12 steps (more info and see about following them more or look for other ways than just them?).

I was Spock

PTSD or just Pon Far

Tai Chi, and like more information.

Things to do today or by next week..

Perfect WOrld what would it be for me?

Positive things to do? What is positive activities to do and how to do them?

List of things to do and do them? How to make it all happen?

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GOVERNMENT:

Block Government

CIVIL RIGHTS:

Civil Civitis

Block Government

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HUMOR:

T-SHIRTS:

Vaginally Challenged can I borrow yours?

Drama Free Zone, so I don't get laid.

Wheres the horny people at?

Meth T-Shirts

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TO DO I KNOW I CAN DO:

Wake up tomorrow

Work or Not work

Called works people, Wed 6pm state building.

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MUSIC I LIKE:

Muse

Cranberrys

Howling for you? Who does it?

Live - Lightning Crash

Santana - Maria

89.9 radio?

EFF blocked or it is hard to get to it?

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NETWORK THOUGHTS:

I wonder how many of my addresses/phones numbers are now in some database at MCD Corps? Same with B&N?

Also the cookie from using MCD connect, how long will it last and is it more like a Worm than a cookie?

I wonder how much of the content of my HD is now known by MCD/B&N or who else?

Or just my music/video info for a music/video company to market things?

PHILOSOPHY:

Tai Chi, and like more information.

Reality this is all we know and see.

There is likely more, but we don't have the way and means to see it, other than can see from what we know and see that there is more..

We are all likely bubbles that effect other bubbles, or cells effecting other cells, pushing forcing or working with other cells to

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sholland@uofport.edu and alternate earths and like.. Likely the email address is long gone but ..

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WORK/LIFE:

I am noticed by some of the oddest people, when I want notice, I am ignored, or not seen.

Wierdness magnent for sure.

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Money making, how to make money and have an income?

Meth T-shirts for one, but what else?

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Sticks and stones may brake my bones but naughty sex excites me! So roll me over spank my ass and show me that u love me!! lol

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BUDDY AIDE!

1-800-342-9647 or 1-866-966-1020

DCOE Outreach Center.

1-800-263-8255 Veterans Administration Suicide Hotline, Non-DOD, they do not share info with your command/boss unless you ask them to,

so call and talk!The life you save, may be your own!

Buddy Aide!

1-907-388-2553 Local Fort Wainwright Mental Health Office!

452-4357 Local Care line Crisis Intervention.

http://www.militaryonesource.com for US Military and families. PTSD and other mental health related problems.

http://www.depressionisreal.org/depression-resources.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholics_Anonymous related programs for narcotics/other addictions, and emotional needs.

WELCOME HOME!

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Dealing with peoples special needs and like.. I know my local group has been patient with my esoteric nature. How and ways and means to help members and visitors deal with needs, such as wheel chairs, and more? Yes, seen some on the West List, as well as the more esoteric needs of people? I know I am ADHD and it really shows when I am just off work, and I get a little odd. Yes, its why I find I can oddly deal with meth/speed freaks while driving cab.

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evyn.macdude@gmail.com

spunkybrat007@gmail.com

karenpassion0455@yahoo.com

karenpassion0465@yahoo.com

nsheldonk40@yahoo.com

Going thru old email addresses and seeing who is still alive, sorry

for any duplication of effort. I have you in my gaming category, such

as for Abrigon World or like, but ..

Let me know, keep, or delete or what? Like post apocalyptic worlds

with vampire and high tech and green house gases and little light?

Mike

Alaska

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Poetry-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Adulthumor-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Abrigon-World/

Going thru old email addresses and seeing who is still alive, sorry for any duplication of effort. Or recontact.. Just seeing who to delete/remove/etc. Let me know, keep, or delete or what?

So who next to put on my list of no contact. Doing the VA fun, got meds for my depression and hyper nature 45 years late. Now days, working on the underlying reasons I am still sober. Much is having to do with now long dead friends and how they died, most due to in part to alcohol. Some fellow soldiers, some former soldiers, some just friends, for a man like me who had few friends, it was special to have friends, to get drunk with, share stories, and just be.. Had a lot of fun, but some pain. So I write poetry, to deal with it, to remember, to honor some, ask why some do things and why, the ironies of life.. Been having a lot of fun the last 4 or so years, I am no longer Spock.. Dealing with frustrations a bit easier, learning to trust myself.. To no longer stuff and stuff, and to send things to my "happy place" its getting quite green like a jungle.. Human shit it not very fertile, but . a lot of it can make for ..

Like post apocalyptic worlds with vampires and high tech and green house gases and little light? Working on some book ideas, the fun of vampires, or cabbies, or special needs people. Knighthood and the modern age? Still working on book or two of poetry, not sure about role play (table) and war gaming.

Mike Adams

Alaska

Former SPC AK ARNG Scout

42A/11B/EMT/CNA/Cabbie/Bus Driver/Special Needs bus driver and a number of other work. Rather worked with robots, such as UAVs and UGV and like vehicles..

Domo, Tooda, Shook'gria, Basiba, Masiq-cho, Danke, Merci, Mondo Gratsi, Gracias, ShuShu.. Sorry if spelled wrong, just know how it sounds.

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Poetry-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Adulthumor-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Abrigon-World/

P-I CHOOSE LIFE:

as I sit here in this chair,

I choose to live, and face

all before me alive, and

walk in the light of happiness,

joy and living people..

To walk the sunshine path

and let the past go away and

fall away.. and choose life!!

Mike Adams

2011

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So whose alive, wish to connect or not connect.. Been trying to clean out my address book, sorry if already contacted and all, its been alot of fun editing some 30,000 or so email addresses, most are duplicates so more like around 14,000 or so..

Me, doing the VA, got meds for my hyper nature and dysthemia (long term depression) and a happy light, also finally got the C-PAP machine for my sleep apnea, was supposed to get one like 3-4 years ago, but .. VA can be a little bit slow at times, but I get along with some of the local people.. Feeling healthier than I was.. Also working on talking the weather, its alot more positive to talk about than many things.. So how is weather for you?

Mike Adams

Alaska

P-I CHOOSE LIFE:

as I sit here in this chair,

I choose to live, and face

all before me alive, and

walk in the light of happiness,

joy and living people..

To walk the sunshine path

and let the past go away and

fall away.. and choose life!!

Mike Adams

2011

Thank you Flossie, a nice gal, we had a date in 1989, but never had a second, I came home to my dad, beyond hope.. Recently remade contact, our lives seem to have much in common, the fun of the balance of self preservation and destruction. Forgiving self for the past, but try to save some in the process. Empathy is a lot of fun.

Your welcome Mom, long story..

Made contact with my "daughter" she is nicely still alive, now 19, but could be better.. The fun of finding your not the biological father, but still wanting to be dad.. But then having to give it all up, in the name of self preservation? or I had hoped it would be better for her. Nicely I am still around, so I can tell her, it was very fun to be her dad and to have someone else to live for.. To be called "Daddy"... Still writing poetry, but working on happier, less adult, well less erotic, but happier.. Will see how it all goes.. Book maybe one day.. "Poetry from the dark into the light"..

Part of this reconnect is basically to see if anyone needs anything? or like to network, or ... I do have other skills than to be annoying.

I was to share my Buddy Aide card, I used to have people in my cab, who really seemed to need someone to talk to, several were soldiers, the fun of flash backs, anger, crying, drinking to much and other fun.. Empathy is dearly bought at times, but .. The problem of reconnecting is, that sometimes you know people for a short time, and they are gone..

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49H9H KGW6F WFWXM 49F92 T2MMK

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Gmx and Gmail and what other tagged userids do I have and what is their contact lists and what is recoverable?

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Trash can in corner for pepsi and like bottles..

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Drive and be ready for interview at 930 and vocrehab at 2pm.Done YES, don't think either was successful but ..

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Poems of life, love and happy thoughts?

WEather and storms?

P-Ride the Wind

To ride the storm,

it flies in, filtering

my mind, rising me up and

into the sky to leave

all mortal things behind

and ride the wind, to feel

it lift me up, and thru me

changing me into a being of

air and light, and ride the

winds and feel all float away

and no long earth but now

air and fire.

Mike Adams

2011

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Poem about Lamia, or its not needed since she is long gone and does not want anything to do with me.. Likely so.

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Poems ideas:

Longing so far, so good.

Vengence and demand for it and obsesssion.

Anne and my affection for her, and who else? Confusion on who I have affection for.

Love lost?

Vengence for sure.

How to love and show love and express it and not be mistaken or worse? Fear of showing love cause of past mistakes and

worse, they react badly to things? Can't just reach over and grab them for one, or get them drunk or worse.

Competent Women that a women need not show flesh, cleavage to get tips, but good service should be all?

Dementia and holding on to what we are and was and sliding into it.. Done with Lost Life?

P-Lost Self

Who am I

or was I

I a know

I am loved

but not sure

why for I

have forgotten

who this person

is beside me,

they love me

I know but

why, I have

forgotten for

it is just

filtered and

grey and memories

that seem distant

and many lost

in the abyss that

is now my past

she sits

next to me

and shows me love

but I feel something

but forget why

who and what it was

for all is slowly

sliding away and

I feel hurt

sad and to

please let me go

for I am gone and

it hurts to see

the pain in your eyes

and the fear I feel

in where I am

or was or going

or why you still

hold me close

but I have forgotten

who you are, or was

but only know what

you say you are, wife,

mother, brother,

husband and children

but are you sure

for I know you not,

but know I should

know you and I feel

for you and dim

memories of you or

lost and dying slowly

Thank you, I think

but for what

not sure why but

I feel the love

for your staying on

for when I remember

I know you and am lucid

but its fading more

and more and damn

I have pissed

I think it is what

it is, or druel

or just sorry

I can not speak

or even hold words

in my mind for

what.. lost it

focus gone..

Night I know

let me go, but

you refuse but

why, who was I

what was I and ...

Mike Adams

2011

For Rayenette but for all who have lost a family member/friend,

slowly thru the slide into dementia, and especially those who stay

and take care of them, even if the end will likely be a slow/fast

decent into them not knowing who and why you are taking care of them

and they the spirit that they was, dying, the body left behind

but a husk, with no life.

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Positive poems or at least ones that help me heal, or better yet, other heal and deal with things?

Meetings and what else to do? Staying at 12 mile until closing is not helping me work mornings or find happier, positive people

to hang out with?

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Perfect world, what is my perfect world?

No or little pain for sure. teeth/neck/back pain especially.

Money coming in, bills paid, hot sexy wife or just a nice gal..

Boundaries or when to know your going past your limits.

To say NO when you don't want to do something or know your being used.

To leave the port and not stay out there too long?

Sorry I am tired, so please find someone else to move a bus or what ever..

Standing up for one self!

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Business ideas:

My own or better yet someone elses art work and music.

What else? Process server? Bail Bond? Day Care or Elder Care?

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Story Ideas

Vampire and Cabbie

Die Hard 5

Bus 13

Omega Force

Sundered Oak

Inspector Depp

Sister Claire

Abortion possession. Mother aborts her baby, but baby is not dead? Or it is dead and it comes back to haunt her literally

or mentally.. Guilt or spiritual.

Lost in Country: about a man who loses his job, his place to live, his gf and all he owns but what is in his mobile home and/or uhaul.

He plans to go south to the lower 48 from Alaska, but did not have a visa, so is now stuck in Canada, not Canadians but no able

to get back into the US cause his Visa can not be proceesed or ...

Bus 13: Bus of Sped kids who defeat demons cause of their special needs.

Sundered Oak: Group of Orpans in high tech but archaic armor that fight ... the undead or what?

DARK EARTH:

Dark and damned, and how so?

Lycan and like, and all those that came up and out into the world with the blocking of the sun.

Undead or spirits or what? Aliens or supersciences gone very wrong or ..

Nik Six: Cabbie, dealing with normal passengers but also vampire and other beasts/creatures/beings of the night.

Vlad: Fellow cabbie and a vampire, humor relief and knowledge source.

Father Ivan: Orthodox Priest and becoming a vampire, but still mostly human. Faith helping..

Darin: Kid reporter, working for a cheap rag of a paper, but ..

Who and what else? Dispatcher or two? Love interest or fellow cabbies? Female and what else?

Known enemies or adversaries? And not your obvious ones?

Book ideas, how far have I gotten, not as far as I like, but how to sync it all between laptop, pc and cell phone and how much longer will I have the cell I have.

Bus 13

- Driver, name, condition

- Autistic

- Blind

- Deaf

- ED/Goth

- Wheel Chair?

- Down

Jony Depp

- Nik Sixx

- Vlad the vampire cabbie

- Father Ivan

- Daril Gavin Cub: reporter, want to be photo-news journalist.

Die Hard

Sundered Oak

Grand Master and Mistress, how open are they?

Mik/Nick Sixx

Omega 13

All in the same basic universe/planet?

Detective Jon Dep, mixed blood, mostly white, who works in Fairbanks c.1900 as a police detective, and his "Sidekick" actually its his uncle? or cousin? Machette.

McCain - cabbie, former cop, who walks into the middle of a terrorist occupation of an airport and it ends with him dropping from the international space station, and to earth.

Nik Stix - cabbie, who is dealing with all sorts of humans and other creatures of the night. Be it vampires, fellow cabbies or spirits and ghosts.

"Vlad, I see someone refused to pay for the cab ride" as Vlad mumbles, giving Nik a look as he continues sucking the life out of a unpaying customer.

"Sorry sir, you can't beat your wife".

"Sir please, put the mirror away". Its okay to smoke, as long as its not magic.

BANSHEE COAST:

Jose, is as he is leaving the kingship. Assassin, or what else is there? Who else would like him dead or out of the way? A threat basically?

Former Royal Family for one?

Lords of the Realm to might not like his successor or himself?

CAPTAIN AMERICA/HULK/SPIDER MAN/THOR:

Or why does people have to become what they are not to be accepted.

Captain America, had to go from unhealthy person to be super, via science and chemistry.

HULK: Geek to freak and out of control, by Radiation/Atomic Radiation? Or what? Statement?

The Sleeping Princess/Knight in Shining Armor/Beauty and Beast?

Prince Charming and Princess, and Princess Kiss and Frog Prince?

Prince Charming/Princess/Beast triad?

Funny how wimpy men can get when there is a chance of getting pussy?

Or how beastial men get when they have a chance of not getting it any more?

Feminine Wiles and whining, or what men do to shut them up, or to get pussy?

Or should it be the geek doing the chemicals and all to become Captain America, or is Captain America really just dumb and bulked up, but women seem to love the bulk he man? or do they? Much of hollywood shows are about geek/average joe, meeting hot sexy super model or like. He the hero, she the love interest, but is it fair to both? Does he have to be a geek? to be a hero to win the girl? She has to be the love interest, or hot/sexy as we define it, or can she be a plain jane and get all the men hot, cause she better for them or its reversed holywood or what?

Stereotype in Holywood?

QUESTIONS:

Hemp - Vegtable oil and if so, how much per acre and how much fuel produced per acre?

THC in Hops or just Hemp?

How close to synthetic patentantable THC?

Hops active ingredient is?

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POETRY SUBJECTS:

Vengence but for what?

Snotty or bubble headed women and horny men?

Social issues but what ones? More than the normal stuff?

GAMING

Terra Nove 2448:

Colony examples and how bad or good it could be.

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WORK:

Call to see schedule and what cars are open for the weekend.. Not 24 it seems? Hum, trying to move me to other than

the weekends? Sorry there is not enough business to work the week.

So far looks good for weekend and car 24? So will see..

No notice about suspension so far, so will play by ear.

I Wonder how John is doing?

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KNIGHTHOOD:

http://www.heraldica.org/topics/orders/

http://www.middle-ages.org.uk/steps-to-knighthood.htm

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knight

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15 Nov 2011 from LP and PC.

Look thru my Thoughts and figure out which to share with my facebook groups? And email ones?

Block Government?

Rules of Conduct - Civil Rules

what else?

Forming a Civil Action Group? Party?

P-I CHOOSE LIFE,

As I sit here in this chair,

I choose to live, and face

all before me alive, and

walk in the light of happiness,

joy and living people..

TO walk the sunshine path

and let the past go away and

fall away.. and choose life!!

Mike 2011

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supercommodore@mail.com

guardianofatlantis@yahoo.com

spillaneja@sbcglobal.net

raymondu999@gmail.com

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:-Knowing when to come in out of the rain; - Why the early bird gets the worm;- Life isn't always fair; - And maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies, don't spend more than you can earn and adults, not children, are in charge. His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion. Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault. Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement. Common Sense was preceded in death, by his parents, Truth and Trust, by his wife Discretion, his daughter Responsibility, and his son, Reason. He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers; I Know My Rights,I Want It Now,Someone Else Is To Blame,I'm A Victim.Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, do nothing

Anonymous for cause, its just common sense

Did the below for soldiers and others who I met, fresh from deployment, who I think needed someone to talk to, but some were not, or ... Infantry mentality is to suck it up, but at what point do you need to realize you have sucked it up and are about to blow up or crash? Some of the below can be for non-military, yes its designed more for Fairbanks but I know Fort Richardson has lost some kids and ...

BUDDY AIDE!

DCOE Outreach Center. 800-342-9647/866-966-1020. MFLConsult 699-2828. VA Suicide Hotline 800-263-8255, Non-DOD, they do not share info with your command/boss unless you ask them to, so call and talk! The life you save, may be your own! Buddy Aide! Get a buddy some help!

FT WW Mental Health: 1-907-388-2553./Careline Crisis Intervention: 452-4357 /AA 456-7501/Detox 456-1053

http://www.militaryonesource.com US Military/families. PTSD and other mental health related problems.

http://www.depressionisreal.org/depression-resources.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholics_Anonymous related programs for narcotics/other addictions, and emotional needs.

WELCOME HOME!

I generally find commenting on anything poitical/social now days is like farting in a methane factory/planet, we all know it smells and adding something to it, does nothing to change the odor. It does feel good to let it go, but people think your nuts, weird and don't want to be around you.

We complain about the odor, but are too lazy to put on the masks to cover the smell.

I wonder what would happen if we got the two+ candidates out there, with their election teams, out on the football field/court and the election was like the superbowl? I wonder if anyone would really care? Not likely, they might more like whine about the airtime on the TV, but ...

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Your not alone dear.. finding ways to better sleep so my back is not tweaked. Using my c-pap machine so I wake up being able to breath, better of late, and taking my anti-depressents so I am not tempted to taste lead and gun steel, and it helps with mmy hyper nature and memory and able to focus.

for an STD, not a happy time, and ... that was just it coming out, but I suspect it was a small one, but still not happy.

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--The Pole Dancer: Becky Usry

--Bartender: Chuck Diters

... ...--Person Who Tries To Get You Drunk: Corey Chivers

--Cutest In The Bar: Crystal Nelson

--Your Wing Man/Women: Dawn Poggas Quick

--Drunk Person In The Corner: Donovan Goertz

--Person Who Gets Arrested: Ed Branscum

(used my mutual friends, and .. my fate have mercy on my soul)

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Bill Gates to high school students:

Rule 1 : Life is not fair -get used to it! Rule 2 : The world doesn't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: They called it opportunity.

Rule 6 : If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7 : Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were: So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room..

Rule 8 : Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9 : Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10 : Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs

Rule 11 : Be nice to nerds Chances are you'll be working for one. (swiped from Michele C Griffin)

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***** 23 ADULT TRUTHS ******

1 Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

... 5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning square roots really necessary?

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind-of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page technical report that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

15. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

16. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with a can of Fosters than Kay.

17. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

18. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

19. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

20. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong,!

21. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

22. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time.

23. The first testicular guard, the "Cup," was used in Hockey in 1874 and the first helmet was used in 1974. That means it only took 100 years for men to realize that their brain is also important.

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http://arts.cuhk.edu.hk/LocalFile/feudalterm.html

http://www.hemyockcastle.co.uk/feudal.htm

http://home.olemiss.edu/~tjray/medieval/feudal.htm

http://history.eserver.org/feudal-terms.txt

http://www.pkwy.k12.mo.us/panda/pathfinders/south/pathmedieval.htm

http://www.vlib.us/medieval/lectures/feudalism.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feudalism

http://ask.reference.com/related/Feudalism+in+England?o=101994&l=dir&qsrc=2892

http://www.cyberax.eu/book/922003/feudal-terms-in-england-and-other-places

4029787565 Nebraska?

2246537000 Illinois?

4048916838 Georgia

4518210 Not sure who?

mallorydedeauxcrhit5287

traveller_t20

traveller

stargruntsooc

d20starwarsrpg

d20-future

sfconsim-l

medical66

medical66!

Poverty66!

poverty66!

BUDDY AIDE!

DCOE Outreach Center. 800-342-9647/866-966-1020. MFLConsult 699-2828. VA Suicide Hotline 800-263-8255, Non-DOD, they do not share info with your command/boss unless you ask them to, so call and talk! The life that you save, may be your own! Buddy Aide! Get a buddy some help!

FT WW Mental Health: 1-907-388-2553./Careline Crisis Intervention: 452-4357 /AA 456-7501/Detox 456-1053

http://www.militaryonesource.com US Military/families. PTSD and other mental health related problems.

http://www.depressionisreal.org/depression-resources.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholics_Anonymous related programs for narcotics/other addictions, and emotional needs.

WELCOME HOME!

snake creek creative works llc

Remember to check out and apply at Ester by Tuesday if not sooner. For Guard job at North Star Center.

Letter to tracy, about life and 12 steps.

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Jason and the Argonauts - how much was mined for Arthur?

Hidden King

Protector/Teacher

Kingdom taken over by an uncle or ... How did Arthur become king, or it was cause of the stone or .. Or is sword a metaphor or ..

Black Sea? Georgia? Golden Fleece or Grail?

Protector is Hera, but the Kingdom was once under Zeus?

Morgana - Hera or .. Mordred?

Quest is for power or for salvation? Or to show they are blessed and worthy?

Amazons? Lemnous? Land of the Amazons?

Lemnos - Aegean Sea, iron working, home of Hephetus? Dyed cloth?

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Poetry-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Adulthumor-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Abrigon-World/

Saturn moon rains a form of Gasoline? And we wonder why we are going into space?

Dane and stories from Mycea and near by, sound like Arthurian or what?

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Jonny Depp

Nik Six

Bus 13

- Driver

- Autistic

- Blind

- Deaf

- Mute?

- Goth/ED

- Wheel Chair

- Down Syndrome

Omega Force

McCain - Die Hard

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Time to kill or time to fill!

Better to fill time, not kill it.

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10 November, 2011 14:05:52

Most done before the above date.

the_new_owner_of_booksandlittwo@yahoo.com and suicidal thoughts and one other poem..

REFINERY:

Was Erika flirting with me or something? She moving back and forth, where I had almost no choice but to look and watch her tits?

She is hot, but is she my type, other than married, attractive and large breasts? Did not enjoy the beating off, feel ...

I wish she was my wife and she was into nighties and such. Erika is fucking HOT but . she is a friend and very married.

Or I was just hallucinating last nite?

Likely hallucinating, I wonder what happened to her and where she is now, hope she is happy!

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CAB/TAXI:

Got to call my business, and see if I can work tonight or what?

Cab driving, alot of fun.

Argh, not tonight, damn, just to damn tired from last nite.. But heh, the guys was happy and hope they felt welcome home!

Number 81 for this weekend, all cause Kat told Bill to Jump.. What a group, I need out of cab driving and especially the ones where women are running things, even if they are from behihd..

RECOVERY:

12 steps

I was Spock

PTSD or just Pon Far

Tai Chi, and like more information.

Things to do today or by next week..

WORK:

Ester and check it out? www.geogroup.com Bust or what happened, or I just wandered off again?

CIVIL RIGHTS:

Civil Civitis

Block Government

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T-SHIRTS:

Vaginally Challenged can I borrow yours?

Drama Free Zone, so I don't get laid.

Wheres the horny people at?

Meth T-Shirts

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TO DO I KNOW I CAN DO:

Wake up tomorrow

Work or Not work

Called works people, Wed 6pm state building.

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MUSIC I LIKE:

Muse

Cranberrys

Howling for you? Who does it?

Live - Lightning Crash

Santana - Maria

89.9 radio?

EFF blocked or it is hard to get to it?

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NETWORK THOUGHTS:

I wonder how many of my addresses/phones numbers are now in some database at MCD Corps? Same with B&N?

Also the cookie from using MCD connect, how long will it last and is it more like a Worm than a cookie?

I wonder how much of the content of my HD is now known by MCD/B&N or who else?

Or just my music/video info for a music/video company to market things?

PHILOSOPHY:

Tai Chi, and like more information.

Reality this is all we know and see.

There is likely more, but we don't have the way and means to see it, other than can see from what we know and see that there is more..

We are all likely bubbles that effect other bubbles, or cells effecting other cells, pushing forcing or working with other cells to

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sholland@uofport.edu and alternate earths and like.. Likely the email address is long gone but ..

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WORK/LIFE:

I am noticed by some of the oddest people, when I want notice, I am ignored, or not seen.

Wierdness magnent for sure.

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Perfect WOrld what would it be for me?

Positive things to do? What is positive activities to do and how to do them?

List of things to do and do them? How to make it all happen?

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Money making, how to make money and have an income?

Meth T-shirts for one, but what else?

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Sticks and stones may brake my bones but naughty sex excites me! So roll me over spank my ass and show me that u love me!! lol

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BUDDY AIDE!

1-800-342-9647 or 1-866-966-1020

DCOE Outreach Center.

1-800-263-8255 Veterans Administration Suicide Hotline, Non-DOD, they do not share info with your command/boss unless you ask them to,

so call and talk!The life you save, may be your own!

Buddy Aide!

1-907-388-2553 Local Fort Wainwright Mental Health Office!

452-4357 Local Care line Crisis Intervention.

http://www.militaryonesource.com for US Military and families. PTSD and other mental health related problems.

http://www.depressionisreal.org/depression-resources.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholics_Anonymous related programs for narcotics/other addictions, and emotional needs.

WELCOME HOME!

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evyn.macdude@gmail.com

spunkybrat007@gmail.com

karenpassion0455@yahoo.com

karenpassion0465@yahoo.com

nsheldonk40@yahoo.com

Going thru old email addresses and seeing who is still alive, sorry

for any duplication of effort. I have you in my gaming category, such

as for Abrigon World or like, but ..

Let me know, keep, or delete or what? Like post apocalyptic worlds

with vampire and high tech and green house gases and little light?

Mike

Alaska

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Poetry-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Adulthumor-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Abrigon-World/

Going thru old email addresses and seeing who is still alive, sorry for any duplication of effort. Or recontact.. Just seeing who to delete/remove/etc. Let me know, keep, or delete or what?

Mike Adams

Alaska

Former SPC AK ARNG Scout

42A/11B/EMT/CNA/Cabbie/Bus Driver/Special Needs bus driver and a number of other work. Rather worked with robots, such as UAVs and UGV and like vehicles..

Domo, Tooda, Shook'gria, Basiba, Masiq-cho, Danke, Merci, Mondo Gratsi, Gracias, ShuShu.. Sorry if spelled wrong, just know how it sounds.

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Poetry-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Adulthumor-L/

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Abrigon-World/

P-I CHOOSE LIFE:

as I sit here in this chair,

I choose to live, and face

all before me alive, and

walk in the light of happiness,

joy and living people..

To walk the sunshine path

and let the past go away and

fall away.. and choose life!!

Mike Adams

2011

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Mike Adams

Alaska

P-I CHOOSE LIFE:

as I sit here in this chair,

I choose to live, and face

all before me alive, and

walk in the light of happiness,

joy and living people..

To walk the sunshine path

and let the past go away and

fall away.. and choose life!!

Mike Adams

2011

Your welcome Mom, long story..

Part of this reconnect is basically to see if anyone needs anything? or like to network, or ... I do have other skills than to be annoying.

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49H9H KGW6F WFWXM 49F92 T2MMK

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Gmx and Gmail and what other tagged userids do I have and what is their contact lists and what is recoverable?

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Trash can in corner for pepsi and like bottles..

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Drive and be ready for interview at 930 and vocrehab at 2pm.Done YES, don't think either was successful but ..

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Poems of life, love and happy thoughts?

WEather and storms?

P-Ride the Wind

To ride the storm,

it flies in, filtering

my mind, rising me up and

into the sky to leave

all mortal things behind

and ride the wind, to feel

it lift me up, and thru me

changing me into a being of

air and light, and ride the

winds and feel all float away

and no long earth but now

air and fire.

Mike Adams

2011

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Poem about Lamia, or its not needed since she is long gone and does not want anything to do with me.. Likely so.

Poems ideas:

Longing so far, so good.

Vengance and demand for it and obsession.

Anne and my affection for her, and who else? Confusion on who I have affection for.

Love lost?

Vengance for sure.

How to love and show love and express it and not be mistaken or worse? Fear of showing love cause of past mistakes and worse, they react badly to things? Can't just reach over and grab them for one, or get them drunk or worse.

Competent Women that a women need not show flesh, cleavage to get tips, but good service should be all?

Dementia and holding on to what we are and was and sliding into it.. Done with Lost Life?

P-Lost Self

Who am I

or was I

I a know

I am loved

but not sure

why for I

have forgotten

who this person

is beside me,

they love me

I know but

why, I have

forgotten for

it is just

filtered and

grey and memories

that seem distant

and many lost

in the abyss that

is now my past

she sits

next to me

and shows me love

but I feel something

but forget why

who and what it was

for all is slowly

sliding away and

I feel hurt

sad and to

please let me go

for I am gone and

it hurts to see

the pain in your eyes

and the fear I feel

in where I am

or was or going

or why you still

hold me close

but I have forgotten

who you are, or was

but only know what

you say you are, wife,

mother, brother,

husband and children

but are you sure

for I know you not,

but know I should

know you and I feel

for you and dim

memories of you or

lost and dying slowly

Thank you, I think

but for what

not sure why but

I feel the love

for your staying on

for when I remember

I know you and am lucid

but its fading more

and more and damn

I have pissed

I think it is what

it is, or druel

or just sorry

I can not speak

or even hold words

in my mind for

what.. lost it

focus gone..

Night I know

let me go, but

you refuse but

why, who was I

what was I and ...

Mike Adams

2011

For Rayenette but for all who have lost a family member/friend,

slowly thru the slide into dementia, and especially those who stay

and take care of them, even if the end will likely be a slow/fast

decent into them not knowing who and why you are taking care of them

and they the spirit that they was, dying, the body left behind

but a husk, with no life.

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Positive poems or at least ones that help me heal, or better yet, other heal and deal with things?

Meetings and what else to do? Staying at 12 mile until closing is not helping me work mornings or find happier, positive people

to hang out with?

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Perfect world, what is my perfect world?

No or little pain for sure. teeth/neck/back pain especially.

Money coming in, bills paid, hot sexy wife or just a nice gal..

Boundaries or when to know your going past your limits.

To say NO when you don't want to do something or know your being used.

To leave the port and not stay out there too long?

Sorry I am tired, so please find someone else to move a bus or what ever..

Standing up for one self!

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Business ideas:

My own or better yet someone elses art work and music.

What else? Process server? Bail Bond? Day Care or Elder Care?

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Story Ideas

Vampire and Cabbie

Die Hard 5

Bus 13

Omega Force

Sundered Oak

Inspector Depp

Sister Claire

Abortion possession. Mother aborts her baby, but baby is not dead? Or it is dead and it comes back to haunt her literally

or mentally.. Guilt or spiritual.

Lost in Country: about a man who loses his job, his place to live, his gf and all he owns but what is in his mobile home and/or uhaul.

He plans to go south to the lower 48 from Alaska, but did not have a visa, so is now stuck in Canada, not Canadians but no able

to get back into the US cause his Visa can not be proceesed or ...

Bus 13: Bus of Sped kids who defeat demons cause of their special needs.

Sundered Oak: Group of Orpans in high tech but archaic armor that fight ... the undead or what?

DARK EARTH:

Dark and damned, and how so?

Lycan and like, and all those that came up and out into the world with the blocking of the sun.

Undead or spirits or what? Aliens or supersciences gone very wrong or ..

Nik Six: Cabbie, dealing with normal passengers but also vampire and other beasts/creatures/beings of the night.

Vlad: Fellow cabbie and a vampire, humor relief and knowledge source.

Father Ivan: Orthodox Priest and becoming a vampire, but still mostly human. Faith helping..

Darin: Kid reporter, working for a cheap rag of a paper, but ..

Who and what else? Dispatcher or two? Love interest or fellow cabbies? Female and what else?

Known enemies or adversaries? And not your obvious ones?

Book ideas, how far have I gotten, not as far as I like, but how to sync it all between laptop, pc and cell phone and how much longer will I have the cell I have.

Bus 13

- Driver, name, condition

- Autistic

- Blind

- Deaf

- ED/Goth

- Wheel Chair?

- Down

Jony Depp

- Nik Sixx

- Vlad the vampire cabbie

- Father Ivan

- Daril Gavin Cub: reporter, want to be photo-news journalist.

Die Hard

Sundered Oak

Grand Master and Mistress, how open are they?

Mik/Nick Sixx

Omega 13

All in the same basic universe/planet?

Detective Jon Dep, mixed blood, mostly white, who works in Fairbanks c.1900 as a police detective, and his "Sidekick" actually its his uncle? or cousin? Machette.

McCain - cabbie, former cop, who walks into the middle of a terrorist occupation of an airport and it ends with him dropping from the international space station, and to earth.

Nik Stix - cabbie, who is dealing with all sorts of humans and other creatures of the night. Be it vampires, fellow cabbies or spirits and ghosts.

"Vlad, I see someone refused to pay for the cab ride" as Vlad mumbles, giving Nik a look as he continues sucking the life out of a unpaying customer.

"Sorry sir, you can't beat your wife".

"Sir please, put the mirror away". Its okay to smoke, as long as its not magic.

BANSHEE COAST:

Jose, is as he is leaving the kingship. Assassin, or what else is there? Who else would like him dead or out of the way? A threat basically?

Former Royal Family for one?

Lords of the Realm to might not like his successor or himself?

CAPTAIN AMERICA/HULK/SPIDER MAN/THOR:

Or why does people have to become what they are not to be accepted.

Captain America, had to go from unhealthy person to be super, via science and chemistry.

HULK: Geek to freak and out of control, by Radiation/Atomic Radiation? Or what? Statement?

The Sleeping Princess/Knight in Shining Armor/Beauty and Beast?

Prince Charming and Princess, and Princess Kiss and Frog Prince?

Prince Charming/Princess/Beast triad?

Funny how wimpy men can get when there is a chance of getting pussy?

Or how beastial men get when they have a chance of not getting it any more?

Feminine Wiles and whining, or what men do to shut them up, or to get pussy?

Stereotype in Holywood?

QUESTIONS:

Hemp - Vegtable oil and if so, how much per acre and how much fuel produced per acre?

THC in Hops or just Hemp?

How close to synthetic patentantable THC?

Hops active ingredient is?

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POETRY SUBJECTS:

Vengence but for what?

Snotty or bubble headed women and horny men?

Social issues but what ones? More than the normal stuff?

GAMING

Terra Nove 2448:

Colony examples and how bad or good it could be.

Why and how..

Invasion by aliens.

Losers in a war and now its go to space or be assimilated/destroyed/slaughtered..

No War, just persecution, real or imaginary.

Economic Disaster

Environmental Disaster

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WORK:

Call to see schedule and what cars are open for the weekend.. Not 24 it seems? Hum, trying to move me to other than

the weekends? Sorry there is not enough business to work the week.

So far looks good for weekend and car 24? So will see..

No notice about suspension so far, so will play by ear.

I Wonder how John is doing?

Audie

Christopher and who else?

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KNIGHTHOOD:

http://www.heraldica.org/topics/orders/

http://www.middle-ages.org.uk/steps-to-knighthood.htm

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knight

Samurai and Like people.

What otheres have been professional, like knights or samurai and live by a code. Warrior Monks, Feniens in Ireland.

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