WARNING: Adult and less than happy subject matter. Adult subject matter and that is just the violence and sex. Not in order or organized yes.(And yes some disturb me on how sick humans can be? Tempted to put some at the bottom?)Some was done when I was in a not happy place, exploring some feelings and seeing if I had fallen, but ...Some, was about others I had known, talked to and I hope helped?PRINTED OUT:__________INDEX:Hail MaryHail Mary - Valley of Death (same as Hail Mary?)Hairy LeggsHandlesHappinessHappy PlaceHate and FearHate MeHaunted EyesHelp Me (Working on)Hey JoeHippy ChikaHookieHootersHooters Sight/SiteHormones RagingHot ChocolateHumpty Dumpty-------P-Hail Mary - Valley of DeathHail Mary full of cum, the sperm is in you..blessed art thou, your not a virgin,blessed is the fruit of my penis..Jesus.Mike Adams2004P-Hail Mary (Valley of Death):Hail Mary full of cum,the sperm is in you.. blessed art thou,your not a virgin,blessed is the fruitof my penis.. Jesus.Mike2004-------P-Hairy LegWould love your hairy legs next to mine, and see yourunmade up face next to me in the mornings light..like velcro, we do mix, hair to hair,stuck as long.. Strong and unbroken..Mike Adams2004--------P-HandlesHair long and lucious, smile of white, nose that perks up andcute..Ah lady dear, of far you traveled,light of frame, bright of smile,hair long, falling like rivers of darkness,eyes small and light of heavens bliss,shoulders bare to the air and kisses,hugs and touches of care,body hot like passions kiss,ah to hold you close,and smell your breathkissing lips light, and nose upturned,to carress your hair and ears..ah your smell is peace and sunny,your warmth keeps the winter air away,our passions flare, kisses, hugs,hands carressing and exploring,looks of longing, not lust,just a quiet desire of longingfor a friend and lover. ah to feel you close,and know you are here, and we together,clasped in passions shared,of need for love and holding,like two peas of a pod, together,friends, lovers, buddies and more,talk we do together, of witand wisdom we do talk. and concerns,of loves and lives, and how to get morethan we have. Shared comments,and dreams unfolding,or just fantasies for the darkness of ourlonging, never to explore our passions sharedalways denied, but they, but given for lifelong, as friends close, together alwaysfor one and each other, buddies.Mike Adams2003For Ivie---------------P-HappinessHappinesswhat is it?How can I knowam I happyor sad, I justdon't know.Success,failuresmile orfrownfear orno fearor just numbAlone orgroupSingular,many or what?Am I happy,or sad orjust numb.I just want tofeel, and knowhappinessto smileto have thingspeople andmemories tobe happy about.and just feelanything isjust a start.But nowwhat, andhow to goand be happyI like to knowPlease tell meshow mehelp meand notlet me gointo that darkplace aloneand lost,that hellnever again.Mike Adams2011(still editing)-------------P-HappinessHappinesswhat is it?How can I knowam I happyor sad, I justdon't know.Success,failuresmile orfrownfear orno fearor just numbAlone orgroupSingular,many or what?Am I happy,or sad orjust numb.I just want tofeel, and knowhappinessto smileto have thingspeople andmemories tobe happy about.and just feelanything isjust a start.But nowwhat, andhow to goand be happyI like to knowPlease tell meshow mehelp meand notlet me gointo that darkplace aloneand lost,that hellnever again.Mike Adams2011(still editing)-----P-Happy PlaceIn DarknessA Window openCross panedTo a place warmLighted byA gentle sunLight defusedTrees old and strongA path to fieldsFull of animalsHealthy and well fed.Secret placeOr refuge,Dumping ground.But from trashComes life, hopeAnd healing orJust paths.Its no box explodedBut place of growthunchecked or managed?But that's another story.Mike Adams2012/2017More?-------P-Hate and Fear:How much I hate you, your snotty attitude,your condescending views and ways,the look you give me in the mirrorthe depression I feel when you hate me sowhat did I do to deserve this pain andagony who are you to put me down,to destroy wall that I am,no hope for the futurefor the past is agony intense.And the current lost and darkcaught in amber strong and hardenedby years of neglect of self.No future, but more deathand depression, lost in my selfand the loss of who I am waspossible to be.What humor, given many giftsand visions, but none of the toolsto make them happen or evenpossible. Locked in this humorousweb of denial, self doubt anddenial of self, or just fear,fear of failure, of beingput down by you one more time.So fuck you who I see in the mirrorbut how to remove you, shotgun blastor knife strong and sharp? Pills aplenty I have tried alreadybut to no avail. I am lockedhere with you, and you with me.Forgive myself for my death, forit is long in coming, do I hateall so much to end it now, orgo on? Help is near, but is itsoon enough.Mike Adams2004------P-Hate MeHate me, hurt me, whip me, love me, kill me,die with me, be with me, I love you more, and still.I rather be the one who jumps than be pushed ordriven by your cruel ways and manipulations..Mike Adams2005-------P-Haunted Eyes:Haunted eyes, like windows of the women, to see them pierce the gloom and into my soul, dumb I am struck by their beauty and depth of seeing.. To know how plain my world is with out those eye, piercing me hard and fast, loving but dangerously inviting. Seducing my soul to linger and captured eternally, never wanting to leave, for the joy of seeing, those eyes, those delicious haunted eyes, was all he needed and cared for, until death over took him, for the soul may need the eyes, but the body needs more than just eyes, but he died happy.Mike Adams2005------P-Help Me:Help me I screamed,but no one replied.I ran to mommy,and busy was she. Daddy, gone as gone inthings of speed and flesh.Family ran away from mein my pain and agonychased by demons of fleshand spirit, beatenand battered andgiven up for deadteachers, cared not,not my problem was the replyFriends ran and knew me not,not that had any God said,come here little boy,we will make a manof you and molest you likebuddies I once knew.Mike2005------P-Hey JoeHey Joe, where you goingwith that keyboard in yourhand? Going to spam my oldlady, cause I caught hercamming with another man!!Mike Adams2005-----P-Hippy Chika Just seeing yousmile is poetry.a silly smirkon the lips says muchand brings much to me..laugh lady laugh,for life ends to damnquick to dwellin dark places betweenheaven and hell..so laugh, smile be happy,inspire men to die for you,or just love you more.Fear not the darknessfor it will end as it began..with the devil in the darkdying hard and fast..and your free once moreof the pains, agoniesand fear from the dark.But the dark is not the cause,it suffers with you. Mike Adams2009-----P-Humpty Dumpty:Humpty Dumpty Sat on a wallHumpty Dumpty, had a great fallall the Kings horses and all the kings mencould not put humpty dumpty back to gether again.But a ho from cali, can give him a blowand give him some snow and he is alltogether for now.See, what crack does to you.Mike Adams199?-----P-Hot Chocolate:Hot milky chocolate,expanding my mind,and senses, hearing,sight and touchare rendered numband wanting more..Hot, sweet and damndelicious to the senses,eyes full of the beautyof her, the nosesmelling each delight,the ears hearing a voiceof pleasure delightful,the tongue tasting theskin and damn yes, thehands touching and ...More could be said, butall that followsis damnation of nothaving her here andthe depression it brings.Mike Adams2005(For Rachel Jones)----P-Hormones Raging?A muse in form to my mind, and hormones raging,at the sight of profiles pic, which is revealingbut teasing to the sight and senses and bringsabout a joyful pleasure to my mind and soulat the viewing.. Ah yes, makes me want to suck onsomething.. or exploring with hands and hips otherplaces.. to share a movement of hips shared. andhands touching, and moving.. kisses and lips tasting each others flesh, and teasing.. tongue teasingnipples hard and brown, tasting and teasing,holding with lips soft and gentle, in and out..cloths moves just such, removed fast and furious,or by hands exploring or ripping.. falling to a heap onthe floor, bodies soon after.. warmth shared as sweatcomes and mingles, smells waffling.. and passionsshared.. ah yes, it is free, now I am the key and whereis the gate? ah yes, the gardens gate, behind a forestlight and blonde, with gates parted gentle with hands,and yes the key hole is shown.. and teases, slow or fast?vibrated or teased by lips and tongue? until after time eternal,we fall, to bed and sleep slow and gentle, carressinggentle and slow, as we drift off to sleep..Mike Adams2004--------P-Hooters Sightloved seeing your lovely face and form,inspires me to enjoy the day, of assholeand idiots, bitches and morons.. It lightenedthe day, by the beauty of a women, of graces many,to give me hope for a better day, or just a good start..Mike Adams2004For Big Hooters-------P-Hooters:Hooters, YES, love to talk about them, the rise of her busom,the feel of her breasts, as my tongue slides from mouth, totaste each inch, and suck on nipples tall and proud, chocolateof look and taste, and pleasure brought.. and end up under mistletoe, and kiss like demons inspired, and wake up together andwonder, who are you? why do I know you, oh shit your my bossesdaughter and I am doomed.Mike Adams2004-------------P-HookieFace coldWalking hallsdealing deathto anyonewho in the waybut innocentMike Adams2007-----P-Help Me:Help me I screamed, but no one replied.I ran to mommy, and busy was she. Daddy, gone as gone in things if speed and flesh.Family ran away from me in my pain and agonychased by demons of flesh and spirit, beatenand battered and given up for deadteachers, cared not, not my problem was the replyFriends ran and knew me not, not that had any God said,come here little boy, we will make a man of youand molest you like buddies I once knew.Mike Adams2005-------P-Haunted Eyes:Haunted eyes, like windows of the women,to see them pierce the gloom and into my soul,dumb I am struck by their beauty and depth of seeing..To know how plain my world is with out those eye,piercing me hard and fast, loving but dangerously inviting.Seducing my soul to linger and captured eternally,never wanting to leave, for the joy of seeing, those eyes,those delicious haunted eyes, was all he needed andcared for, until death over took him, for the soul mayneed the eyes, but the body needs more than justeyes, but he died happy.Mike Adams2005-------P-Hate Me (2005):Hate me, hurt me, whip me, love me, kill me,die with me, be with me, I love you more, and still.I rather be the one who jumps than be pushed ordriven by your cruel ways and manipulations..Mike Adams2005------P-Hate and Fear:How much I hate you, your snotty attitude,you condisending views and ways,the look you give me in the mirrorthe depression I feel when you hate me sowhat did I do to deserve this pain andagony who are you to put me down,to destroy wall that I am,no hope for the futurefor the past is agony intense.And the current lost and darkcaught in amber strong and hardenedby years of neglect of self.No future, but more deathand depression, lost in my selfand the loss of who I am waspossible to be.What humor, given many giftsand visions, but none of the toolsto make them happen or evenpossible. Locked in this humorousweb of denial, self doubt anddenial of self, or just fear,fear of failure, of beingput down by you one more time.So fuck you who I see in the mirrorbut how to remove you, shotgun blastor knives strong and sharp? Pills aplenty I have tried alreadybut to no avail. I am lockedhere with you, and you with me.Forgive myself for my death, forit is long in coming, do I hateall so much to end it now, orgo on? Help is near, but is itsoon enough.Mike Adams2004------P-HandlesHair long and lucious, smile of white, nose that perks upand cute.. working on it..Ah lady dear, of far you traveled,light of frame, bright of smile,hair long, falling like rivers of darkness,eyes small and light of heavens bliss,shoulders bare to the air and kisses,hugs and touches of care,body hot like passions kiss,ah to hold you close,and smell your breathkissing lips light, and nose upturned,to carress your hair and ears..ah your smell is peace and sunny,your warmth keeps the winter air away,our passions flare, kisses, hugs,hands carressing and exploring,looks of longing, not lust,just a quiet desire of longingfor a friend and lover. ah to feel you close,and know you are here, and we together,clasped in passions shared,of need for love and holding,like two peas of a pod, together,friends, lovers, buddies and more,talk we do together, of witand wisedom we do talk. and concerns,of loves and lifes, and how to get morethan we have. Shared comments,and dreams unfolding,or just fantasies for the darkess of ourlonging, never to explore our passions sharedalways denied, but they, but given for lifelong, as friends close, together alwaysfor one and each other, buddies.Mike Adams2003------P-Hairy LegsWould love your hairy legs next to mine,and see your unmade up face next to me in the mornings light..abrigon: like velcro, we do mix, hair to hair, stuck as long..Strong and unbroken..Mike Adams2003?------P-Hail Mary - Valley of Deathhail mary full of cum, the sperm is in you..blessed art thou your not a virgin,blessed is the fruit of my penis..Mary.thou I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil, cause I am horny and all knowwhat that means.. Here kitty kitty, yo evil, where art though?time to fuck.. time to stroke the pussy..Mike Adams2004--------Copyright 1998 Mike Adams