Lost Lovehttps://sites.google.com/site/abrigon/1-poetry-2020/lost-love-2017
By Michael Adams 2005
I have some editing to do to all the poems. So please forgive. Poems below are not for young eyes,please forgive if this is in the wrong hands and delete if you are under 18. WARNING, some are grafix and brutal in nature, just feelings expressed at the moment.. Not a violent person, but does not mean I don't feel pain, anger, hurt and feel abused, and hateful. I get over it, but .. I rather express in words, get it out, and deal with things in a healthy and peaceful way..
Mike Alaska
INDEX:Alive For Ever MoreBeat MeCustodyDear HusbandDenied LoveDepression of LossDestructive LoveDoorman to HellEntranced---------------------------------------------------------------------P-Alive Forever More:
Alive she sits there, beauty is her name, life and earth are bornto her, dragged to join and know her close.But I far away, neverto know her sight,her feel and touch,for I am damned eternally forever moreto this darkness of shameI sit here, dark to theworld, and dream of thelight I once painedand in agony I sitalone, forever moreshamed of the timeof obsessive timesI once thought of herand drove her awayforever more.
Mike Adams2003
For Kim and others.---------------------------------------------------------------------P-Beat Me
beat me, whip me, tie me to the bed, love me, leave me, hit me, scare me, leave me for dead..
Mike Adams 2005?---------------------------------------------------------------------P-Custody
On to a plane of skulls she does rides a horse of color red, to smite the bastard that she once bed, but now divourced, to claim her children two, she ride thru hell on a pale horse, to find the bastard who stole them away, and make his day, or in twain his penis small..
Mike Adams 2002 --------------------------------------------------------------------- P-Dear Husband
Dear Husband, here I am in another bed, looking for a lover, a strange, a friend, carrying not for our bonds of marriage, for you have left them far behind.
Sleeping on me with others, friends and more, cheating in mind, soul and emotions, all I have to go on is that vision of you and another to spur me on to jump to another.
Mike Adams 2005 --------------------------------------------------------------------- P-Denied Love:
Time is fleeting, ever passing into the day ago. Why do we hope for more than this I will never know.Thou I do hope for more than this, for all I have is hopes and a dream for more. than this mortal frame canhave, but in hope I find a purpose a direction, and my dreams a reason to go on, day and day, hour and hour, and on until one day my feet can move no more, falling one in front of the other, and lay down and rest my head on the gentle hills of home and dream of you my lady love once more.
But until that time is here, I can not think of you for the pain it brings to me, I can not think of your sweet caress, the smell of your hair, and the feel of your body next to mine, for the pain it brings, and to you as well.
I can not face you, face to face, eye to eye, for my heart will flutter and fly into worlds of fantasy and illusion beyond all reality and hope for peace, for all I want to do is to behold you once again, but in this I have pledged to never see you again, to talk to you, to know of what you do, and why, so in my honor and my word I deny you totally, no matter the pain and anguish, the loss and ending, to try to extinguish the feelings you have enflamed in me, but to no avail, so I deny you totally and blank you from my totally from my mind.
For denying you for now is the only answer I know, and in this I write these words to work it out and let others know of loss of love and to hope for a better day when I can behold you in all your loveliness and see the light in your eyes once again, and hope it is for me you see, and for me you do shine with such a light that the stars and sun are no match, but alas that day will never come but in my mind and illusions. So this I pray for all my days to just let it be, and forget you for now and pray for another day.
Love Mike
Mike AdamsMay 1998
--------------------------------------------------------------------- P-Depression of Loss:
Depression is here,sinking in fast and hardfor the sun has left the skyand shall I die now,or just wander herein this place of darknesscold and damp,like a man on thorozine..
Mike2003 --------------------------------------------------------------------- P-Destructive Love 2020
Tie me down, beat me, whip me, love me, leave me, never let me go, or close again, I am lost in this sea of love and depression, for to have you is to destroy you, to have me is to be destroyed like ice in summers hard sun..
Mike Adams2003 --------------------------------------------------------------------- P-DOORMEN TO HELL:
Who gives a shit a man once said to the doorman at the gates of hell, and doorman said, go ask Alice she gives a shit, for she is not here..Hell holds me down like mud and quicksand.Ties me down my Juliet in ribbon strong and tight, and in the delight, you bring by feathers strong and whips a plenty..whips not of leather, but of light, burning flesh, singing away inch by inch, mile by mile, until my soul is revealed..And laid bare to the light and seen to be clean of hell, but not of heaven but of limbo grey and white.
Mike Adams 2004
--------------------------------------------------------------------- P-Entranced:
Lady hot, of body and of smile, hair dark and skin mysterious..oh she stands there, and I notice but she is there, for entranced am I, by her smile, how it beams and affects all..
Mike2005--------------------------------------------------------------------- Copyright 1998 and earlier - Mike Adams