WARNING: Adult and less than happy subject matter. Adult subject matter and that is just the violence and sex. Not in order or organized yes. (And yes some disturb me on how sick humans can be? Tempted to put some at the bottom?)Some was done when I was in a not happy place, exploring some feelings and seeing if I had fallen, but ... Some, was about others I had known, talked to and I hope helped?PRINTED OUT:__________
INDEX:P-A Hero Dies Today 2013P-A Rose 2013P-Abandoned 2013P-Accept Me 2016P-Adopted/Adoption 2017 ?P-Alive 2013P-Alive Forever More 2013P-All Numb 2013P-Alone 2016?P-Allyson 2013P-Amber 2013 (Same as Amber Megan?)P-Amber Megan 2013P-Amber's Kiss 2013P-Ana 2013 (Mistress Mischief)P-Analyzed Insane 2013P-Angel 2013P-Angel of Heaven 2013P-Anger Numb 2013P-Anxiety Blues 2013P-Are We Having Fun Yet 2013P-Attention 2013P-Avinar El 2013---------P-A Hero Dies Today
Hero or villainOr just poor foolSuffering or aspiringAcceptance finding fearMisunderstood or drivenAway or mad. Not wantedOr appreciated, doingAll for them butThey drive you awayOr locked away andForgotten, so why doesThe hero do it?Salvation, penanceAcceptance or its allIt knows or hopes forSo in the end, a heroDies today.Mike Adams2009-------P-A Rose
oh, ah your eyes like diamond sparking black and dark,mysterious they are, hiding lust behind cold hard eyes..cold eyes, passions light a fire of lust and passionsdark and dangerous, miles separate, but souls boundtogether he sees her there, and falls hard to the floor,not a floor of wood or stone, but of love and lust eternal,unrequented and unable to be showed and done..bodies tiedtogether, kiss for kiss, touch for touch, feel and warmthshared as passions flame hot and burning bright..one nite, an eternity of love and bliss. shared passions..oh touch, and caress, cuddles and kisses, fluids sharedand dreams explored. shall I kiss you slow, hands exploringdown a back, cloths sliding off, kisses gentle on shoulders bare,hair flowing down, moved by lovely women, in mind,heart and mind.. eyes of crimson dark, or brownas earth, warm and heated by the sun.Mike Adams2003(For Rose 08/20/06)-------P-Abandoned
Feeling abandoned, neglected,not wanted, no one have patienceto be with you, to teach you andhelp you along, and you helpthem as well.Alone, left behind, not wantedHow to feel anything moreWhen you trust no oneLeast of all yourself.Mike Adams2006?---------P-Accept ME 2017
Accept me for menot for who youexpect me to bewant me to bedemand me to beexpect me to beassume me to bepay me to beand evenbeat me to beor whip me to beor I am supposed to bebut who I amand nothing elseSo accept me for me.NOTHING ELSE!Mike2016------P-Adoption (Adopted) 2017
To be found or why was I lostcast off, unwanted or justnot ready for me, not aborted for sure butnow what?Who shall find me and want me? Will they be better than mine of birthor worse, or even just causeMike2017For several, Bridgit, my supposed 1/2 sister, where are you? Hope all is well for you.------P-Alive
Today alive,tomorrow not.(More?)Mike Adams2011---------P-Alive Forever More:
Alive she sites there,beauty is her name,life and earth are bornto her, dragged to joinand know her close.But I far away, neverto know her sighther feel and touch,for I am damnedeternally forever moreto this darkness of shameI sit here, dark to theworld, and dream of thelight I once painedand in agony I sitalone, forever moreshamed of the timeof obsessive timesI once thought of herand drove her awayforever more.Mike Adams2003--------P-All Numb
No eyes to seeNo ears to hearNo skin to feelAll senses numbAll senses deadNo distractionsNo pain feltAll tastes deadAll is dead and dullLeft aloneNo distractionsJust the empty spaceAlone and happyMike Adams2011--------P-Alone 2016
Alone and singleOne alone outcastAshamed or not wantedOr just unknownUnwanted push awayDropped off and forgottenHidden away in dark placesAway from allOr just seen brain deadStrong back but whatIs known of the aloneFor they are aloneNo friends and familyIs in name but alienCalled geak or freakAnd family ignoresOr does not wish toKnow or are the onesCalling you freakAshamed that one existsBut termination is lateSo the creature livesHidden away.AloneSingularOutcastOr unknownAlienShamefulGeak or freakAshamed ofOneScaredUnsure of selfAnd othersRunning fastAnd hardBut to whereFor no oneWelcomes himOr wants himUnless it dirtyNasty or meanOr advantage ofHis or her needTo be wantedEven loved.Mike2014--------P-Allyson
Allyson, my dearchild of an alleythat leads deepinto my heartof hearts,beating strongat the soundof your name,and thoughtof your voice..Mike Adams2004---------------P-Amber Megan
Well, your hair is like amber rivers falling from the heavenssunlight, eyes full of mirth and joy, teasing to say more, noseperky and upturned, ah to see it full, lips and smile, light theroom, and broaden the sunlights amber of her hair.. lips to besavored and kisses, tongues to be twisted, body to be held closeand explored by loving hands, long and slow, every nook andcranny, nose to smell her scent, soft and gentle, taking timeto savor each drop of it..until life passes and joined inheavenly bliss, two bodies entwined as lovers, cloths gone ina heap, lost to the side, as hands explore, lips and kisses tasteeach others body, warm and hot the temperature rises, as thebodies join, and joy comes like a torrent of rivers of passionsfruit..Breast to breast, body to body, thrust to thrust, each bodygiving its all inspired passions that rose from long timedenied, never to be given, but always there, to explore on anite of control lost, the lovers fall to bed, and gasp, YESthey collectively sigh, and laugh and giggle at the coincidenceof words said together, for they explored both together firstto kiss then to touch, then to explore and finally to explodetogether in mutual sunfire inspired bursts of solar power.Amber Kiss Part 2Ah to kiss, cheek to cheek, lips wanting more, but deniedfor to explore the passions shared, brings doom and agony most dire, asthey know the kissing, hugging, cuddles caught, and touches andlooks given, will destroy them both, one for life given up theother for love no longer able to be returned, for death brings anend.. even of passions needs..Mike Adams05/27/03-------P-Amber Kiss
Ah to kiss, cheek to cheek,lips wanting more, but deniedfor to explore the passionsshared, brings doom and agonymost dire, as they knowthe kissing, hugging,cuddles caught, and touchesand looks given, will destroythem both, one for life givenup the other for love no longerable to be returned, for deathbrings an end.. even of passionsneeds..Mike Adams2003-------P-Mistress Mischief (aka Ana)
In your eyes, eyes that flashwith smiles and frowns,with morons and with clowns,with lovers and with friends,to light the room or strike it down,her eyes smile, her smile smiles,and death has no place in my heart,for her smile is of light and joy,of love and pleasure shared, not of sex,but of soul, of vision done as one..How can I describe it,the alter of her being,smooth of skin, lithe of body,face to cause me to slaughtereach other for a moment of hertime. How to worship at your alter,or die trying. How can I love you,with pain, and delight,of love and caress,or look and delight,of touch and sight,or soul and more,of kiss and caress,of hair and a mess.Or just you being you..smile for me?Darkness falls, the worldis at an end, for shehas closed the curtains tight,from my heart, and words.ah sweet light, how thoutempts me to look up andenjoy the heat, warmthand pleasure of your rays and times,but darkness comes to quick, andI am cast down back into the pitof my own doubt, and lonely soul.Trapped once again, until you fall,fall into this darkness to light it up,to give it hope, truth, knowledge, and more..But until then, I sleep..Mike Adams2004---------P-Ana (Mistress Mischief):
Mistress Mischief in your eyes,eyes that flash with smiles and frown,with morons and with clowns, withlovers and with friends, to light theroom or strike it down, her eyes smile,her smile smiles, and death has noplace in my heart, for her smile is oflight and joy, of love and pleasure shared,not of sex, but of soul, of vision done as one..darkness fall, the world is an end, for shehas closed the curtains tight, from my heart,and words. ah sweet light, how thou temptsme to look up and enjoy the heat, warmthand pleasure of your rays and times, butdarkness comes to quick and I am castdown back into the pit of my own doubt,and lonely soul. Trapped once again, untilyou fall, fall into this darkness to light it up,to give it hope, truth, knowledge, and more..But until then, I sleep..Mike Adams200?-------P-ANALYZED INSANE:
Beat me, whip me,tell me wrong,am I nuts?Insane crazy orjust weirdam I mutantor rebel heroor cripple,told I am nutsa mutant crazy andinsane and thiscorner I am in,analyzed into itby thoughtsare they rightor wrong,or just ... here.Here in this corner,back alongwalls together,locked here,with no way out,to go, backedinto a corner,with no door,door to show me out,where am I,how did I get hereto this corner,to the left is wall,the right is wall,to the top ceiling lowand sloping this,this point,and floor is dark,cold, like dead space,cold and soaking up thewarmth of me into it..Mike Adams2005--------P-Angel
Hair tight and up, eyes mischief incarnate,eyebrows that inspire, nose perky and bobbed,eats pierce and lickable, hands crossed to hidebehind them, breast firm and lovely, like mountainsof love and joy to the eyes of man, with many thingshidden behind cloths, dark and glitter..Mike Adams2003----------P-Angel of Heaven
She stands before me, a creature of heaven,bright and angelic, hair flowing down pastshoulder pale and lovely, eyes bright and fullif life and promise, nose, cute more wouldwaste the words, lips that beg to be kissed,long and hard, tasting each inch and part,exploding tongues that entwine like wild snakes,chin that is strong and firm, shoulder bare to hiskisses, and tongues and tasting, as his handsclasp around with hers. Pulling each other close,warmth combined, inflaming, souls that explodeand mingle like snow and fire or of oil with oil..like one being.. They stand, moving together,gliding together as one, cloths sliding off, thrownaway like waste, strewn around the room in theirhaste to come together and express theirmutual lust and love.Mike Adams2003------P-Anger Numb
I feel numb with no anger to sustain meto fill me and hold me tight to keep megoing to provide comfort and warmth whenalone, no pain to remind me mortal I amto remind me that I live.. Now just numbfor the pain has past, or just hiddenbut the anger is gone and I am numband lost, music once held me, not itis dreary and boring, no effect justnumb, feeling nothing, but the emptyvoid that was my hate, anger and pain.So I am just numb.Mike Adams2005For a Coast Guard Diver I met in the mental ward in the Air Force Base Hospital in Oakland/San Fransisco.---------P-Anxiety Blues
Anxietywhat can be saidyou run, hide flyawayMike200?The fun of anxiety and the attacks and depressions(more work on)---------P-Are we having fun yet:
Are we having fun yetspeaks of my things.For what is fun?For some it is beat me,wipe me and make mefeel loved. For others itis just seeing a kids smile.Mike Adams2006---------P-Attention:
Sex, love, affection,need of attention,what is the truthfor some it is power,others it is touch,others it is knowingthey are aliveand still got it,or just to be seen.Mike Adams2005----P-Avinar El (My Jinn)
so what you doing other than being more like an angel to my eyes,to make this poor world seem like hell and I dragged her from yourgaze and beauty by a cruel world..Here, just drawing in the joy of your face, the peace of it, and thecalm of it, to see it for every day until the end is here, would beparadise..I should go soon, to much heaven dulls my mind and makes me sleepy..I got a goal, now to make it happen? but okay, buddies for now, butlike diamonds, gold and emeralds, you a hot item, wealth beyondmeasure and if I don't get you, some one else ill.. He best be damngood.. you are Helen, to drive men made with lust, desire, to have you,to keep you, to take you away, to know you, to quest and have you,to know the pleasures of your company, or just star dumb, just looking..Nose, is cute, like a deers nose, soft to the touch, to be kissed andteased, nose to nose, or tongue or more.. how to love it, but it is you,the whole you, and no more..Take care, I am off, to dream of you, and hold you close..why you bring it out, should I not share it, or keep it hidden?understand to well, that is the tragedy of us, time, space, and net,tie us and divides us.Mike Adams2005?Work in progress 2005-------Copyright 1998/2011 Mike Adams