…On this oh so joyous occasion
people looked at me weird for smiling
People assume I am incapable of feeling pain
They couldn't be more far away from the truth
Everyone deals with pain differently
I just chose to pretend it doesn't exist
Smiling helps me hide from the truth
The truth is...
I smile because I don't want to cry
Crying would be like admitting they are truly gone
So I smile
I smile so I can block away any pain I may feel
So I play the oblivious fool for as long as I can
before my smiling mask starts to crack
What inspired me to write this poem was when I was thinking of a sad anime scene.
In my poem I am exploring the feeling of bottling up one's emotions.
When people bottle up their emotions, depending on the person, they do different things.
For example: they may take it out on others, become gloomy, or, in this story, smile.
The word that shows this emotion is smile. I choose smile because when you hear the word smile you first think of it as something happy or positive but in reality it's not. I mean, It can be but your feelings decide whether or not it will be.
It could be a happy smile, a sad smile, a lonely smile, etc. Your feelings decide on what kind of smile it could be.
A smile can be the perfect cover up for what you are feeling. Sometimes smiling is all one can do to prevent themselves from breaking down.