I often get accused

by cynics or people who actually know how to read the room

that I only bring a book with me

to seem "nonchalant" or "cool".

Oh, no, no, no,

I wish I could sometimes leave it home,

and only read in my bedroom,

with a candle lit up,

and a highlighter and ruler in my hand,

but no.

I just take it with me

because I need a lamp post to tether myself to,

when I can't figure out what to do.

I don't know how to make myself interesting enough,

to be the centre of attention when I walk in a room.