Limitations and Manifestations

pain to inflamminations Weather; suddenly knees or elbows starting to hurt, like glass.

Some hours later fog comes up or it is raining.

Why did my body not warn me ?.

In my youth, on my 4th, a stress in our house, developed into a stress related stomach disorder. This stress makes me go in ' fight modus '. This i heard at my psychotherapist at 15 year, and really learned when being 4,5 years in army. Here i saw, and experienced a lot of fear, working different for humans.The worst case was a 15 years retired soldier, called to repetition exercises. He was reservist so wanted to be there. It started with being homesick, bad weather, cold, and stress caused him to cramp, ending with defile himself. Again, he said to ' want to be there '. When having this stress, it is like using drugs like painkillers, aneastetics, or cocaine. All what happens, or you feel, goes through ' dark colored glasses '.

My body does not work like it should or like other people experience theirs, it work like an olderly. Since 1998 i have serious continously complaints 24 / 7. Like since 2008 with getting up, it takes several hours before the pain is gone. This is being sick for me. It does not matter anymore what i do, like excercises. I did excercises almost everyday, and will still try if my body lets me. A lot of things changed. The first in 1998 were 1) having cold feelings 2) working above my head with tools. Then came the feeling like standing on ice. This was my worst damaged disc playing with me. I know now. In 2003 my girl and me had less work, also in our garden, and we took ' 2 months ' vacation. Now pain started to come up. When thinking back, like having eaten to much, that is how it felt.

Walking, sitting, lying down. Moving around, for 10 to 30 minutes. Walking stairs once ot couple of times

Eating properly when being up all day without lying down for rest Sound and light can be to much when having different nerve pains.

Working, like with a broom, 30 seconds and i go down; lights out. Trips away from home are diffecult.