Once a Year

Once a year I find myself longing to die

You kept my world away from burning fire

Once a year I cry

These tears never came prior

Once a year I see the light of dusk

I remember your face

Once a year I remember our trust

Wish you had never left in such haste

 feels like a bullet hole through my hollow husk heart

I wish I was taken for your part

The world I see is drained of color

Once a year You were everything I mutter

Yet this forsaken world slaughters

Making breathing moments harder

I needed you

I walk around feeling like a fool

I want to feel your touch

I loved the way you made me hush

Your sweet strawberry smell 

Once a year at these memories, my heart swells

Tonight I shall see you

I’ll be with you

I’ll hold you again

I'll kiss you again

Tonight will be my last sleep

Meet me at the gates 

Once a year on this date, I see you again

It was always our fates

I begin my ascension upward